A FEW DAYS LATER
I haven't left this cage unless it's to use the bathroom. he doesn't feed me much. The hardest part is he isn't talking to me. he just walks in. gives me what he wants. Then leaves me alone. I know this is part of the punishment. I hate being alone. Its always drove me crazy... the quiet. I know he is building me up. that way he can punish me again. I hoped once would be enough, but I don't think, he would ever let me off that easy. He never has before. I have been punished by him many times. This is the worst of the worst. God please let this end soon. I can hear footsteps. I look up there he is. He still looks mad. I am being punished again. I just know it.
"Have you given up hope on him finding you"? he asks.
"Yes Sir". I reply.
"Have you given up ever seeing him again"? he asks.
"Yes Sir". I reply.
"Good because you will never leave me again". "Do you understand me"? he asks.
"Yes, Sir I understand". I tell him.
"Now for your punishment". He says.
"Please Sir no more". I cry and beg.
He grabbed me. I flinched. He tightens his grip. He pulls me out, then to the wall. He cuffs my hands. I don't fight. I just cry.
"Please I will do what you say". I plead.
"No, you need to learn". He says.
"NO PLEASE" I scream.
I am shaking like a leaf. This is going to hurt even more. I wish I was dead. Suddenly I feel the sting of the whip. I scream out in pain. Every hit I am screaming. Begging him to stop. I have never felt this much pain. I know I can't die from this, but right now I wish I could. I didn't even count this time. He comes in front of me. locks eyes with me.
"Don't make me do it again". "Next time I won't be nice". He tells me.
"Yes, Sir" I say crying
he uncuffs me, then puts me back in the cage. I lay down. I am crying in pain. My back is melting. Or at least that's how it feels. How can he do this without feeling bad. or even a little remorse. I know I shouldn't have left. How can he think this makes me want him? this makes me want to run as far away from him as I can. I broke a vow and a promise. I know, but still this is to much. I don't know how much more I can take. I am ready to break.