M I L A N ..
Thanksgiving Day (THAT NIGHT)
Me & Lani We're Been Cooking Our Asses Off These Past 3 Days. Some of August's Family Had Came & Some Of My Family Had Came ..Part Of Me Was Hoping My Mom Would Show Up, I Invited Her But I Guess She Had Other Plans. Tensions With Messiah Towards August Have Grown Tremendously! Messiah Literally Won't Be Anywhere Near August, Yesterday August Came Over And Asked Messiah If He Wanted To Go Laser Tagging With Him, Derrick& The Kids But He Told Him "Nahh I'm Chilling Pops" And Walked Away. Lani Left Today Too Since She And Derrick Had To Be Back At Work Monday Morning..
"Babe...Whats Wrong With Messiah ?" August Asked Holding My Waist While I Took My Earrings Off.
"I Don't Know Boo, He Keeps Telling Me He's Fine.." I Said Shrugging My Shoulders
"He Won't Even Talk To Me .. I Went In His Room, He Said Nothing To Me At All." He Said Sounding Kinda Upset
" I'll Get Him To Talk To You Or Atleast Try To Get Him To Talk To Me About It." I Said Turning Around So I Was Facing Him And Kissed His Lips
M E S S I A H ..
I Sat At The Edge Of My Bed Reading One Of The Books Daddy Got Me .. I Can't Get What Daddy Said To That Women At Pizza Palace Out My Head. He's Playing My Mommy And I Dont Like It At All
Flashbacccccckkkkkkk....
I Had To Go To The Bathroom So I Got Up From The Booth We We're Sitting At And Started Walking Behind My Brothers Who Were Also Going To The Bathroom. I Got Lost Between This Big Family That Was Coming In And Ended Up At The Other Side Of The Restaurant And I Really Had To Go Potty. I Seen Daddy Outside So I Went Out The Door To Ask Him To Take Me To The Bathroom. But I Stopped Walking When I Seen Daddy Talking To Some Lady...I Didnt Wanna Just Walk Into Them Talking So I Stood A Couple Steps Behind Daddy And Waited For Him To Finish Talking.
"August Why Can't You Just Forget Milan& Come Be With Me, I'm pretty Sure The Sex Is Way Better With Me Anyway." The Lady Said Holding His Hands.
"You Know I Can't Do That!" Daddy Said Pushing The Lady's Hands Away
"How Can You Say That August! We've Been Doing This For Almost A Month Now. The Damage Is Already Done" She Said moving closer to daddy..
"If We Gon' Keep Doing This Then You Can't Keep Popping Up And Shit !" Daddy Said Sounding Angry
"Fine .. I'll Be Over Tonight" She Said Rolling Her Eyes
I'm Not Dumb! I Might Be 3 Years Old But My Brothers Talk About This Stuff ....DADDY DID NASTY STUFF WITH THAT LADY BEHIND MOMMY'S BACK.
"Look Man, My Kids Inside ..Imma Call You Later" Daddy Said Rolling His Ete
"Can I Met Them?" She Said Smiling
"Girl Get The Hell Outta Here !" He Said Pushing Her Away
She Kissed Him &He Turned Around To Go Back Inside.He Noticed Me Standing There And Stopped Walking.
"Wassup Siah...How Long You Been Stand There" He Said Picking Me Up Off The Ground.
"I Just Got Here...I Gotta Use The Bathroom.." I Said Lying About The First Part
"Oh Ard, Let's Go," He Said Sighing Like He Was Relieved
Flashback Over...
I Don't Wanna Be Around Anybody Who's Gonna Do Nothing But Hurt My Mommy.I Love My Dad, But He's Wrong.Mommy Never Did Anything To Him! She Loves Him With All Her Heart And I Know She Does. He's Got Mommy Thinking He's Only Loving Her! When Really He's Talking To Other Women..
"Messiah..Mommy Wants You" Jayceon & Adrian Said Sitting Next To Me.
"Okay.." I Said Closing My Book
"You Aight Siah ??" Adrian Asked Patting My Back.
"Yeah I'm Good." I Said Nodding My Head
"You Sure?" Jayceon Asked Curiously
"Yeah, I'm Good", I Said Smiling
"Ardd...Remember Siah We Brothers So We Got You No Matter What" Adrian Said With A Smile
We All Did Our Handshake That Uncle Chris Taught Us & We All Left My Room I Went Inside Mommys Room And Saw Her Taking Off Makeup While Daddy Sat On Her Bed Talking Her. They Got Quiet When I Walked In.
"Hey Mommy." I Said Smiling At My Mommy
"Hey Baby...Your Daddy Wants To Talk To You .." She Said Kissing My Cheek And Walking Out The Room
I Sighed And Rolled My Eyes On The Inside. I Got Up On Moms Bed And Sat Far Away From Daddy. It Was Quiet For Awhile Until He Started To Speak.
"What's Wrong Wit' You Siah ..You Aint Been Acting Right.." He Said Moving Over So He Was Sitting Next To Me.
"......" I Just Sat There Quietly, I Didn't Wanna Talk To Him.
"Messiah...C'mon Little Man, Talk To Me" He Said Nudging Me A Little.
