DALAWAMPU'T TATLO
It has been two weeks since that incident. Hindi na nagparamdam si Andrei sa akin. Though I hate to admit it, namimiss ko siya. but I have to stand firm. Andrei will not mature if I keep on forgiving him. He would keep on having that Montreal mentality na kung ano man ang gustuhin niya ay makukuha niya dala na rin ng apelyidong mayroon siya.
"Pancakes?" Pier offered me. kinuha ko iyona t agad nilantakan. I took the ketchup and poured it on the pancake hanggang sa magmukha na itong duguan. Pier grimaced pero hindi ko siya pinansin. Kumain lang ako ng kumain.
"Hoy, bruha! Umamin ka nga, wala na ba talagang pag-asa?" he said. Napatigil ako sa pagsubo ng pancake at tiningnan ito.
"Pag-asa saan?"
"Sa inyo ni Andrei! D to the U to the H naman girl! Andrei Montreal yan oh!" he screamed at nagpalakad lakad sa harapan ko.
"Ang OA mo Pier." Sabi ko na lang. he looked at me with wide eye and flipped his hair bago tumakbo papunta sa akin.
"At ikaw manhid. Bingi. Tanga. Baliw at kung ano ano pa! Grabe ka! I thought your heart became that of ice, hindi pala! You became heartless! Have you even listened to his reason? He left you because he wanted to make your dream come true! For the nth time, lahat ng ginagawa niya para sayo!" pasigaw nitong sabi. Nakatitig lang ako dito. Ang ganda pala ng ilong ng baklang ito. Pati yung pisngi niya. Ang pula pula. Sarap halikhalikan.
"Nakikinig ka ba?" he snapped his fingers infront of me. I smiled and touched his cheeks. Mabilis siyang tumakbo palayo sa akin.
"Kadiri ka Ericka! Don't you ever do that again! Eew!" he shivered. Tumawa ako at lumapit sa kanya.
"Pier,can I kiss your cheeks?"
"NO!" he screamed and flipped his imaginary hair. Lalong pumula ang mukha niya.
"Pier naman!"
"Manyak mo Ericka! Sabunutan kita diyan eh! Para kang timang." Inis nitong sabi at umupo na talaga sa malayo.
"Para halik lang. Ang damot mong bakla ka." I raised my eyebrows at him. Nanlaki ang mata nito at unti unting niyakap niya ang sarili niya.
"Could it be..hindi mo binalikan si Drei..dahil may pagnanasa ka sa akin?" mahina niyang sabi. I stuck my tongue out at binato siya ng throw pillow!
"Dream on."
"Then why do you want to kiss me? Don't tell me naglilihi ka?" he asked me casually. Napatigil ako sa pagbalik sana sa madugo kong pancake at tiningnan si Pier. Nanlamig ang balat ko sa sinabi nito pero pinilit kong kumalma. Pier eyed me at napanganga siya.
"BUNTIS KA ERICKA YANA?!"
Tinitigan ko lang siya before shaking my head. Tiningnan ko ang pancake at kumain ulit kahit na nanginginig pa rin ang mga kamay ko. Muntik pa akong mapatalon sa kinauupuan ko ng biglang bumukas ang pintuan ng bahay ko at tumatakbo si Savannah papunta sa akin. Binalibag niya ang isang dyaryo sa harapan ko. Tinignan ko lang ito.
"You dumped Adi?" she fumed. Tumango lang ako.
"She dumped Andrei and now she's pregnant." Pier said. Sinamaan ko lang siya ng tingin.
"Hindi ako buntis Pier."
Savannah looked at me before shaking her head.
"Pier,pwedeng pakikuha yung eyeglasses nitong bruhang ito,please?" Savannah wearily said. Sumunod naman si Pier at inabot sa akin ang salamin ko. Savannah opened the newspaper and gave it to me.
"Read it."
Inis kong kinuha ang dyaryo at muntik ko ng mabuga ang kinakain ko. I gasped hard when I realized what the news meant.
"Yes, he lied to you. Pero lahat ng iyon, ginawa niya dahil gusto niyang sumaya ka. He went through hell so that you won't have to go through it yourself Ericka. He was the one giving while you are the one who is always taking." Savannah said. Binasa ko ulit ang headline at napayuko na lang ako para itago ang luha ko.
ANDREI MONTREAL AWAY FOR GOOD?
