show: teen wolf
character: teenage boy
setting: talking to the guidance counselor after the death of a student
scene type: sad / dramatic
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STILES: You know when you're drowning, you don't actually inhale until right before you black out. It's called voluntary apnea. It's like no matter how much you're freaking out, the instinct to not let any water in is so strong that you won't open your mouth until you feel like your head's exploding. But then when you finally do let it in, that's when it stops hurting. It's not scary anymore. It's - it's actually kind of peaceful.
MS. MORRELL: Are you saying you hope Matt felt some peace in his last moments?
STILES: I don't feel sorry for him.
MS. MORRELL: Can you feel sorry for the nine - year - old Matt who drowned?
STILES: Just because a bunch of dumbasses dragged him into a pool when he couldn't swim doesn't really give him the right to go off killing them one by one. And by the way, my dad told me that they found a bunch of pictures of Allison on Matt's computer. And not just of her though. I mean, he photoshopped himself into these pictures. Stuff like them holding hands and kissing. You know, like he had built this whole fake relationship. So yeah, maybe drowning when he was nine years old was what sent him off the rails, but the dude was definitely riding the crazy train.