"Do You Love Mommy?" I Asked Staring At The Floor
"Of Course I Love Your Mommy," He Said Nodding His Head
"Sure You Do," I Said Shaking My Head ..
"What's That Suppose To Mean." He Said Raising His Eyebrow
A U G U S T
I Love My Son..I Really Do And Its Bugging The Hell Outta Me Knowing That For Some Reason He's Upset With Me. I Can't Even Lie I'm Nervous As Hell Talking To Messiah Right Now, Kids Are Smart! ESPECIALLY MESSIAH! You Never Know What's Going On In His Head.
"You Lying To Mommy...You Talking To Other Girls !! I Seen You At Pizza Palace Kissing That Woman !!"Messiah Angrily
"......." I Couldn't Even Speak Right Now I Felt Terrible ..Not Only Was Milan Gonna Find Out I Did Her Wrong But My Son Was The One Who Found Out First & Seen Me Doing Wrong.
"You Still Wanna Talk Now Dad ?!?!" Messiah Said Putting His Head Down.
"Messiah I'm Sorry....But You Gotta Believe Me I Love Your Mother & I Love You And Your Brothers Even More.." I Said Sitting Him On My Lap
"Then Why Do You Keep Hurting Mommy ..She Loves You But All You Doing Is Making Her Cry." He Said Fiddling With His Fingers
"I Know Mommy Loves Me And I Truly Love Mommy Too And Honestly Son I Don't Know Why I Keep Making Mommy Cry...I Don't. But Just Promise Me That When You Grow Up..You Gon Be Better Than Me, Stay Out The Streets, Finish School, But Most Of All...Treat All The Woman Wit' Respect. Don't Be Like Me.." I Said Speaking From My Heart.
I Wanna See My Kids Grow Up And Do The Things I Didn't Get To Do. I Refuse To Watch Them Go Down The Same Path I Did. I Want Them To Do Right & Always Do Right. Sure, They Gon' Make Mistakes But Its Only Right For Me To Tell Them This Now. I Took Messiah Back To His Room. I Kissed His Forehead & Told Him I Loved Him & That I Was Sorry For Hurting Him And Milan.
M I L A N ...
I Was In The Kitchen Wiping Off The Counters & Wiping Off The Table In The Dining Room When August Walked In And Sat In ONe Of The Chairs At The Dining Room Table.
"You Okay ? How'd It Go?" I Said Pulling Up A Chair Next To Him..
"It Was Alright...Look Milan I Gotta Talk To You." He Said Holding My Hands.
"What Is It." I Said Sighing
"Milan I Love You...I Really Do But I Think It's Best I I Tell You Before You Find Out From Somebody Else...Ever Since We Started Working On Us, I've Been Messing Around With That Girl London..." He Said Nervously.
"...........Are You Serious........" I Said Letting Go Of His Hands
"Yes, I Already-" He Started Before I Cut Him Off
"Did Messiah Know? ...Is That Why My Baby Ain't Been Acting Right?!!!" I Said Standing Up.
"...Yeah ...He Seen Me Talking To Her At Pizza Palace & He Saw Me Kiss Her" He Said Sighing
"....So Everything You Said...Everything About How You Loved Me And How You Gon' Do Right By M eAnd The Kids & You Not Gon' Be Breaking My Heart & Stepping On It, Was All A Fucking Lie!!!!!!! AUGUST HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TOO ME !!!" I Said As Tears Streamed Down My Face
"Baby I'm Sorry." He Said Holding My Waist
"...You Always Sorry August...You Always Didn't Mean To Hurt Me...You Always Want Me To Forgive You !! Then I End Coming Back To You And I Get Hurt Again And I Start Feeling Like The Dumbest Muthafucka In The World !!!!!!!!! ..Get Out...From Now On We Only Hit Eachother Up If It Concerns Our Kids ! Nothing More And Nothing Less ! I'm Done For Good !" I Said Pushing Him Away From Me
August Stood There Staring At Me For A Few Seconds And He Shook His Head. He Kissed My Forehead Before Walking Out The Dining Room. Within A Few Minutes, I Heard The Front Door Slam Shut And His Car Leave The Drive Way. Wow....I Can't Believe I Actually Started Falling For This Nigga Again! I Feel So Stupid. I Heard Tiny Footsteps Walking Towards Me And Saw My 3 Boys Surrounding Me.
"You Okay Mommy" Jayceon Said Laying His Head On My Shoulder.
"I'm Sorry Mommy .... I Didn't Mean To Mess Up You And Daddy" Messiah Said With His Head Down
"..You Didn't Mess Nothing Up Baby...C'mere" I Said Pulling All 3 Of Them Close To Me
"Are You And Daddy Still Together," Adrian Asked.
"..No We Are Not..But Y'all Can Still Go Over His House If You Want Too. I'm Not Gonna Ever Stop You From Spending Time With Him." I Said While Running My Fingers Through Messiahs Hair.
I Got The Kids Ready For Bed And Within An Hour We Were All In My Bed Watching A Movie Slowly Falling Asleep.
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Alright Alright Alriiiigggghhhhhttttttt Yeeeaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh Comment What You Though About This Chapter!! I Know It Was Crazy ! Lol Love You All <3