Sabado ng hapon, bandang alas tres nang magka writer's block ako.
Actually tinamad lang talaga ako, writer's block lang ginamit ko para kunwari sosyal. So, nagka writer's block na ang ateng niyo.
And usually ang ugali ko kapag nagkaka writer's block(tinamad) nawalan ng ganang sumulat or nawalan ng inspirasyon para sumulat ay nag di-day dream ako sa mala kulambong duyan na nasa ilalim ng punong mangga sa bakod namin.
O di kaya'y nag a-anime marathon ako. Trip kong genre ay romance, commedy, harem at ang pinaka bet ko sa lahat...
Yaoi o di kaya'y shounen Ai.
Bakit?
Ang astig lang, ang gagwapo ng mga characters. Pero kadalasan nama'y ini-skip forward ko kapag masyadong marumi na-- ayoko ng ganun.
Yung mga itsura ng male lead couple lang naman ang habol ko at ang plot ng story, hindi yung kalaswaang gagawin nila. Pero syempre kapag nanood ka ng ganoon di mo naman talaga maiiwasang makakita ng something-- kaya dapat ready ka to press forward always.
Lalo na yung Sekai-Ichi Hatsukoi, sa lahat ng BL ay yun ang pinaka bet ko.
Bakit?
Ang ganda ng plot, di siya purong kahalayan. Isang formal na Boys Love.
Minsan nama'y nagbabasa ako ng manga or webtoon or nagbabasa ng mga tambak na librong nabili ko sa book sale.
Yeah, Ima freaking geek like the man that I am going to meet soon... My exact opposite.
Psh, mapapasubo na ako sa englisan mamaya!
So mga quarter to 3PM nag i-scan ako ng mga bagong tik-tok douyin videos.
Eksaktong 3 pm ay nanood ako ng anime.
3:40 pm ay nagbasa ako ng manga hanggang sa maisipan kong mag download na lang ng manga app para maidownload ko na lang ang mga manga at mabasa ko kahit offline.
I rummage through Google play store, finding the right manga app with the best rate and positive feedback.
Until I ran through Anime and Manga Amino for Otakus na application. It caught my attention. An amino for both anime and manga geeks.
Great!
So kinalimutan ko si manga app and I go for that application-- the Amino.
Downloading...
Atat na atat ako.
Bakit?
Di ko alam, ang alam ko lang excited ako-- honestly speaking.
Installing...
Amino App had been installed. It was more of exploring kasi di ko naman alam kung anong gagawin or paano gamitin ang application na yun, sinusunod ko lang ang mga instructions.
I signed up, gumawa ako ng sariling account, pumili ng dummy pic at saka nag lagay ng bio.
Nakikita niyo ba yang mood d'yan-- yang umiiyak?
Well It's my current mood.
Am I crying?
Nope, exagerated lang talaga ang emoticon.
So iba pala dito, kakapindot ko pa nga lang ng "ok" button. Kakaactivate ko pa nga lang eh marami nang nag follow kaagad.
Wew! I feel special, hwehwe!
Binuksan ko ang Alert Button at bumulaga sakin ang iilang nag follow na kaagad.
Nakikita niyo ba ang nais kong makita niyo?
Great!
David at number 10 which is exactly my special number.
Oh, what a freaky coincidence right? INSOMNIA-DAVID-10... Nevermind!
And so nag scan ako, hoping na may mahanap akong magagandang manga. Pero na realize kong di pala yun collections ng mga manga at anime kundi isang application na sinawa para sa mga avid anime at manga readers.
A mode of communication-- social media.
An application to meet and make friends with like minded people. Napabuga ako ng hangin sa pagka dismaya.
"Wala naman na palang kwenta 'to eh." bulalas ko saka gigil na nag-amok sa setting ng cellphone ko para i-uninstall si AMINO!
Loko 'to ah na scam ako!
But... (in English)
Ngunit nang... (in Filipino)
Sa dihang... (in Cebuano)
Pipindutin ko na ang mahiwagang buton ng UNINSTALL ay tumunog ang phone ko.
Amino!
I receive the first chat from David
Pagbukas ko, nag mark kaagad ang "Decline" or "Accept".
At first, I was hesitant.
Bakit?
Wala lang para may feels.
But I ended up clicking the "Accept" button and it says:
DAVID
1st chat: "Hey."
Kala niyo ano no? Hey lang po mga expecters-- Hey lang, okay? It was the first chat of David, first word. Parang baby lang ano, may first word.
Dada-- mama-- tata-- popo. Yan ang first word ng mga baby at "Hey" naman ang kay David.
Pero dahil mabait ako at di kabilang sa kilusan ng mga snobbers sa mundo-- at syempre aminin na rin nating di naman ako malandi, slight lang-- I replied with a smiling emoticon.
Iyan po ang bagong ngiti ng mga malalandi.
DAVID
2nd chat: "How are you?"
At dahil sa tanong na yun ay natulala ako ng isang segundo. Napaka FC naman ng taong 'to. Pero dahil mabait ako at di kabilang sa kilusan ng mga haters sa mundo-- at syempre aminin na rin nating di naman ako bitter at broken, slight lang-- I replied.
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Not so fine-- what about you?"
Di ko ugaling magsinungaling, eh sa bad trip talaga ako plus problemado pa sa pera.
Yes, I'm broke. My wallet is broke and my heart is broke that's why my head is broke too.
Baka pala ma scam ko si David at padalhan niya ako ng pera hehe.-- JOKE LANG mga judger!
