dear ___,
i'm sorry. i can't help it. i made you feel like complete shit, and i don't want to be the person who changes you and tears you away from everybody.
i'm sorry for the way that i handled it. i just needed time. time to understand. because honestly i know i did something wrong, and i barely do this wrong. i'm sorry.
when you texted me "NAH UR GOOD" it broke my heart. i slammed the car door shut, and i was mad at the world, but mostly mad at myself. mad that i couldn't understand that you love her. and you will love her. i'm sorry. i'm sorry that i'm not strong enough or brave enough or smart enough to be okay with these things.
this is the moment i think i've wanted to die the most.