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Tia's perspective
Stop Grinning
Stop Smiling
Stop Smirking
Stop fucking Blushing!
"Oh my God Stop it!" I laugh covering my face with my hands. I throw my head back with a wide grin and deep giggles, the tingles and warmth from my cheeks travel through my entire body as the butterflies caused me to laugh.
Is this what it feels like when you're truly in love?
I can still feel Andrew's lips against mine, he kissed me so softy but showed me his absolute possession over me; I could still taste him and still remember the way he looked at me with such - such lust. And the way he held me tight but gentle enough to show his love. I could still feel his hands possessing me, showing the absolute need for me.
MY GOD!
I giggled uncontrollably and danced around the kitchen putting away the dishes as I listened to my beautiful song on my phone, it had definitely set the mood for my emotions and thoughts in my head.
I laughed again and spun around when suddenly I crashed into a strong chest, I gasped in surprise and suddenly I was sat on the kitchen counter. Nickola grinned happily at me, mirroring my smile he held me steady so that I couldn't move or back away. "Nickola" I giggle as he places kisses all over my face. Nickola chuckles and pulls me closer guiding my legs around his hips. I took a breath in absolute shock as he laughed on my neck. "I love it when I see you so happy" Nickola hummed against my neck, he peppered me with soft delightful kisses and I couldn't help but laugh.
This is a whole new side to Nickola and I'm feeling very confused on who Nickola is right now. He dips his head to my collarbone and I gasp feeling myself moan with a small laugh, Nickola chuckled and gripped my hips pulling me close.
"What?" Nick laughed.
My body froze and smile dropped. I don't know what happened... Andrew.
This was our thing. Our play.
Nickola pulls away and his hands loosened from around my waist. "What?" he asks seriously. I dropped my legs from around his hips as he took a step backward and took my hands in his as he searched for my eyes with confusion and concern.
When I finally snapped out of my fantasy of a dream I looked into his bright green eyes and fall into guilt when I witness the concern that Nickola holds. He stepped closer slowly as if he was going to scare me away and he brought my hands to his lips, gently kissing my knuckles.
"Did I hurt you?" he asked almost worriedly.
I shake my head quickly and jump off the counter and wrapped my arms around Nickola pulling him close into a tight hug. "No. No, you just scared me" I breath, Nickola tensed and I felt his heart bounce off his chest. He wrapped his arms around me almost instantly and chuckled nervously at my neck. "You scared me beautiful," I chuckled also as I tightened my arms around him. My eyes suddenly widened and my heart had stopped beating.
He knows. He knows you kissed Andrew!
Nickola laughed and pulled away looking down at me with happiness, he cupped my cheeks gently and kissed me softly. I was stunned with confusion and I blicked a few times. He pulled away and sighed. "I've been waiting to do that all day"
I crease my eyebrows and gapped at him, Nickola only laughed and tilted his head "what? Is it a crime to kiss my girlfriend that I missed this morning?"
"What? N-No," I said.
Nickola chuckled as he took a step towards me and kissed me again. "Good" he murmured. I sigh in relief as if a heavy weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I raise my hands to his neck and find myself kissing him back. "You are so good to me" I mumble, he smiles on my lips and pulls me closer.
"What's going on over here?"
I pull away instantly turning away where I had made Nickola stumble forward, Andre laugh aloud. "I'm surprised you didn't push him on the ground." He brushes past us and I glare at my brother with dread as he brought back another memory with Andrew, all Andre does is pull mischievous smile as he turns around.
Nickola laughed and shook his head. "Sorry, but no one can take me down. No offense beautiful." I laughed sarcastically making it obvious that my mood has completely changed due to another memory, but to another pit of guilt suffocated my insides.
I realized and I should be put in hell for this kind of act, I'm cheating on both my boyfriend and my ex-boyfriend. Now that I think about it none of this should have ever happened, not the missable passionate kiss between Andrew and I or the guilt trip kiss I just gave Nikola not a moment ago. I should be burned in hell for being such a selfish hypocrite.
Seeing that I was at step one of my anger, I glared at Nickola and envied his comment. "I bet I could" I sassed, crossing my arms over my chest. The boys all turned with a blank face and I raised an eyebrow, Nickola turned his attention towards me and mocked my actions, teasing and testing me with his eyes; "I bet you can't."
"Bet you can't what?" A voice tuned, heads snapped towards the kitchen door and out pops Andrew with a curious grin. Is it possible to suddenly be so happy after a simple grin? I couldn't help but pull a grin myself; I felt my cheeks fire up and Andrew smiles wider when he looked at me.
