Trying to go back to sleep that night was really hard. I kept picturing Noah, hearing his angry voice, remember the memories of him beating me up.It haunted me.
It was half 6 in the morning now, been up for the past 2 hours. I didn't have work today, thank god. I got out of bed and walked downstairs to look for Snoopy. I went into the kitchen where his bed is but he wasn't in it. I walked in the living room and there he was, lying on the cream couch. I sat beside him and cuddled into him. He started to lick my face and i just giggled at him. After he stopped, i slowly fell asleep.
I woke up to the sound of my mum's voice.
Pamela: Abi? Abi, are you awake? Abi?
Abi: what, what?
I jumped up and i scared Snoopy and he jumped off the couch and walked out the room.
Pamela: It's 10 o'clock, why are you downstairs here and not in your room?
Abigail: i couldn't sleep, so i came downstairs.
Pamela: oh okayy sweetie, do you want some breakfast?
Abigail: no, i'm fine thanks mum
To be honest, i was hungry but i just didn't want to eat. At the time when i was with Noah, he made me feel miserable and i didn't eat because of it. It's happening again, hopefully i don't lose that much weight again.
I lost over 2 stone when i was with him, i was 6 and a half stone then but i'm normally between 8 and a half and 9 stone. Life with Noah was really bad.
Pamela: okay, well i'll be in the kitchen if you need me
Abigail: okay, thanks mum
She walked out the living room and i turned on the TV. I flicked through the channels and nothing that really interested me was on, so i decided to go for a shower. When i was done with my shower, i went into my room and changed into some clothes. I changed into my american tank top, my shorts and put on my cream sandals and put on my owl necklace. (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=49597692)
There was nothing planned for today, well that i'm aware of. I walked back downstairs into the kitchen to find my mum on the phone to someone. I went to grabbed a glass tumble out of the glass cabinet at the back wall beside the dinning table. I was trying to work out who my mum who talking to.
Pamela: Yeah sure, it 6 okay for you?
Is she going somewhere? I got the glass tumble out and turned to my mum.
Pamela: okay, we'll be over then, see you soon Michele, bye
Michele? we'll? over? are we going over to Michele's? is Austin going to be there? I putted the glass tumble back into the glass cabinet and turn to my mum as she was trying to talk to me.
Pamela: There you are, we've got plans for tonight
Abigail: we do?
Pamela: yes, Michele invited us over for tea
Abigail: us? we're both going?
Pamela: yes and i know your not working and you don't have anything else planned for tonight, so your coming with me
Abigail: okay, do i have to dress nice or something?
Pamela: well yes, just try make an effort
Abigail: okay.
Okay, so i have 6 hours to get ready. I'm kind of nervous. I went back up to my room and got out my laptop. I logged into twitter and tweeted:
"@JustSmile_Abi: Going out for tea, not sure what to wear"
Once i tweeted that, i went onto Austin's twitter page. I noticed he tweeted something a few minutes ago.
"@AustinMahone: Having visitors over for tea tonight, hope tonight will be one to remember(:"
He hopes it'll be one to remember? What does that mean? I'll just have to wait and see, i guess. I couldn't stop looking out his profile picture, it was so cute, he was so cute. Just then Noah's face popped into my head. I flinched and there was a knock on the door.
Voice: Abi?
Abigail: yes *little pause* come in
My mum opens the door and walks into my room and sits beside me on my bed.It felt like you was going to start a heart-to-heart with me or something.
Pamela: Honey, i know it's hard for you, but you don't have to kept it all to yourself, you can talk to me about things.
Abigail: I know mum, i know
Pamela: Then why couldn't you sleep last night?
Abigail: something just happened at work that's all
Pamela: sweetie, i know i just come back into your life a few weeks ago, but i know when your lying, tell me the truth, what really happened?
Abigail: well *little pause* someone from my past was at the restaurant last night.
Pamela: who darling?
Abigail: *little pause* the guy i hoped not to see again, the guy who's in my nightmares, the guy who i hate, the guy's Noah, mum. Mum Noah's back.