Our fate was a whirlwind glance,
a moonlight silhouette dance
but we crashed with different melodies
then you came back, promising me great symphony
...
ROSÉ.
It's Monday. The time has come for me to spend a good first day in Sydney University and I couldn't even sleep last night from the excitement and nervousness that I was feeling.
I never changed school before, so this will be a huge adjustment phase for me, but since Jennie keeps reassuring me that she will try her best to be with me throughout the first day then I couldn't afford to worry anymore.
Well of course, I texted her first thing in the morning, beaming my enthusiasm through my message. So much for being whipped. I thought.
Rosé (7:01 AM): Good morning, gorgeous! I'm so excited to go to school knowing that you'll be my tour guide again! see you.
After sending, I quickly grabbed my towel, went to the washroom and showered myself. I kept singing Paris in the Rain on repeat since the time Jennie sang that song to me as a confession of her feelings, the value of the song is priceless now.
I didn't know a song could mean so much to me until now. Until Jennie sang that lovingly under the mystic ambiance of the moonlight. It was breathtaking.
After I've showered, I got dressed with Galles Blu Pants paired with a comfy blue cropped top hoodie and finishing it with my favorite basic white nike sneakers. I grabbed my bag and laced my ID around my neck, grinning proudly in the mirror before rushing downstairs just to smell the bitter aroma of the brewing coffee mixed with the smoke of bacon and eggs.
I surprised myself when I saw Alice was the one cooking breakfast.
"Yah, I can't believe my eyes." I greeted her with an astonished tone. My sister never wakes up early, specifically, she never wakes up early just to cook breakfast.
"Oh, shut up. Can you just drink your coffee while I finish this (?)" She prompted with a crunched face, obviously annoyed with my comment. Alice's hair was tied up in a bun while her left hand was on her waist while the other was busy holding a silver spatula as she cooks my favorite morning meal-bacon and egg.
"Why are being like this all of a sudden?" I asked, still wanting to find out what kind of dark magic she was in. Because really, she's never a morning person. Never.
"Yah, listen." She pointed the greased spatula straight at me paired with an annoying stare. I flinched at her action. "If you think I did this because I realized that I've never been a good sister to you for the longest time, then you're wrong. Mom worded me out of this. Besides, this will be your last first day of school, so this means I couldn't do this again." She brazenly revealed.
I shrugged off her defensiveness. "Yeah. I love you too." I replied with a soft smile, appreciating the hard sacrifice she's making for me, even though she wouldn't admit it.
"Now, don't you go soft on me young lady. You know, I cringe too easily." I saw her blushed expression and I exhaled a soft laugh as I sipped my morning coffee to awaken my senses. I love how Alice goes uncomfortable when I say soft words to her.
After finishing my breakfast for five minutes, a text notification suddenly popped up. I grabbed my phone and swiped it up.
Jennie (7:34 AM): Morning babe! I'm all ready. I'm at your door right now.
Woah, she's fast. I thought as my eyes flickered at the screen and my mouth munching and swallowing the eggs as fast as I can before I quickly grabbed my bag, waved my sister goodbye, and went to the door just to find Jennie already flashing her gummy smile. "Good morning!"
I silently took notice of Jennie's first day of school fashion, because you know how meticulous she is when it comes to her style. That's why she never fails to look alluring everytime I see her.
She was wearing a black intarsia check knit dress paired with white sheered vans. She looked so luxurious yet still giving that laid-back aura.
"Well look at you! I didn't know a person could be hotter than the morning." I said with a cheeky expression. Everytime I see her is like the first time, which means the amount of sweat my armpits are making is totally unfathomable.
"Oh, shut up. You just want me to kiss you." She playfully hit my shoulder as she got embarrassed. "Am I getting one?" I continued to push her with one eyebrow raised, taunting her to do it.
She scanned the area to assure that no one was looking and she hastily dragged me closer to her with her hands on my waist. I flinched so hard as I felt her hot breath lingering before my lips, I can even smell her natural scent, it's all alluring to my senses. I trembled at her touch as her hands slowly traveled around my nape. I closed my eyes trying to ready myself for what's about to happen...