"Tiana thinks that she could beat me to the ground," Nick said shaking his head. Andrew snapped his towards Nickola and raised his eyebrow, he drifted towards me and then laughed out loud throwing his head back.
My grin had disappeared and I stand with a gapped mouth and crossed my arms over my chest as the boys started to laugh too. Out of all the people that should have known that I could fight would have been Andre but Andrew. I could fight! Andrew taught me new moves and new ways to defend myself. Why was he laughing now?
Angry and beyond annoyed I walk up to Nickola who was still laughing along with the boys. I crack my knuckles and kicked the back of Nick's leg making him fall forward, he fell onto his one knee where I took the opportunity and shoved him on the floor bringing his arm right behind his back causing him to wince.
I smirked with achievement glaring at the boys and Nickola "Look who's laughing now." The boys fell silent as I scoffed happily, Nickola grunted in pain but laughed it off as if nothing was hurting but I could feel his struggle. "Okay" Nickola grunted, I hummed in satisfaction and I jumped off him helping him up.
"She always could," Andrew said with a wink, he brushed passed the kitchen door right to the fridge. I wanted to slap his gorgeous face for being so cunning; I visibly shook my head in his direction and he shrugged with carelessly and at the same time he formed that confident, beautiful smirk.
See normally I rolled my eyes and looked away successfully holding back the smile and blush. "And now you all know not to underestimate a princess," I said proudly flipping my hair.
Andrew snapped off the lid off the beer bottle making pop eco the room, as I looked towards him I noticed he had never taken his eyes off me, I bit my lip to prevent a smile but this time it was completely impossible, it is as if he had the power to make me do anything; Andrew spread a charming smile knowing that I was looking 'my princess' he mouthed and just like that I blushed like a red tomato.
"Okay, Beautiful you proved your point, where did you learn to fight like that?" Nickola asked as he sat on the couch. I snapped my head towards him as the boys took a seat each, Andrew stood by the doorway with an intense glare on Nickola never removing the intense gaze.
There were no signs of liking or getting along between Andrew and Nickola it was obverse there was hatred between them and yet they still pretend that everything is all right. Andrew leans tense on the door frame his eyebrows furrowed and eyes studied Nick's every move, as Nick kept a close eye on Andrew. Nickola must have already figured that Andrew and I were together, it was quite obverse that there was something between us, and yet he says nothing.
Why?
Unless he hasn't found out.
I looked down at my feet and smiled. "Andre taught me for the most of my life, but then when I met Andrew he taught me the better moves" I teased.
What was I doing? String the pot?
"Hey! I taught you that move!" Andre defended, I laughed and so did Andrew, I didn't notice that he was standing next to me until I felt his hand brush my knuckle. I took a breath and nodded my head and looked at Andrew who was already looking down at me with such happiness.
"Yeah well. I taught her how to use a knife, a gun and drive like a pro" He said bobbing his head at Andre. I smiled widely happily knowing that he still remembers all the times we shared, we had so many good times together and I never forgot them; Now that Andrew had brought them up again I'm so happy that he did because it shows that he had never forgotten about us.
I couldn't look away from him I was paralyzed and more than hypnotized and standing next to him was a temptation that couldn't be crossed.
"Okay, whatever you say soldier w-"
I shook my head baking from my hypnosis and walked up to my brother taking a seat next to him, ruffled his bald head as he shoved me away. Nickola hummed and wrapped an arm around me where I lay on his shoulder; hoping that I will find another spark and that Nickola will keep me sane.
"-Why don't we go to the club?"
I didn't miss the way Andrew's eyes followed my every move.
"To the club? We went yesterday" I said with a sigh. Ray takes a seat next to me. "Oh come on Tiana when you were here last time, we went every night"
Nick raises an eyebrow. "Really, every night?"
I shake my head but Andrew let out a laugh. "She was the fucking life of the party," I tsk and glare at him but he only throws his famous charming smirks. "She was." he winked. I'm starting to think Andrew is showing me sighs of a near epileptic attack.
"His exaggerating" I rolled my eyes.
Nick hums in response and runs his fingers through my hair. I can't help but smile at his small action. It only remained me of when Andrew uses to do it, it sucks how these emotions keep flooding back, but Andrew was just too cute and made everything so damn sexy; and even leaning against the table with a beer in his hand made him looks sexy.
