It was a hot afternoon in the Philippines, May 15, 2014. The date that I will never ever forget. I was excited to watch the television because Dara of 2NE1 will guest in one of the local noon time shows. Then I saw a post from allkpop and they said that Kris will leave.
I am so sick of all of the rumors we encountered through the 2 years with EXO that's why I didn't believe. ChanYeol had the same rumor before, right? So I decided to ignore it and continued watching Dara. After few minutes I realized that it was from allkpop, I signed in again and saw a lot of news regarding him.
I was hurt, but I forced myself not to believe in it. I. NEED. AN. OFFICIAL. STATEMENT. That's what I wanted. I ignored all of it again and focused on typing my supposed to be update. But I can't stop myself and went back to Facebook and d-mn it. It was Kris terminating his contract all over my newsfeed, then I opened my Twitter account and saw what's trending no. 1 worldwide, #WeBeliveInYouKris.
BELIVE. It was misspelled. Yeah, but I thought that maybe because of too much pain they didn't notice about that. I didn't care and tweeted with them.
EXO without Kris is like a galaxy without stars.
That made my heart melt. A very simple sentence but there's a very deep meaning inside.
Fandom hug. Pass it on.
I saw this on Twitter too, it was actually a picture. It came from Shawols. I really cried when I saw it. I retweeted and added 'I love Shawols'. The user replied and said that they love me too, which made me cry more. I said thanks again and that we really need that comfort right now. I saw a lot of heart warming messages from different fandoms. I appreciated it sooooo much.
Sehun updated his IG with a huge question mark. I was so confused. I'm starting to get crazy.
I'm starting to believe but I held on to Kris. I trust him because I love him. I'll only believe it if he'll be the one who'll admit it or if the members will. I really cried when I saw Suho alone on stage. I watched M Countdown and it really hurts to see him like that. He was faking a smile and d-mn it, it hurts more. That time I said, GIVE. ME. THE. OFFICIAL. STATEMENT. RIGHT. NOW. I was literally crying, even my cousins saw me cry. My dad saw me too and said 'don't cry over that koreans' and I was like, they're not just Koreans. There are 4 Chinese. -_- They changed my life and they were my heroes.
Then BOOM! Tao updated his IG and that's it. That was the confirmation I was waiting for. I cursed. I cried so d-mn much.
EXO will never be EXO without Galaxy Oppa. I don't want it OT11, I WANT IT OT12. They started it that way, they should end it that way. And the thing I hate the most was the fact that I never got the chance to see them perform live on stage with the whole 12 members. I am going to respect Kris' decision because I want him to be happy though it hurts like hell. I promised you that I'll do 12 fanfics with all the members and I won't change that. Kris will forever be an EXO member in my heart and in the heart of all EXO stans.
I want you to know that I'll be on hiatus for I-don't-know-how-long. I don't think I can make fanfics with this situation. I just can't. Please respect my decision too. It'll be hard for me to give you fanfics that can satisfy you expectations. Sorry.
I don't know what happened.
EXO! SARANGHAJA!
XOXO,
@thanks4dbrokenheart