Chapter one
Andy's point of view
Santa tell me if you're really there
Don't make me fall in love again
If he won't be here next year
First of the December. All I can think about are Christmas and that I will be on my own. Well, I will be with the boys but I won't have someone who will kiss me under the mistletoe.
First problem is that I like boys. Second problem is that I fell in love with one of my best friends. And the biggest problem is that he is straight. And he is playing with my feelings and doesn't even realise it.
I'm a singer in a band. And that's great. But I am with him every second of my life and that kinda kills me. I try to hide my feelings but my heart speaks louder than my mind ever would. I don't make sense, do I?
"What do you want for Christmas?" Rye, the boy I like, asks. I smile at him and just say 'I don't know' quietly but I can't stop myself from thinking 'you'.