Nickola fingers drifted down my hair around my shoulder making me blink to erase a vision of Andrew, I looked towards him and saw a small smile spread on his face; "I believe you," Nickola says, he takes a swing of his beer and looks between Andrew and me, a flash of challenge zipped before his eyes and he smiled. "That's cute by the way. You guys must have been the best of friends" he said.
Ray chocked on his drink in surprise and Andre hit his back with a laugh. Darkness and hatred flashed before Andrew's eyes when he looked towards Nickola and I gulped at the sudden reaction but smiled with a laugh.
Right. Here we go, another way of getting back at each other. WAIT. What if Nickola had found out about Andrew and me, what if he knows that we ki- Oh my God.
My heart skipped a beat and I looked towards Andrew with fear, he put his beer down and takes a step towards the kitchen table and takes a seat from across me, he reached for my hand and smiled reassuringly, he tapped my hand with two fingers secretly telling me to trust him.
I took a breath and smiled putting my hand over his as I look towards Nickola. "Yes, Best friends"
"We had so many memories didn't we Tia?" Andrew asked challenging Nickola. I wince and forced a smile. "Yes we did" I shot him a look in order to stop his words, but I knew it was useless because I knew that Andrew always liked a challenge he was the most competitive, scariest person in this household. I mean I wouldn't blame him I always loved Andrew's bad boy perspective, it is always so visibly shown that it always brought me the adrenaline and an unknown smile to my face and I loved it.
Andrew shook his head, leaned back on the wooden chair and clicked his fingers looking up as if he thought of something. "Remeber that day at the mall. We played that game. Game of the only dare." His eyes fixated on me and I witness his eyes dilate.
"That was a great game, wasn't it?"
I nodded as if it never phased me, but remembering every touch every little kiss that he gave me back then was as if it was the first time I was feeling. "Yes, it was." He laughed shaking his head clicking his tongue "you made me try that 'Eat Me' shirt"
Andre and Ray laughed hysterically as my eyes widen, Nickola's expression never changed nor did his eye ever leave the pure envy on Andrew.
"How about that game when we were at the park, that was cute too," Andrew said as he leaned closer towards me. My breath hitched as I looked up at him as if he was my guardian angel but I came to a realization and I creased my eyebrows in anger standing to my feet and away from him giving him the deadliest glare I can pull. "Yes it was, but it was in the past."
Nickola griped the armrest turning his knuckles white. I drifted back to Andrew, his eyes softened and turned into sadness and what seems to be regret; I knew it was because he brought another memory and it only hurt us both, the tension filled the air but this was no time for regrets or sappy tensions because this was all Andrew's fault; he was the one that caused this tension, the one that brought up a memory, the one just to prove that he was the one who was winning.
"So you two were together?" Nickola asked with a challenge. I couldn't believe that this was his question; both Andrew and I snapped our heads towards him. Andrew scoffed standing to his feet, I followed his every move as the pure worry washed over me.
"Now that's something You will never know, " Andrew smirked.
No matter how much I wanted to hate him, how much I wanted to yell at him it was impossible to do both. His arrogance and cocky attitude was something that I always loved, I just loved everything that he did. And God, do I hate myself for it.
I sighed heavily and rubbed my face in frustration standing to my feet.
"Whatever happened in the past will stay in the past, because today it is ignored and I'm focused on the future." I snapped eyes Nick, where I visibly stated my future; then darted my eyes towards Andrew creating an obverse point to shut the fuck up.
Andrew stood tense and breathed angrily as he glared at me with his dark brown eyes. I stood ridged at his intense stare and shivered all over, he then suddenly smirked before he took a giant step towards me causing Nickola to stand imminently I for one did not flinch or move a muscle due to the fact I was too paralyzed to think.
He leaned over my shoulder and came close to my ear kissing me secretly "we'll see about that baby" Andrew whispered seriously, I take a deep breath as he pulled away picking out an apple from the fruit basket behind me.
"You have nothing to worry about Nickola, we are just two best friends that shared many unforgettable memories in high school, I'm not interested in my best friends," Andrew said shaking his head, he took a bite of his apple as he walked out the kitchen door with his car keys. "I'll meet you guys at the club"
I take a breath and snap back into realization, my hands fisted in anger this has gone way too far, way too close to exposing us both, in an instant anger had shaken my body and I shriek stomping out towards Andrew,
"Tiana?!" I hear Nickola yell.
"Let her go, man, you don't want to get in her bubble. She's unleashed her beast" Andre says. I gasp.
Did he just call me a beast?
Fucking right he did.