DAVID
3rd chat: "I'm fine."
4th chat: "And why is that? Why aren't you fine, what happened?"
And again, natulala nanaman ako ng 1 second plus 5 seconds.
English eh.
Ang totoo ay... the way I see it, there's a touch of concern-- though it's a chat and I can't see what's the real emotion behind those words. At dahil nananalaytay sa dugo ko ang pagiging FC, di naman gaano, slight lang-- I replied.
LEE SEUL BYUL
"That's good to hear."
"Problems and unreached expectations."
"Oh sorry, I don't want to spread negative vibes."
Ayaw ko mag spread ng negative vibes pero naikalat ko na-- sabi ko sa inyo eh, my head is broke too. Napangisi ako ng mapang-uyam.
I'm a fool! I opened up into a stranger.
Nabalik sa phone ang atensyon ko nang muli itong tumunog.
DAVID
5th chat: "No! You're just fine."
I bitterly smile after reading his chat. Ano bang alam mo eh di mo nga ako nakikita. Pero kahit ganun pa ang tumatakbo sa isip ko. At dahil nananalaytay sa dugo ko ang pagiging chismosa, di naman gaano, slight lang-- I replied.
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Do you think so?"
DAVID
6th chat: "Yes, just think of it that way. You know, why would you think such hideous things."
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Can't explain. I just felt that I'm more of a failure. Dreams are fading-- plans are losing."
"I hate it when money is involved."
Sabi ko nga diba may ulterior motives ako. Baka nga maawa 'tong David at padalhan ako ng pera-- JOKE ulit yun mga judger. I am a good cetizen of this nation who doesn't rely on dirty money and as one of the sovereign Filipino people, imploring the aid of Almighty God, in order to build a just and humane society, and establish a Government that shall embody our ideals and aspirations, promote the common good, conserve and develop our patrimony, and secure to ourselves and our posterity, the blessings of independence and democracy under the rule of law and a regime of truth, justice, freedom, love, equality, and peace, do ordain and promulgate this Constitution.
Good citizen po ako mga judger!
Ahu! Ahu!
DAVID
7th chat: "How old are you?"
LEE SEUL BYUL
"32"
"I mean 23 haha"
"And you?"
DAVID
8th chat: "lol"
9th chat: "19"
10th chat: "I mean you're still young."
11th chat: "There's a lot more time to do everything you wanted."
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Look who's talking, oh baby haha."
"Where are you from?"
Aigoo, ang cute ni David, imagine 19 years old pa siya mas bata siya sa akin ng apat na taon at ang tanda niya nang magsalita. Ang cute lang, hmmm gusto ko siyang i-pat sa head at saka kurutin ang pisngi then i-cuddle.
DAVID
12th chat: "California, USA. What about you?"
Oh, so ayun inistalk ko ang profile niya, akala ko Indian eh pero based on his grammar and the constructions of words I know what his accent is.
Yeah, he's telling the truth.
I've got a lil baby boy from California, USA.
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Philippines :)"
DAVID
13th chat: "Oh nice. How is it there?"
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Quite cloudy. There?"
DAVID
14th chat: "It so hot in here."
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Oh."
"What time is it there?"
DAVID
15th chat: "1:15 am."
16th chat: "What about where you're at?"
LEE SEUL BYUL
"4:15pm"
DAVID
17th chat: "Oh, quite a time difference!"
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Yeah, haha."
"Are you still studying?"
DAVID
18th chat: "Nope. I'm working at a cellphone repair shop. Nothing special eh. Hehe."
19th chat: "What are you doing right now?"
LEE SEUL BYUL
"It's better to have that job than nothing."
"After working. I write."
"If I can't find the inspiration to write, I read books, mangas and watch dramas and anime haha"
So nalaman kong dun nagtatrabaho si David kaya I get cold. Di ko na siya gagawing target ng scamming, mukha namang wala rin yung pera-- kakaibiganin ko na lang talaga siya.
Oh my cutie baby boy, big sister is here. It's okay if you're broke-- I'm broke too so let's leave this cruel world and celebrate together.
Ahu! Ahu!
DAVID
20th chat: "Interesting."
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Yeah, writing is indeed interesting :)"
DAVID
21st chat: "I mean. You are interesting."
Ano daw? Wait nagla log ang utak ko, it doesn't sound right, It sounds left!
DAVID
22nd chat: "You know I don't know if this will help, but I hope it will. In order to get inspired is exploring. You must try doing the most uncomfortable things that you don't feel like doing."
Wait! Marumi bang isip ko guys? Ako lang ba o parang may double meaning na?
No! I must contain my attitude. Isa siyang pobreng bata na nangangailangan ng kalinga, kaya be good to him. In order for me to restrain-- I'll drop a joke.
LEE SEUL BYUL
"I see."
"I've got an idea."
DAVID
23rd chat: "And what is it?"
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Gonna steal from a bank or ditch someone else child and ask for a ransom 😂"
DAVID
24th chat: "😂It's a little bit overboard. But if that got you to write the most world seller Historical Fiction-- then why not! LMAO."
LEE SEUL BYUL
"Lol, then I'll be writing my piece behind the bars 😂"
"Tell me if you want to sleep, I might be getting some of your time 😔"
DAVID
25th chat: "No, you weren't. You're interesting and your words were captivating."
26th chat: "I want to talk to you more. No, I love talking to you that I can trade sleeping just to have a chat with you."
Wait!
Stop me!
Explain it to me like I'm 5!
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