I heard screaming down the hall so I got up from where I was and opened the door to who was yelling and I saw a woman kiss Serena quickly closed the door and put my shoes o my hair covered my eyes. I made sure all the stuff was in my pockets. I proceeded out the door walking past Serena.
"Ew a male." Said the woman who had kissed Serena.
"Josh where are you going?" Serena asked.
"None of ur business kiss your gf some more." I Said as I walked out the front door and closed it behind me. I called a cab, I saw on the curb waiting for the cab. I pulled out my lighter and a cigarette feeling empty and worthless. When I was about to light the cigarette when something knocked the cigarette and lighter out of my hands.
"I already told you no smoking anymore." Serena said.
"Why care for a male baby he's worthless?" Said the woman standing beside Serena.
The cab pulled up and I got into the cab and closed the door.
"Josh she's my stupid ex I'm not cheating I swear!?" Serena yelled.
I just looked down at my hands and told the driver to drive me to my house, as I sat in the back seat of the cab I cried pouring my eyes out shaking. I wipes my tears from my eyes, my cell phone rang.
"H-Hello?" I Said.
"Josh"
"What do you want Chance?"
"The tournaments in 1 month please come." Said Chance. I shook my head and hung up.
When I arrived at my house I paid the cab driver and walked up to my house and saw a few girls from my street walk up to me and punch me in the face hard and throw me on the concrete.
"Get near our idol again and your DEAD!!" The three of the women yelled. I laid face first on the concrete. I put my hands against the concrete and got up and open led the door to my house and closed the door.
*3 Months Later*
I haven't been doing much no job, no contact with much of people. I just isolate myself and stay quiet, the news seems to think I'm dead, hm stupid I wish I was dead. The home phone rings.
"........."
"Josh you Ok?"
"I'm fine Chance worry about yourself." I Said
"You missed the last 3 tournaments for the girls Amy, Lina, Yuki, Rebecca, and Serena are worried.
"Hm stupid."
"Have you been singing lately?"
"Not since 3 months ago."
"I'm gonna get you to sing you need it."
"I don't need anything."
"Hm I bet either go or I'll have my men go get you and drag your ass."
"Fine." I Said hanging up.
I breathed out and looked around my house seeing used cigarettes and beer bottles all over the floor, I smiled and laid back in my couch.
I fall asleep and in my dream I'm sitting in a pink forest.
"Huh been a while since I was here." I got up from the pink tree and began to walk, I began to see couples kissing and I shook my head and felt something grab my hand.
"Hurts doesn't it?"
"Put a sock in it your dead."
"I'm aware."
"Then why remind me of this?"
"Cause I know your still hurt Josh we had fun."
"Whatever." I Said.
"Locking yourself off again your so weak no one will ever help if you don't let them in."
"I don't need help!?" I yelled.
I jerked up waking up from my dream and heard a knock and I saw two men in black suits standing in the door way.
"Give me 20 minutes." I shouted as I quickly showered and put some clothes on I put black long sleeve, black pants, and a few necklaces around my neck along with bracelets I had been gifted with. I walked outside and the two men lead me to a limo and I got in. The drive was a little over 20 minutes when I got out I saw Chance. He ran up to me and hugged me crying.
"Jeez." I Said pulling him off me.
"I'm sorry I care!" He pronounced.
"Good grief." I Said as i proceeded into the large building and walk over to the stage.
I saw Jess with her band on the stage.
"Ready?" Jess said.
"Give me a minute." I Said as I walked back stage grabbing my guitar I could hear people chanting my name, and I smiled.
"Aawwww your all excited." Said Chance.
"What can I say music always make me feel good." I Said as I walk onto the stage waving at the crowd.
The crowd started to chant "Be Somebody." I smiled and nodded and winked at Jess.
I started to play my guitar as my hair covered my eyes and the whole stage went black as a spot light pointed at me.
"I'm just the boy inside the man, not exactly who you think I am
Trying to trace my steps back here again, so many times
I'm just a speck inside your head, you came and made me who I am
I remember where it all began, so clearly
I feel a million miles away, still you connect me in your way
And you created me, something I would've never seen
When I can only see the floor, you made my window a door
So when they say they don't believe, I hope that they see you and me
After all the lights go down, I'm just the words you are the sound
A strange type of chemistry, how you've become a part of me
And when I sit alone at night, your thoughts burn through me like a fire
You're the only one who knows, who I really am
We all wanna be somebody, we just need a taste of who we are
We all wanna be somebody, we're willing to go but not that far
And we're all see through, just like glass
And we can shatter just as fast
That light's been burned out for a while, I still see it every time I pass
It was lost in the coldness of my mind, behind a box of reasons why
I never doubted it was there, just took a little time to find
And even when
I feel a million miles away, still you connect me in your way
And you created me, something I would've never seen
When I can only see the floor, you made my window a door
So when they say they don't believe I hope that they see you and me
After all the lights go down, I'm just the words you are the sound
A strange type of chemistry, how you've become a part of me
And when I sit alone at night, your thoughts burn through me like a fire
You're the only one who knows, who I really am
We all wanna be somebody, we just need a taste of who we are
We all wanna be somebody, we're willing to go but not that far
We all wanna be somebody, we just need a taste of who we are
We all wanna be somebody, we're willing to go but not that far
I'm just the boy inside the man, not exactly who you think I am
Trying to trace my steps back here again, so many times
When I can only see the floor, you made my window a door
So when they say they don't believe, I hope that they see you and me." I bowed as I finished panting.
"Oh Serena your here?" Said Chance
"Yeah." Serena said looking at Josh.
