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WYATT'S POV
Alright, you can do this. He's right there, just tell him.
"Jaeden?"
He turns to face me with twinkling eyes.
"Yeah, Wyatt?" he questions sweetly.
"I...I love you" I confess.
He smiles.
"I love y-"
I jolt awake.
Shit.
It was only a dream. If only it were real. I've been hopelessly in love with Jaeden for months now and all I can think about is kissing his cute damn face and telling him I love him.
But I've been too scared to tell him how I feel. He's all I want. But how do I tell him that he's my everything? I sighed and fell back into my pillow.
Why am I such a coward?
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The next day Finn invited me, along with the other Losers, to hangout at the LA Fair. I love them all, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't really want to go at first.
But I would never miss a day out with Jaeden. I met up with Jaeden and together we drove to Finn's.
"Hey, guys" he greeted.
"Hey, Finnlard" I smirked. "Ready to go?"
"In a minute"
Seconds later Jack stepped out of Finn's house and strode over to Finn. He smiled and kissed Finn on the lips.
I glanced at Jaeden and smirked, receiving a smile in return.
"Now I'm ready" Finn grinned goofily.
I'm jealous of Jack and Finn. They're the epitome of a perfect couple. I wanted what they had with Jaeden more than anything. I sighed and together we rode off to the fair.
We met up with Chosen, Jeremy, and Sophia. Together we all rode rides, played games, but Jaeden was distant. He barely talked to any of us Losers so I pulled him aside.
"I'm gonna take Jaeden on the Ferris Wheel" I informed the Losers.
"Sure, Wyatt" Finn smiled. "Have fun"
Jaeden smiled at me and I grabbed his hand. He intertwined our fingers and I blushed as we climbed onto the Ferris Wheel.
"Look at that view, huh Jaeden?" I nudged him gently.
He didn't answer. His vacant stare was fixated on the crowd below.
"Jae?" I said softly.
"Oh, sorry. What's up Wy?" he pulled out of his trance.
"Are you okay?" I questioned tenderly. "You'be been...distant today"
"Oh, sorry! I'm fine, just tired I guess" he explained, but I saw right through his lie.
Something was wrong. He just wasn't telling me. But I didn't want to pry. I was happy spending time with him now. I wanted to make him smile.
"Don't go sleeping on me yet, Has Jae!" I laughed and grabbed him in a headlock.
He giggled as he tried to wiggle out of my grasp. The ride suddenly stopped and I helped Jaeden climb out of the car. I ruffled his hair and we walked back to the Losers.
Eventually, it was getting late so I decided to take Jaeden home.
"Goodnight, guys" Finn smiled.
"Goodnight, Finn"
I wrapped an arm around Jaeden and together we walked home. We stopped in front of his house and I stood there awkwardly, hands shoved in my skinny jeans.
"Well, I had fun tonight, Jaeden" I smirked.
"Me too" he smiled weakly.
"Hey, Jaeden, I-" I started, but cut myself off.
He stood patiently awaiting for my lips to move, for me to speak. He gazed into my eyes with his twinkling emerald ones. I sighed and smiled before leaning down and kissing his cheek.
"Goodnight, Jae"
Before I could walk away, he threw himself into my arms and hugged me tight. I hugged back securely, despite my confusion.
"Goodnight, Wy" he whispered into my chest, then turned away and ran inside his house, closing the door behind him.
I sighed and walked home, kicking rocks the entire way as I shoved my hands in my pockets.
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The next day Finn invited the Losers to his house for a party. Again, Jaeden was distant. He barely spoke to any of the Losers. I scooted next to him and whispered in his ear.
"Jae, are you alright?" I asked gently.
"I'm fine" he lied.
"Jaeden," I smiled, "I know you. I know your heart. I know when you're hurt. I know when you're lying to me. You don't have to hide from me. What's wrong?"
He searched my eyes desperately as his own glistened with tears. I wiped them away.
"I...I'm moving, Wy" he said quietly.
My eyes widened in disbelief. Moving? No, no no not my Jaeden. I can't lose my Jae.
"You're what?" I whispered taken aback.
"Guys, I'm moving" Jaeden sobbed.
It was overwhelming. As Jaeden talked to the other Losers their voices became faint, echoes in the background of my sobs.
"How soon?" Sophia queried.
"I leave today" Jaeden answered mournfully.
"Well then...in that case, let's make the most of the time you have left" Jack smiled.
While the rest of the Losers talked, I pulled Jaeden aside.
"I'm sorry, Wyatt" he apologized sheepishly. "I wanted to tell you yesterday, but I couldn't. I just wanted one more day with you"
"I'm not mad at you Jaeden, I just...I have something I really wanna say to you-"
"If it's a meme or something I don't wanna hear it-"
"No no," I chuckled, "it's not a joke. I just..."
Ironic. I was at a loss for words when I had so much I wanted to say to him. He searched my eyes patiently as I gazed into his soft green ones.
Always his eyes had to captivate me.
And his voice.
His smile.
His laugh, God, his laugh.
His tenderness.
His quips.
Everything.
I love all of him. But how the hell do I tell him?
"Jaeden, I...Goddamnit, I can't do this, Jae" I sobbed.
"Wyatt..." he cooed and stepped toward me.
I pulled him in for a hug and held him tight. I didn't want to let him go. Ever. I didn't want to lose my Jae.
Just admit your feelings! Before it's too late! my brain screamed.
But it was all too overwhelming. I turned away from him and ran home crying.
"Wyatt, wait, please!" he called, but I kept going.
I didn't stop until my feet touched my bedroom. I'm such a fucking coward.
I slammed the door closed and kicked my nightstand before punching my mirror, shattering the fragile glass. I panted as I stared at the broken pieces littering the floor.
The shattered pieces reflected a coward and my broken heart.
My hand started throbbing. Blood trickled down my wrist as I slid down the wall and to the floor sobbing.
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My Jaeden, moving, and there's nothing I can do. He's slipping right through my fingers and I'm sitting here crying and bleeding on my bedroom floor.
But no more hiding. I can't let him go. Not my Jae.
I stood up and clenched my hands into fists. I ran out the door and sprinted to Jaeden's. I knocked on the door but there was no answer.
"Jaeden!" I called desperately. "Jaeden, please!"
Suddenly Jack and Finn came rushing towards me.
"Jaeden!" I screamed. "Please, don't be gone, I have so much to tell you!"
"Daddo, stop" Jack cooed. "He left"
"I need to see him, Jack" I sobbed, but he and Finn held me back from barging into the house.
"He left!" Finn persisted. "I'm sorry, Wyatt, but Jaeden left an hour ago!"
I was too fucking late.
Now Jaeden's gone.
Everything I want, everything I've ever wanted is gone.
Now I don't know what to do.
I didn't even say goodbye.
I settled into Jack and Finn's arms and they held me as I cried.
"I'm sorry, Wyatt"
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