2/13/17
Why do you love me so much
When I can't repay you enough
All I can do is give you useless stuff
I wish I could provide more love
I hand you my hand
I create things for you
But it's only useless
There's nothing gifts can do
I can't do what you can
I am more than a fan
Of what you can say
I miss that in less than a day
Or night
You keep me out of fright
I don't have to worry about
The things people might
Say or do or think
While alone I sink
Into the depths of my mind
Seeing things I don't want to find
I just wish to be kind
To you and me and everyone
But my mind makes me want to be done
My thoughts holding me back
Keeping me from I could have
I could have you or you or you
But what do I do?
I ruin myself inside and out
I complain to myself, I pout
Inside I want to shout
Outside I find out about
Where it hurts
I cover myself in dirt
Because that's what I deserve
I surround myself in what I am
Damn
This isn't where this poem was supposed to go
That's what happens when I follow the flow
Of my mind
To myself, I can't be kind
I'm brutally honest
But I can't handle it
I'm too close to the end
Of falling to my death
Please save your breath
To save mine
"Oh. No. I'm fine."