"I don't really have to hide anything from my hyungs. I haven't told them about us, but I'm thinking that I want to."
His husky voice is so beautiful you almost don't want to argue.
But...
"Jungkook... this is... so risky. What if they disapprove? Or what if someone, not Bangtan, sees us?"
"Don't we have to try this eventually? Or are we going to keep this a secret and never see each other, forever??"
He almost glares at the camera.
"... Not forever... I guess. No."
You flop down on your own bed.
He lets you be for a few moments, both of you deep in thought.
"So, tomorrow then?" he finally presses.
"I... I'm... I'm scared, Jungkook." You decide to be honest.
He tilts his head.
"Tell me," he says gently.
"Well... we're risking a lot. I could lose my job. We could lose this. You could get in trouble at work. I'm absolutely sure both our careers are on the line. Not to mention what your...... passionate... fans will say if this got out."
You curl up into yourself on your side, your eyes already watering as you think about the daunting consequences.
He's quiet for a long time.
In a way it reassures you, knowing that he's also considering the same fears you are, not just blowing off the harsh reality that this is.
Finally, he says, very solemnly,
"I know."
You wipe your eyes.
You're already so lucky. To have met him. To work with him.
To feel... this.
You stare at him on the screen.
His handsome face, bleak for wanting to be with you.
Dare you ask for more?
Wouldn't it just be insanity?
"But I have to try," he continues, his voice low and gritted.
He leans his head back, blinking rapidly.
Surely... he isn't... crying too?
"I can't just... leave it."
His voice drops to a whisper.
"... I would regret that."
Your tears spill over, hot in your eyes, fogging your vision.
This boy, trying to do his best.
Yes, living his life in the spotlight, he would know about making choices.
He would know about regret.
"Okay," you whisper.