But i've been closing my eyes for too long and I didn't even feel her move an inch so I opened my eyes with confusion and met hers, "Oh, babe, you think I'm that easy?" she huskily whispered with a conceited tone, as she distanced herself, removing her hands from my waist as she triumphantly chuckled at my disappointed reaction, and I never felt so betrayed in my life. Damn, Jennie knows how to play. I cursed.
"You think keeping me heated up in a moment like that is funny?" I complained with both hands placed on my waist. She excessively nodded as she continued to laugh. "If you keep playing dirty like that then I can't keep my hands off of you any longer." I warned trying to approach her in a seductive way as I stepped closer to her. Automatically she rested her hands around my neck as I circled mine on her waist. We were close again.
"Really? I should do this more often then." She said with a teasing smirk. "Yeah, you really enjoy watching me suffer." I rolled my eyes in complaint. She chuckled at my face, "Why are so freaking cute in the morning?" she added before giving in. She planted me a soft kiss on my lips, it was very heartwarming. My day couldn't get any better.
"Let's go?" I asked with a giddy expression as we pulled away from the kiss. She grinly nodded and led me into her badass Porsche.
...
Twenty minutes later, I saw myself taking an entrance towards a vast hallway while I grabbed my hand into Jennie's arms as Jisoo and Samuel was following at the back. Their were countless of student heads all brisking around the area, it made me dizzy all of a sudden.
But I was dumbfounded when all eyes strutted towards our direction as we walked in, and gradually, people were forming a pathway for the four of us to pass, it was like Moses splitting up the red sea.
But as I observed further while we slowly made our way, I noticed that all eyes were on Jennie, students greeting her politely, flirtatiously, smugly, friendly and any kind of adjective you could think of.
Behind, I also glanced Jisoo and Samuel greeting familiar faces, giving off their short 'hi's and 'hello's to them.
Oh my god, I didn't even know that they're this popular. I thought.
Jennie just gave short replies and timid smiles along with a little eyebrow flinching in action. While I received weird and curious glances from these strangers, their expressions were so overwhelming.
I tightened my grip on Jennie's arms as I felt the anxiety hovering me inside. Uneasiness abruptly corrupted the confidence that I had when I first walked in.
"Rosé, are you okay?" Jennie faced me with concern. I gulped, "Yeah, I don't know. I think they're giving me stares saying that I shouldn't be here beside you." I confessed.
"Nonsense." She prompted quick. "I want you beside me, and that's the only thing that matters here, okay?" She reminded me as my heart dropped again along with the ever existent sweating of my armpits.
I only managed to coyly smile and nodded.
...
Jisoo and Samuel went ahead to their respective classrooms while Jennie insisted to accompany me in going to the classroom that I was assigned.
"You didn't have to bring me to class though. People's death glares at me might get worse." I declared as another student timingly shot an icky look at me. Jennie followed my gaze.
"Come on. You don't need to be insecure about that. They're just jealous because I'm with you." She smugly winked at me, and I swear I just felt like cupid shot his arrow straight into my heart, I wasn't complaining about it though.
"Thanks for making me feel at ease. I can't think straight since my heart's been pounding non-stop." I confessed. She gave me sweet and comforting words telling me that everyone will be head over heels for me and I shouldn't be worried at all.
We said our goodbyes and I was left standing in front of a navy blue wooden door as my nervousness creeped under my already trembling being, with great strength and urgency I managed to turn the doorknob and led myself in.
Here goes nothing. I thought as I took a deep breathe before entering.
As I stepped in, the curious eyes of students was dawning over me, the atmosphere was so awkward and I felt their weird and eccentric stares grow deeper as I made my way to an empty seat at the front row of the third column.
Luckily, gossips of my appaling entrance faded quickly as the students were back busily chit-chatting with their peered groups again. I was in a void of my own silence, I didn't know what to do or how to act so I just pretended to be busy texting when actually I was just sliding photos out of my gallery to ease myself from the edgy feeling.
But minutes later, someone initiated a conversation with me, which took me by surprise.
Finally some social interaction. I chattered at the back of my head.
She went by the name of Rachel but all she wanted to talk about was how I knew Jennie, since she saw me with her walking down the hallway earlier. Genuinely curious of how I've become close with her.
