i left the school still sad.
i left dina jane.
she was the only one
i could think about.
i lay on my hammock,
not bothering about the homework
quite yet.
i heard sobs.
it was dina.
the fact that she was
crying because of
me made me want to leave
this place forever.
safe heavens.
you don't care about her anymore,
i repeated to myself.
hell yes, i still did;
despite i told myself
so many times i
didn't.
i climbed over our tree,
stumbled into her balcony.
"dina? are you alright?"
i asked the sad girl
laying on the ground,
as if she were collapsed.
"i'm fine."
she said sobbing.
i knelt down to hug her,
she flinched.
"i'm here now."
"i never said i wanted you here."
"please excuse me,
i'm such a dumbass.
i should not have let you down."
"tell me why. just why."
"i...was feeling a bit down."
"alright,
i guess you're telling me the truth."
no, i'm not.
if you only knew what
gilinsky did to me,
you'd break up with him.
and i don't want that,
because he makes
you happy.
it hurts,
but your happiness
is all i really want,
that's what love is about
----
i love you, probably as much as matt... thou shalt be honoured
& btw the book cover is about this chapter, when nash is comforting dina bc she is crying
-nat