Happiness is precious, and it is what some people overlook. Even with fame and money, without happiness you are doing it out of conscience, not out of the happiness in your heart. What if that happens to you? What if you are stripped of all control of yourself?
It hurts, for once I wanted to stop being controlled by people. To stop doing this for them and just for me. To disobey them once and for all and to peacefully experience the happiness that I have wished to have. Sometimes, I don't need discipline, I just need to learn by myself, hurt myself and learn again. I am that person.
When you see me, you probably don't expect anything wrong with me. You probably just observe the glimmering happiness that I probably have, the smile that I contain, the goofy personality that I convey. Overlooking the tears that have threatened to fall until my last, "I'm fine." The bags under my eyes for staying up for so long just looking and looking at my phone for maybe some sprinkle of happiness somewhere else?
I'm not fine.