The singer-actor Andrei Montreal confirmed that he had already signed a contract under Universal Records and will stay in New York for good. On a previous interview, he also confirmed that his rumored girlfriend, Ericka Sandoval, daughter of the real-estate magnate, Edilberto Sandoval, has cut all ties and now on their separate ways. Is this the reason for the singer's sudden decision to migrate to New York?
"Ewan ko rin naman kasi sayo Ericka. Ang tigas mo." Savannah mumbled. Tinignan ko lang siya bago huminga ng malalim.
"Is this--"
"Andrei and Anna ladies and gentlemen!"
Napaharap ako sa living room kung saan nanunuod si Pier. Lumapit ako rito and saw Andrei and Anna sitting on a stool with Boy and Kris. Lumapit ako roon at napahawak sa dibdib ko when I saw Andrei's state right now. Namayat siya at mukhang wala na talagang tulog.
"Andrei, isang tanong, isang sagot. Hiwalay na ba kayo ni Ericka Sandoval?" Boy asked. Anna looked at him habang napalunok naman si Andrei.
"Yes." Tipid niyang sagot.
"May gusto ka bang sabihin sa kanya?" Boy further asked. Napatango tango si Kris. Lumunok si Andrei at tumingin ng diretsyo sa camera.
"I.."
Ngumiti si Anna sa kanya and held his hand. Tumingin si Andrei dito bago napailing iling na lang.
"Mahal kita Yana.."
I gasped at tumalikod na. hindi ko kayang makita siyang ganyan--
"Mahal kita pero masakit na.."
Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
The background music started at napahinto ako sa paglalakad.
"You're right.We're so broken.. but I am very willing to fix everything..basta ikaw lang at ako..sabi ko sa sarili ko..gagawin ko ang lahat..bumalik lang tayo sa dati..bumalik ka lang sa akin..wala akong pakialam kung tama man o mali ang paraan ko..basta makuha ka lang.." huminga ito ng malalim. Humarap ako and saw his tear filled eyes.
Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, oh
Things you never say to me, oh, oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love
"Oo madamot ako Yana..madamot ako.. pero para sa kaligayahan mo nagsakripisyo ako..binitawan kita para matupad mo yung pangarap mo..kahit kapalit noon, ang masira naman ang sa akin.." tumigil ito at umiling iling na lang bago huminga ulit ng malalim.
"Ayokong makulong ka sa akin..gusto kong maging masaya ka..kasi mahal kita Ericka Yana..ganoon naman dapat hindi ba..dapat kapag nagmahal ka, una ang kaligayahan niya bago ang sayo..una yung tawa niya bago yung sayo..una siya sa lahat ng bagay..."
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
"Ikaw lang ang pangarap kong hindi ko maabot..kasi ang layo layo mo. Pero kahit ganoon, para pa rin akong gago na nagpipilit..kaya nagawa ko lahat ng nagawa ko eh.. kasi akala ko, baka pwede nang ako naman yung sumaya..baka pwedeng pangarap ko naman yung matupad..baka pwede na tayo..pero hindi pala.." his voice broke at tumulo pa lalo ang mga luha niya.
I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh, we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind
(Yeah, but this is happenin')
"Mag-iingat ka ha? Mahal kita Yana..mahal kita.."yun lang at lumipat ang camera kay Kris. Napaupo ako sa sahig at humagulhol.
"Is there anything you want to add Andrei?" she calmly said. Nakagat ko ang labi ko dahil ang sakit sakit ng dibdib ko ng marinig ko lahat ng sinabi niya.
You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, oh
You used to lie so close to me, oh, oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love
Oh, our love, our love
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I never stopped
You're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
Isa lang ang alam ko. Mahal nga niya ako. Mahal nga ako ni Andrei.
"Wala na po." He answered. Boy cleared his throat.
"Goodluck sa flight ninyo tonight Anna, Andrei. Pasalubong ko ha?" Kris said. Savannah gasped at nabitawan ni Pier ang remote control.
"A-ano?"
"Flight ni Andrei ngayon Ericka.." Savannah whispered. Nanigas ako sa kinatatayuan ko. Nanlalambot ang tuhod ko at kumapit ako sa sofa.
"He's leaving.."
My heart broke. Agad akong tumayo at tumakbo palabas ng apartment ko. No. Andrei.
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