•annie•
i shut my door behind me as i collapsed on my bed.
i was finally home.
typically, carson and hayden could make me feel better anyday, but it just felt...i just felt, unwanted.
i sighed as i unlocked my phone.
as soon as my phone was unlocked i got a message.
i clicked it.
it was from austin.
i read the message, stress taking over.
' i'm coming over '
the text read.
' i'm sorry but i'm busy '
i told him.
' i don't care, i'm pulling up, open the door for me, now '
he told me.
i tried my best to blink away tears as i slowly walked down the stairs.
i opened the door and he pushed me as he roughly walked in.
i didn't say anything, i only follwed him up to my room.
he closed the door behind us and he pushed me hard onto my bed.
i stayed still and watched him lock the door.
he turned to me and gave me an angry, stern look.
"take it off."
he demanded.
"take what off?"
i asked shakily.
i'm pretty sure i knew what he meant, but i had to make sure.
"your clothes. take them off."
"i- i-"
i stuttered.
he came up to me and grabbed my face, taking it closer to him.
"take. it. off."
he chuckled as he stepped back.
i felt the tears form in my eyes and i slowly took off my hoodie.
i paused.
"go on, don't be shy baby."
he chuckled.
i can't believe the person who i love is now doing this.
but, i guess you can't have the same feelings coming from the other person.
"hurry up!"
he told me, angrily.
i let out another whimper as i slowly took off my leggings.
he chuckled once again as he pulled his tee shirt off and flung it across the room.
he pushed me back and started kissing down my neck.
i got a fluttery feeling in my stomach.
i could feel him leaving hickies down my jawline, neck, and collarbone.
i started to smile as he kissed along my chest.
i laughed softly as he continued down my stomach.
it felt great.
it felt...amazing.
soft moans escaped my lips as he tugged at my underwear.
he moved them down about an inch before i snapped out of it and put my hand over my underwear.
as i prevented him from pulling them down, i jolted up.
he followed me upwards, with his lips still attached to my chest.
i let out a moan before speaking.
"st- stop."
i told him.
he didn't stop.
"austin i'm being serious, stop- ahh."
i quickly covered my mouth before trying to push him off of me.
"a- austin."
i called out, trying my best to ignore his actions and focus on getting him off of me.
he moved down my stomach once again.
he sent an even stronger fluttery feeling through my body.
he kissed me through my underwear and i immediately closed my legs.
he gave me an angry look as he tried to pry my legs apart.
"let me in baby. i won't hurt you."
"but you already have-"
"shhh baby girl, let me show you how much i love you."
he whispered in my ear before nibbling on it.
"uh, st- stop."
i said pushing him away.
"then i'll have to do it the hard way."
he said before immediately pinning my arms above my head.
he then pinned my legs down before slowly pulling my underwear down my legs with his teeth.
"stop! austin please! no! s- stop it!"
i yelled, squirming.
he didn't answer.
he leaned down.
"please! i'll do anything just please, not now at least!"
his mouth was just about to meet me when the door bell rang.
i sighed in relief as he angrily released my and put on his shirt.
he grabbed his keys and walked out.
he shut the door behind him and i heard him open the downstairs door.
"she's upstairs."
he said angrily.
i heard the person enter and started coming up the stairs.
i stopped my whimpers and wiped my tears.
i stood up quickly, but i was still weak and uneasy from what had happened.
i pulled up my underwear and put on my hoodie.
i heard a knock at the door.
"o- one second please."
i said quietly.
there was no response.
i pulled on my leggings, trying to make as little noise as possible.
once i was dressed, i fixed my hair and tried my best to act like nothing happened.
i took at deep breath before opening the door.
there stood a hayden summerall in the doorway.
his awkward smile turned to a frown when he looked at me.
"annie are you okay?! what'd he do?!"
he asked, frantic.
he reached for me but i walked away from his reach.
"nothing, i'm fine."
i told him.
"annie, why were you crying?"
he asked.
"i wasn't. seriously i wasn't."
i reasurred him.
"i'm not dumb, i can see the streaks of mascara running down your face."
he told me.
i wiped under my eyes, seeing black residue on my fingertips.
i sighed and started crying again.
i broke down.
hayden rushed towards me.
i was sitting with my back against the side of the bed on thr cold hard ground.
"what's wrong? what'd he do?! i swear, i'll kill em!"
he said in anger but worry.
"it's a long story and its all my fault."
i cried into his shoulder.
"well i have time, start from the beginning."
"well i went to austin's house earlier, and he was really mean."
"what kind of mean?"
he asked.
"like...he just..."
"he what? annie, you can tell me, i swear i won't tell anyone. we'll get through this together."
he comforted me.
"he- he hit me."
i cried, my cries getting louder.
"how did he hit you?"
"he- he slapped me, and..."
i slowly lifted my hoodie, showing him a bruise on my stomach.
i pulled up my sleeve as well, showing him four grip marks on my arm.
"was this just now?"
he asked.
"no, he made me do orders for him and tgen he told me to grt out, so i left and went to carson's house."
i cried as my tears seeped into his tee shirt.
"so that's why you were acting different..."
he said softly.
"i'm sorry."
i cried, feeling very apologetic.
i'm a screw up.
i screwed up their hang out time, i most likely screwed up my families lives, and now i'm screwing up my own life.
"shh it's okay...so, what happened just now? he seemed mad..."
he asked in a soft voice.
i don't wanna say it.
i can't say it.
i can't tell him.
i can't.
through all that happened, i enjoyed it.
there was apart of me that didn't want him to stop.
that fluttery feeling came, and hasn't gone.
i liked it.
and that makes me a slut.
i stayed silent.
"annie, i promise i can help you through this, i will, but you have to tell me what happened."
i blinked tears out of my eyes.
i had just calmed down.
"well he came u- upstairs. and pushed me...and...and he made me..."
i paused.
"he made me take my clothes off, i didn't want to but he hurt me and forced me to... and then he pushed me back...and he started to kiss me..."
i was crying again.
"where did he kiss you?"
he asked.
i traced down my body in the line he kissed.
he stayed silent.
"and i- i..."
i started.
"he started going further on..and i...i liked it..."
i cried as i barely even spoke the last two words.
"you what?.."
hayden asked.
"i liked it."
i told him through the cries, and i said it pretty loud.
"annie, it's okay if you liked it, you can't control it, but what he did was wrong, and it's not your fault."
he comforted me.
"i'm such a gross person..."
i whispered.
"no you're not. annie you're the most amazing, beautiful, and creative girl i know. you're my definition of perfect."
"thanks hay..."
i whispered, smiling the slightest smile.
"i mean it. can you promise me something?"
i nodded.
"promise me that you won't ever say you're not worth it."
i gave him a sympathetic look.
he held out his pinky.
i wiped my tears and linked my pinky with his.
he kissed his thumb and i did the same.
we then connected our thumbs and he smiled.
my smile grew a little ity bit bigger.
i wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist.
i buried my head in his chest and he rested his head on mine.
the room was filled with nothing but my sniffles as he made me feel safe.
as he made me feel protected.
as he made me loved.
as he made me feel worth it.
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