I turn away and head down the corridor stomping towards the front door to get away from the madness. Andrew never knew when and how to shut his mouth. I curse and kick the wall envisioning slapping Andrew's face; not paying attention and bump into a chest and stumble back. I look up ready to apologize to Mama or Tato, but my sympatric look drops and I find myself to feel even angrier for looking into my ex-boyfriend's brown eyes.
I raise my hand to slap him but he only caught my wrist where I instantly shrivel down at his touch. He laughed huskily as he gripped onto my wrists looking down at me hungrily. He shook his head as I struggled out of his grip but he only pulled me outside and pressed me up against the cold wall; he licked those plumped lips and bit them too.
"You're so fucking sexy when you're mad" he moaned softly.
"Fuck you!" I hissed a yell, I raise my leg to knee him in the balls but I was only stopped by being swooped up in the air.
"No! Put me the fuck down!" I hit his back and kick my legs as much as I can but Andrew only held me tight and kept me balanced on his shoulder, no matter how much I struggled I couldn't get away. "Andrew Harvey! Put me down!!"
I hear him sigh and breath through his nose; his hand reached and held my leg steady and caresses my leg ever so gently if I didn't know any better he moaned at the feeling. I flinched and hit his back and kneed him in his perfectly chiseled jaw.
"Put me down! Put me Down! Put me the fuck down"
Andrew grunted in pain but never let go of me he never said a word only began walking faster down the steps. I kicked punched and yelled until I felt the cold wind seep through my clothes.
The car beeped where I heard it unlock. "NO! No!" I thrashed around when suddenly I was thrown into the air and land with a soft thud onto the leather car seat "ANDREW! NO!"
"HELP IM BEING KIDNA-" Before I can say another word Andrew had smashed his lips onto mine. He lowered the seat and I gasped in fear as he pushed it back. All at the same time slammed the door shut locking it up before I can make a dash.
I didn't have a chance to breathe because helplessly in love, lust and in anger, my emotions were hard to control when I felt myself give into his kiss. I was taken back to what I did and so was Andrew he stiffened but then he was quick to kiss me back with such force as he groaned.
I moan, as his tongue grazed my lips, but soon his teeth captured them tugging me closer I felt my body fly. I groaned as my hands found a way around his neck taking control. He growls in pleasure gripping my thigh so hard, where he only made me feel hotter and angrier. He was doing this because he knew it was my weakness because he knew how much I loved it.
"I hate you so fucking much" I breath in-between the hot kisses. I do hate him, but I want him so bad that it's hurting me on the inside and out. He lets out a throaty laugh and suddenly I was picked up from the seat and sat in his lap I gasp and hold around Andrew's neck feeling his bulge underneath me.
He breathed heavily as looked at me so pleasurable. I was breathless and beyond stuck struck, It was the same god damn look he gave me in my stupid wanted dream. The same he always gave me was he was challenging me to say 'I love you' first. "You sure about that Princess?"
His Princess. His Baby. His girl. His happiness. His love.
I close my eyes tightly in order to block the regretful tears but fail miserably; no amount of guilt can change the present and no amount of worrying can change the future. Nothing do I want more than to have this moment with Andrew but I couldn't betray Nickola like this. I don't want Andrew to leave and I don't want to ever leave when I'm around him, I want him forever because I love him. I love my ex so much.
"Tiana?" Andrew breathed in alarm, tears begin to slide down my cheeks as I watched him, I only wrap my arms around his neck and holding him tight to my body. "Why won't you just leave me alone, why Andrew? Why don't you keep your stupid mouth shut?"
I sob into his neck and bury myself into his familiar warmth; Without a second thought, Andrew wraps his arms around me and squeezes me tight and as I cry into his chest. Andrew plays with the ends of my hair and I bury myself further into the crook of his neck as the anger drifts away.
Memories wash through my head of how he used to hug me when I'm down when I was crying he would just hold me, lay down with me even if I pushed him away. When I went away I missed him so much that it hurt to even to think about it.
"Because I can't watch the girl I love so much being taken away right in front of my eyes"
It doesn't matter if he hurt me or broke my heart just a little because just like that, with one touch he makes me happy, with one small kiss all the anger and sadness is whipped away in a flash. All the happiness is returning as long as I' am wrapped in the arms I once loved, and still, love today. All these two years I needed to be close, I needed to feel what it was like all over again, I needed to feel Andrews's love once again.
"I love you so much, Andrew. You have no idea how much I love you-you fucking asshole" I sobbed. He holds me tighter and buries himself in the crook of my neck and when I feel his tears drop onto my skin.
"I know baby, I love you now and forever"