Finals week's over! At last!
This means it's summer time!!! Excited na kong makasama si Patrick sa resort namin.
Nauna na si Ella umuwi. May date daw sila nang boyfriend nya e. Hihi.
Since medyo maaga pa naman and we got hungry sa exams, we've decided to eat some snacks muna in the university's cafeteria.
"Mip..." he started.
Mip nga pala tawagan namin. naMIPatrick :">
"Sa usapang abortion, pro ka ba o con?" he suddenly asked.
"Con ako syempre. Ba't ikaw? Pro-abortion ka ba?" I asked.
"Depende."
He looked down and took a deep breath.
"Mip, siguro ito na yung right time para sabihin ko sa'yo 'to."
Uh-oh. Mukhang problema 'to ah.
He took another deep breath.
"Mip, nabuntis ko yung best friend ko. Dalawang buwan na syang buntis."
FIRE IN THE HOLE!!! BOOOOM!!! WHAT THE!!!????
I was speechless. Pero my tears are trying to escape in my eyes.
"Look, kaya ko namang ipa-abort nya na lang yung bata e."
"No." When I said that word, my tears betrayed me.
"Don't you ever do that." I said.
I'm trying my best for my voice to be strong but still my tears are flowing endlessly.
"I can't believe you can do this to me!" I wiped my tears.
"Mip, I'm so sorry. Lasing ako nun. Di ko naman alam na matagal na palang may gusto sakin yung best friend ko." he reasoned out.
He held my hand.
"I'm sorry Mip. Please don't leave me. I love you so much Mip."
I took away my hand.
"Don't you dare to call me Mip again! You cheated on me! We're done!"
I stood up. He held my arm.
"Please, don't leave me Mip. I love you." he cried.
"If you really love me, papanindigan mo yung bata na dinadala nung best friend mo."
I took away my arm from his grip.
"Love your best friend kagaya ng pagmamahal mo sakin noon."
I ran away crying from cafeteria to my condo unit.
I quickly dialed onii-san's number when I got on my bed.
Me: Onii-san...
Him: Why are you crying!? Don't worry my princess, malapit na ko sa condo mo.
Me: Bilisan mo onii-san. I desperately need you......now.
Him: Opo mahal ko. Hintayin mo ko malapit na ko. Wag kang magpapakamatay ha?
Me: Onii-san naman e!
Him: Baliw ka talaga. Umiiyak ka tapos tatawa ka?
Me: Ikaw kasi! Bilisan mo na! Ingat ka! I love you!
Him: Opo. Eto na. I love you too Nami. Bye.
In just 5 minutes, onii-san's already in my room.
When I opened my door, he hugged me tight immediately.
"What happened?" he asked.
We sat on my bed. And I told onii-san what had happened.
Onii-san wiped my tears.
After a minute, my tears stopped flowing.
"Sira ulo pala yung Patrick na yun e! Balatan ko kaya ng buhay yun!?" onii-san said angrily.
"Yaan mo na onii-san. Basta sana na lang panindigan nya yung anak nila nang best friend nya. Tsaka okay na rin sakin na sinabi nya na. Buti 2 months pa lang."
"E pano kung 8 months na?" he asked.
"E siguro hanggang mamaya pa ko matatapos umiyak."
He hugged me.
"Nami, always remember na may mga dahilan ang mga nangyayari satin."
I nodded and onii-san kissed my forehead.
"Malay mo, kayo talaga ni TJ para sa isa't isa."
I pull out from his hug.
"Nga pala onii-san, ano yung sasabihin ni TJ?"
"Secret." he smiled teasingly.
"Eeeeee. Sige na! Sige ka, iiyak ulit ako." I warned.
He laughed.
"Baliw! Kahit umiyak ka pa ng dugo di ko sasabihin sa'yo. Belat!"
"Argh! Sige na onii-san!!! Please?" pagmamakaawa ko.
"No."
"Clue na lang."
"No."
"Sige na onii-san! Kahit konting info lang!"
He laughed.
"Oo na! Pero isa lang ha?"
I smiled and nodded.
"Tapos di ka na mangungulit?"
"Opo."
"Wala ring follow-up question?"
"Daya."
"Ikaw din. Edi wag na."
"Oo na!" Argh.
"Promise?"
"Yes onii-san. I promise."
"Wala na sila nung girlfriend nya." he finally said.
"Sabi na nga ba e. Bakit daw?"
"Kala ko ba...."
I zipped my mouth.
"Curious ka nu? Kausapin mo na kasi."
During that day and the following weeks, lagi akong kinukulit ni Patrick na he loves me raw and di nya ko kayang mawala sa buhay nya. Ek ek ek chuchu. Ugh!
I still have feelings for him pero kailangan nang pagmamahal nung best friend nya dahil buntis yun. Kawawa naman yung baby pag malungkot ang nanay nya.
Kaya I asked for onii-san's help. Gusto kong tigilan/lubayan na ko ni Patrick. I don't know what onii-san told him. Tinatanong ko sya pero he's saying boy talk daw. Argh. Whatever.
Pero after nila mag meet, tumigil na si Patrick sa pangungulit.
Today is Ate Rosa Mae's graduation. Onii-san and I prepared something for her.
We just rented a private pool for the celebration of her graduation.