It didn't last long until I was surrounded by half of the class listening to me testifying my friendship with Jennie. Well, of course I've censored the parts that might reveal my real relationship with her.
We took turns. So she also told me what a Top class student Jennie Kim was. Turns out that Jennie is like the University's student role model or something. Rachel told me that she's been the student body president for three consecutive years, and she's been always top of her class. Her grades never alter to a letter lower than A.
She joins national math and science competitions, but at the same time she also excels in theatre and arts, like directing and writing musical plays. She's a versatile student of the school, along with Jisoo and Samuel who are both preeminent in their field. Jisoo is the school's best theater actress that's why she gets the lead role in Jennie's plays and also she's the president of the debate team, winning every district competition for the last two years. While Samuel is the founder of the dance squad of the school, and he does varsity basketball too.
Oh my god, If I hadn't known about their crazy popularity in school and how well-achieved they are here I would've just looked at them as three madly rich high schoolers who only wants party, spend, swim, and drink until their heart's content.
...
After all the chit-chats I found myself already smiling and feeling relieved that I've interacted well. Timingly, the teacher came in briskly walking along with his cryptic expression. He placed his two hands on the table and successfully got the attention of everyone in class. I composed myself back in my seat as everyone did the same.
"Listen up!" He said with a sturdy commanding voice. "I believe we have a new student here in class. Would you please make yourself known?" he continued and I swiftly raised my hand. He requested me to introduce myself, and so I did the usual mainstream introduction to the class. I was so shy I didn't know where to look.
As I finished my introduction, I was about to go back to my seat when, "Wait for awhile. Stay there," He hindered my action, so I was left awkwardly standing in the front, with both of my hands intertwining with each other out of shyness.
"Fortunately, we have another new student who will be joining this class." He declared. I gave a subtle reaction, not knowing what to expect.
I turned my direction to the door anticipating who's behind, as the doorknob slowly turned I felt the agitation churning inside me. It was weird. Like a wildfire, my anxiety refueled itself inside me, it was burning so bad.
My armpits started sweating all of a sudden. What in the hell am I sweating for? Jennie's not even here. I cussed in my thoughts, as worry cycles deeper into my system.
Wait...
WHAT THE F-
NO F'CKING WAY. Every word of profanity combusted in my mind asI laid my eyes on the new student who was walking towards me. Shivers of tension traveled underneath my skin, I had goosebumps. A cold sharp sensation traveled down my throat.
THIS CAN'T BE F'CKING RIGHT. No, it can't be. She can't be here. Why would she be f'cking here anyways?
But the constant denial running through my mind didn't removed the fact that it was her. It was really her.
In a snap I just saw the world falter before me, a heavy daunting feeling was in my system. Seeing her face was like seeing the depths of my fazed past that I once lived. You see, I lived for her - once.
I abruptly removed my eyes from her, controlling the sensation infuriating my body. I tilted my head down as I felt a warm familiar being next to mine.There was tension all over. A relapse of fitful flashbacks rushed through my mind. I was mentally in panic. My heart was constantly pounding, my ears left abuzz.
The trembling of my body worsen when I heard her speak, for the first time in the longest time.
"Hello, everyone. I'm a new student here in SU, I came all the way from Melbourne. My name's Soo-young." That name. Her name triggered an outrage of broken memories which was not suppose to resurface to save the sanity that was barely present in me. I clenched my jaw. You're fine, Rose. She's here, so what? I thought with fortification.
"I'm Park Soo-young." She ended her sentence. Her voice harshly resonated through my ears, I felt my heart in pain. Again. Her angelic voice, pains me.
Flashbacks of remorse and heartaches rapidly overflowed my mind as I nailed a furious look on the floor. It went on and on and on, as I felt an old scar opened again, forming a fresh wound. I felt the pain again that reminded me the devastation that Soo-young caused.
She's here. Again. The girl who shamelessly shattered my being, she's here to blunder me with her presence. Again.
Oh, Park Soo-young. How could I not forget?
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a/n: I'm sorry if it took me so long to update. School has been recently hectic. please leave comments. lovelots x