Three month's and two week's is what it took to get my building the way I liked it, hire a staff, and in three more month's I will be sending copies of my first printed magazine out. Was I nervous? Extremely but super excited as well. I think my magazine will add flare to the Italian magazine industry. My magazine will be different, unique and separate from what their magazines offer. Mine will boast Amercian fashion with an Italian twist. In other word's I will be delivering American culture intertwined with Italian.
My first edition will advertise some of the fashion newcomers that's sure to have a fresh eye. It will feature an exclusive interview with the hottest pop singer here who is my covergirl as well. Of course there will be a lot of sex talk and relationship advice, newest diet trends etc. I have high hope's that it will do well.
As of now I'm packing my bags to visit my parent's for two week's before my official opening because after it opens getting home may be hard. I'm sure to be busy. Staveno can't make the trip but I understand. I'll probably sleep the first two day's there. Dealing with the magazine the pass few month's has really drained me and I've been extra tired lately. I'm really looking forward to this break.
As for Staveno and I we are doing wonderful. We haven't had anymore major blowouts since the Magna situation. We've had a few comical tiffs that lasted no longer than a couple of minutes but nothing big. Like one evening Staveno came home grouchy and went to get his leftover pasta salad but I had eaten it. As he bitched I laughed and told him how great it was. Or the time he finally snapped because my makeup and hair supplies were scattered all over the bathroom countertop. He claimed he couldn't even brush his teeth without digging his toothbrush out from underneath all my war paint. Within a week Staveno had a vanity area built for me. Naturally my thing's are still scattered on my new vanity and it drives him insane. He's even thrown a towel over it a time or two to keep from seeing it.
Oddly Staveno hasn't brought up the baby issue since my blowout about it. However i haven't taken any birth control since I threw it out. When we had the argument about Magna I saw how much he really cared for me and how well he treats me. Having his child couldn't be a bad thing and the more I thought about it the more I warmed up to the idea.
Before I knew it I was back home visiting my parent's and missing Staveno tremendously but after four day's of being home I started noticing thing's, like feeling exhausted, my favorite food's didn't look as good, certain smells made my stomach turn and I had woken up sick a few time's. Finally becoming concerned I googled my symptoms and pregnancy was at the top of the list. Immediately I rushed to the nearest drug store and bought a few pregnancy tests.
Once home I locked myself away in the bathroom, read the instructions and ripped the package open. Taking a seat upon the toilet I did my business and stared at the stick anxiously. It didn't take long before two pink lines appeared. A slew of emotions washed over me. I was scared, worried, I cried, I laughed, I felt numb yet excited. It felt strange thinking that I was going to be a mommy, that I had this little bitty person growing inside me. Part Staveno, part me. What would it be? Who would it look like? Name's, I've got to pick name's. There's so much to prepare for, to buy. And just like that I was on my knees again talking to the toilet.
Was this normal, a good sign? Food turns me off and the smells make me gag. Google to the rescue again. I laid in bed that night thinking of my current situation. I'd feel happy then scared. Excited then worried. Then I thought I haven't even told Staveno but we was a world apart right now. Eventually I dozed off and slept until late the next day. As soon as I woke I made a mad dash to the bathroom sick again but Google did say some women's morning sickness is worse than other's and can last the entire pregnancy. Please don't let that be me.
After freshening up, I looked at my phone and noticed several missed calls and texts from Staveno. Boy, I must've slept hard. Then a thought occurred to me. I recalled how Staveno contacted me with those freaky text in the beginning and decided to give alittle payback. Skipping downstairs I swiped my mom's phone up and raced back to my room.
"Hey baby, just wanted to let you know you caught my eye and I can't stop watching you".
I laughed as I sent it and waited. Within minutes I heard back.
"Sorry, I believe you have the wrong number".
Hahaha, I thought as I sent another text.
"No I don't Staveno. I've been watching you and like what I see. I bet the tag on your shirt says made in heaven baby."
I fell back on my bed in a fit of giggles over my cheesy pick up line. Before I recovered I heard the phone ting.
"Who is this. I have ways to find out."
I grinned and continued on.
"This is your dream baby. I bet your leaned back in your black leather chair trying to figure out who I am? You're moment's away from calling Theo to trace this phone. I wouldn't do that if I was you. Not if you love your brown leather shoes. I have ways to make them disappear baby".
I hit send and cackled at having threatened his shoes if he spoke. Ting... and there was my reply.
"Sorry, i already have my dream. Now listen here, I'm done playing your game. I will seriously fuck you up so if I was you I wouldn't text back. What, are you crazy or some shit?"
I busted out laughing. I use to call him crazy when he did this.
"No, I'm not crazy baby, just in love. That's right, I love you. I'm going to have your baby, baby."
I wish I could see his face when he read that.
"Fuck off crazy. Don't text back or I won't be responsible for what happens".
I laughed harder and couldn't help myself.
"Why love your already responsible for this".
I knew by now he probably was having the phone traced and I would soon be busted. It didn't take long for my phone to ring. I tried to call my laughing as I answered.
"Hey baby". I said cheerful.
"You bitch". Staveno laughed. "Trying to play game's with me huh?"
I laughed and said. "Doesn't feel good when the shoes on the other foot does it baby?"
"I'm not going to answer that love. What the hell though, my tag made in heaven? That's the corniest shit I've ever heard".
I laughed. "Did it hurt?"
"What hurt?" He asked stumped.
"When you fell from heaven". I said laughing.
"Jacey, are you drinking?" He asked concerned.
I laughed. "No not at all. So what did you think of the pic I sent you?"
"Nothing, why?"
"Well it really is mine Staveno. I'm pregnant". I said seriously.
"Jacey stop fucking with me". He said on edge.
"Staveno I'm not, this is real". I paused because I choked up.
"I found out last night. I've been so sick lately so I took a test and well... I'm pregnant. I stopped taking my pills after our big fight because I wanted to surprise you. So surprise".
Silence on his end. "Staveno". I said concerned.
"You best not be fucking with me love?"
I let a small sob out. "I'm not, I promise. I wouldn't do that. I'm scared Staveno".
"Look love, something just came up at work. I've got to run. I'll call you back". He rushed out and hung up before I could say more.
Now I really was scared. Did he have a change of heart? Did he not want this after all?" Needless to say I never heard back from him and my calls went straight to voicemail. I fell into a restless sleep.
Early the next morning I was woke to loud pounding on the front door. Obviously my mom answered it but I didn't know who it was because my morning sickness struck and I raced to the bathroom. I looked like hell bent over and felt it too as I trudged back to my room. I opened my door and found Staveno standing there with a arm full of flowers among other thing's. He held the three tests I had taken in his other hand. "It's real. Its really real?"
My eye's teared up. "Oh no, I got you love". He said racing to me and wrapping me in his arm's.
"I had to get to you love. I couldn't be away from you duiring this. You don't know how happy you've made me love. Thank you so much. I love you, I love you both". He said rubbing my flat belly.
His eye's grew misty. "My baby is in here love. You're really carrying my baby. I want a girl love just like you. You two will be my life, my reason to breath".
He said as he kneeled in front of me and placed a tender kiss to my belly before laying his head against it.