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Here I am again
Feeling this unexplainable emotion
Like a stone being crushed
Like a water being frozen
I hate you
But I hate myself more
I dont usually believe in lies
But I eventually believe yours
How did you do that?
Saying things as if you mean it
Pretending I was always the one who hurts you
Making me feel the guilt
You're like a switch of light
On, off, on, off
For you I'll matter today
But tomorrow you'll definitely throw me away
For some Im the cold bitch who makes you suffer
Im the bad one, you're the good guy
Funny, they dont even know a thing
Among us two, Im the one hurting
It's because they cant see it
How you can break my heart with just one word
It's because they dont feel it
How you can manipulate my feelings as if you have the remote control
Sometimes Im loosing myself
I despise the fact of unconsciously missing you
I dont like it when I see you
But I hate it more when you dont show yourself
I've always wanted to talk to you
I waited and waited till you're ready
But I lost in vain
You made me like a fool again
How many times was it already?
Was hurting me makes you happy?
I was fine before I met you
Now I cant even smile, damn you
I only aged once a year
But you want me to shed a tear
Many people wanted me to be happy
But you destroyed it, totally
I hope you won't be surprised
When I come back being cold as ice
You're the one who blew off my fire
You're the one who cut my growing desire
09/17/17