There's also a buffet for her family and friends.
Too bad kasi nanny and okaa-san can't come to join us here.
Her family is in the graduation venue. While kami naman nina onii-san, Jansen and some Ate's friends, stayed here.
It's already 5:30PM when the Cruz Family arrived here.
They were surprised to see the venue.
May balloons, tarpaulin, and lots and lots of foods.
Onii-san handed Ate Rosa Mae the microphone.
"First of all, I would like to thank God for all the blessings He had given us. My family, para sa support, pag-aalaga, pagmamahal and financial assistance. Sa mga kaibigan ko, thank you for celebrating this day with me. And of course thank you Trisha and Honey for arranging this wonderful surprise. Honey, you're the best boyfriend in the world. I love you so much!"
"I love you more Honey!" onii-san screamed.
"Let's enjoy this day and let's get this party started!"
They cheered.
After that, I was in the room the whole time. My head ached kasi. Kulang na kulang ang tulog ko this week.
Then, ang aga ko pang gumising kanina para asikasuhin tong surprise for Ate. Well, worth it naman.
"Princess?" onii-san woke me up.
"Di ka pa kumakain. Here oh, I brought you some food. Kain ka muna."
I looked at the time, it's 11:35 in the evening.
"Masakit pa ba ulo mo?" he asked.
"Okay na onii-san. Di kagaya nung kanina parang nilalagari utak ko."
I took a big bite on the food he gave me.
"Thank you for this."
"Uh-oh. Don't talk when your mouth is full. Hinay hinay lang baka mabilaukan ka nyan."
"Tapos na yung party?" I asked when my mouth was finally empty.
"Yep. Nagsiuwian na yung mga kaibigan nang Ate mo."
We and the Cruz family will stay here for the night.
Si Tito at Tita magkasama sa room; Ate Rosa Mae and Rose Marie; TJ and Jansen; and kami ni onii-san.
We're watching television ni onii-san but when I looked at him, he's already sleeping. Ugh.
It's already 1:17AM at di pa ko madapudapuan nang antok kaya I've decided na lumabas muna.
I am seating in the pool habang winawagayway yung paa ko sa tubig.
"Oh, onii-san! Why you're here? You have to rest na." I said as I saw his shadow and sat baside me.
I looked at him and...... Wait..... It was not onii-san!? It's......
"Can't sleep?" he asked.
"Y-Yeah. How about you?"
"I can't sleep too. Okay ka na ba?"
I nodded. "I felt better when I woke up."
"So, can I talk to you now? Please don't ran away ha." TJ said.
"So, I guess.... Silence means yes, huh?" he added.
"Is it important ba?" I asked.
"Of course yes." he answered.
"Okay. Start." I said.
He took a deep breath.
"I didn't mean to hurt you."
"What do you mean?"
"I liked you already since I saw you noon sa Bench and I've started loving you nang 1st time naming pumunta sa birthday ni Kuya Atsushi. You greeted us warmly and your smile took my breath away. Lalo na nung nakita kita sa university nun, mas lalo pa kitang minahal. At pag hinahatid kita pauwi every Saturday mass, mas lalo pa kong nahuhulog sa'yo."
He took another deep breath.
"But then, yung barkada ko, si Naomi, she told me that she loved me. I told her na I love someone else. Pero, she arranged something na I can't say no."
He looked in the stars.
"Sa harap nang pamilya nya, kamag-anakan, proffesors at barkada, she asked me kung pwede ko raw ba syang maging girlfriend."
"And you say yes?" I asked.
"Yes. Kasi I can't say no. I'm trapped."
He looked at the pool.
"Di ko matanggap na iniiwasan mo ko. Binalak kong makipagbreak sa kanya nun. Kaso, nalaman ko na may boyfriend ka na pala. Nasasaktan ako tuwing nakikita kayong magkasama. Pinagsisisihan kong um-oo ako kay Naomi."
He looked at me.
"Maibabalik pa ba natin yung dati?" he asked.
I'm glad na alam kong minahal nya ko. Pero, hindi eh. Parang may mali.
"I.... I'm....sorry." I said.
I was about to stand up but he held my arm.
"Please do not leave me. Huwag mo na ulit akong iwasan. Di ko kaya."
I get my arm from his grip and stand up.
I was about to leave when he spoke.
"Di ko kaya dahil mahal na mahal kita Trish. Mahal na mahal pa rin kita."
I looked behind me and he's now standing in front of me.
"Bakit...." he started.
Tears fell in his eyes.
"Bakit di pwede?" he asked.
"If you really thought of me noon..... If you really loved me..... You would say no to her."
"Wala na kami Trish. Wala na rin kayo ni Patrick. At yun na ang importante, di ba? We can go back like what we used to be."
"Minahal ko si Patrick at alam kong minahal mo rin si Naomi. Kakagaling ko lang sa break-up and I'm afraid of getting hurt again."
"I will never hurt you naman e."
"You already did. You're the one who broke my heart in the first place. I'm sorry."
I just walked away papunta sa kwarto ko. I think I must run but I didn't. If he would catch up on me, I could punch him. Buti na lang di nya na ko hinabol.
To my surprise, I did not cry.
And to my surprise, he cried. He's really serious?
Well, sorry to him because my pride conquered me.