ethan's p.o.v
it's been a few weeks, i think a month or maybe two. i lost count after she stopped answering her phone, after she said she was done with the bullshit.
she said she was done with my shitty attitude that i had all the time, and she was done with the petty arguments i started.
i understand it completely, i'm a total piece of shit for acting the way i did towards her. i love her with my entire life, i just couldn't show her the way she wanted.
when she left, i broke things, i broke certain things which ended in me having stitches. i didn't eat, or sleep. but i didn't cry, that's the one thing i haven't done.
i feel like my emotions are drained, and i don't have enough energy to cry. certain moments when i think about holding her close and kissing her nose, i would go numb, thinking how i want that back.
grayson complains about how in the videos i look too sad, but there's nothing i can do about it.
i tell him i'm sorry, and without y/n here i have nothing to smile about anymore.
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it was tuesday around 3 in the morning, once again i could sleep. i stood from my bed and slid on joggers and a black tee.
i slipped on my vans and walked outside, 'going for a walk.' i texted gray, having him respond with 'be safe.'
i shut my phone off and walked down the street towards the hills. i go there when i need to think, or when i'm just bored.
i shivered, putting my hands in my pockets. i walked slowly, looking towards my feet as i kicked a rock.
footsteps hit the pavement as i walked, looking up to see a girl with ripped jeans and a jacket on, her hood covering her face, her thumbs hitting her phone harshly.
she didn't bother to look where she was going, so i moved slightly to the right until she passed. her scent shot up my nose as she shuffled past.
"y/n." i whispered, stopping and turning towards her.
she was stopped as well, looking to her feet. her hands dropped to her sides, her phone screen still on messages.
she turned her head, taking her hood off.
"ethan." she said.
"i- hi y/n." she looked beautiful as ever, her eyes sparkling.
"hi." she spoke, scratching her arm.
"where are you off to?" she asked, looking up at my eyes.
i swallowed, my breath becoming uneven because of how nervous i was.
"i was just walking i guess, too much on my mind."
i walked closer, she shoved her phone in her pocket slowly.
"i miss you." she spoke as i stopped in front of her. "i miss you too, a lot.
"well i've got to go, see you around?"
"i guess." she smiled, which made me go crazy.
"before i go, one more thing." i raised my brows, her lips coming closer to mine.
she shifted her head to my ear, making me shiver. "wake up."
i shot up from my bed, sweating as i looked at the clock, 3:01.
i grabbed my phone, my eyes widening as i saw a text from y/n.
'hi, i miss you.'
hi