I saw people in the crowd hold up signs. I read the signs and they read "Silent Scream." I blinked in disbelief and realized they knew about my pain and looked away and saw Jess and her band walk behind the stage. I saw Chance bring me a chair.
"Please." He said.
I nodded and sat in the chair.
"I'm caught up in your expectations
You try to make me live your dream
But I'm causing you so much frustration
And you only want the best for me
You're wanting me to show more interest
To always keep a big bright smile
Be that pinky little perfect princess
But I'm not that type of child. I looked at the crowd as I sang getting up from my chair and i walked towards the crowd walking up down the middle where I knew the platform was.
"What is he doing Chance?" Serena asked.
"This song is his despair he wrote this song right after his ex cheated on him and left him." Chance said. Serena's eyes widened and looked at Josh her hair tentacles began to whine loudly. I kneed down on the platform and it lifted me up in the air and moved right over the crowd.
And the storm is rising inside of me
Dontcha feel that our worlds collide?
It's getting harder to breathe
It hurts deep inside." I cried as I sang moving my hair to the side holding my hand out to my fans smiling.
"Even now he's hurting I still wonder why he let you kiss him of all people you hated him but you love him now I wonder." Chance said.
"I miss him so much I just want to have him near me forever and hug him all day and night I wanna make his pain go away so much it hurts." Serena said.
Just let me be
Who I am
It's what you really need to understand
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away
And it's torturing me
But I can't break free
So I cry and cry but just won't get it out
The silent scream."
I began to sing louder as I spun my guitar from my hands to my back as I held the mic singing into it as I got up from my knees.
Tell me why you're putting pressure on me
And every day you cause me harm
That's the reason why I feel so lonely
Even though you hold me in your arms
Wanna put me in a box of glitter
But I'm just trying to get right out
And now you're feeling so so bitter
Because I've let you down
And the storm is rising inside of me
Dontcha feel that our worlds collide?
It's getting harder to breathe
It hurts deep inside
Just let me be
Who I am
It's what you really need to understand
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away
And it's torturing me
But I can't break free
So I cry and cry but just won't get it out
The silent scream
Can't you see
How I cry for help
Сause you should love me
Just for being myself
I'll drown in an ocean
Of pain and emotion
If you don't
Save me right away
Just let me be
Who I am
It's what you really need to understand
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away
And it's torturing me
But I can't break free
So I cry and cry but just won't get it out
The silent scream." I bowed and let the platform land on the stage and I walked back to where I was on the stage and I saw Serena next to Chance and I avoided eye contact and made a sign at Jess and she smiled and took the mic from my hand.
I started to play my guitar. Jess I started to sing.
You're like a light within the dark
Just like an angel (angel, yea)
You're breathing life into my heart
Just like an angel (angel, yea)
And you lead me through the darkest time
Gonna leave this world behind
Angel
Take me to a better place, where I see those brighter days
Angel
We'll seize the day and break away
My angel."
I start to sing alone.
You raise me up when I am down
Just like an angel (angel, yea)
I feel the love when you're around
Just like an angel (angel, yea)."
Me and Jess sing together again.
And you lead me through the darkest time
Gonna leave this world behind
Angel
Take me to a better place, where I see those brighter days
Angel
We'll seize the day and break away
My angel
And when I cry you're always there to dry my tears
A single word from you can take away my fears
I hang onto you, baby, just you and I
You gotta spread you're wings and fly
Angel
Take me to a better place, where I see those brighter days
Angel
We'll seize the day and break away
My angel
My angel
Angel."
"Um Chance can you tell me about this song?"
"No ask him yourself." Chance said giggling.
I bowed at the crowd and smiled Jess went to the back to talk with her band and I shook my head and went to the crowd leaning over letting some of the crowd touch my hair and face.
"So soft."
"He's so nice."
I smiled hearing those complements and walk back stage.
"Nice show." Said Chance.
I smiled as tears ran down my face and nodded.
Serena walked up to me and gently pushed me against a wall and put her hands on my face wiping my tears.
"I'm fine but please don't touch me Serena." I Said.
"I didn't Ok!?" Serena yelled.
Just leave me alone ok." I Said as I pulled away from her walking away. Serena grabbed my hand tightly.
"Please She was my ex I already told her I was over heels for you baby please let's go back to being happy together I still want to erase the sadness in your heart." Serena said as she wrapped her arms around me. I felt my heart beat fast I started to pant blushing. I could hear her hair tentacles whining at me. I felt her sniffing my hair.
"You smell so good baby god I missed you so much." Serena said as her tail wrapped around me.
I felt her hair tentacles rub against my neck and I petted a few of them and the swayed happily.
"Sorry I overreacted." I Said.
"It's ok lets go home."
"To your house?" I Asked.
"Of course your gonna live with me from now on love." Serena said.
"Ok babe."
Serena smiled and kissed my neck, I blushed and sat down in a chair and Serena smiled and sat next to me smiling and she pulled my chair close and turned it so we are face to face.
"Your so needy." I Said as I blushed.
"You love it." Said Serena as she kissed me.
I kissed her back and blushed hard.
"Aw such love birds." Said Chance.
"Sh-Shut Up am not." I said embarrassed.
Serena's pulled me out of my chair and pulled me on her lap and she smiled putting her hands on my ass and kissed me and I kissed her back.
"So dominate." Said Chance.
"Nope Just protective over my boyfriend." Said Serena.
Serena's got up and carried me out to her car and she drove us to her house.
When we got Their we walked inside and I headed upstairs and got into her bed and pulled the covers over me, I felt her spoon me from behind wrapping her arms and legs around me as I felt her bulge against my back she gently kissed the back of my neck falling asleep against me. I smiled and put my hand on hers.
"I missed this so much babe I love you." I Said as I closed my eyes.