''Louis
"Louis William Tomlinson, do you even like me?"
I can't believe what I'm hearing. In surprise, I half-shout in disbelief, "What?" He opens his eyes and looks at me. I look back at him and see his eyes have a glassy look, the tears in his eyes treathening to fall any second. He whispers carefully, "Lou, just tell me the truth." I stare at him in disbelief. I can't believe he can see what I'm trying to do. But I still won't let him be right. "Oh, so now I need to have a motive to be with you. We're bandmates, Haz. We're best mates." "Really, that's just it? How about your kissing me nonsense?" "It's something I want to try out, okay?", I say, breaking our eye contact. "Oh, so you just proved that you're using me." My mouth just instantly dropped. "What are you talking about?" "I know you're not gay, Lou. You're not someone who's willing to go out with a guy. Tell me, what's in it for you?" My mouth dropped more, if that's even possible. But I quickly regained my composure and replied with a safe answer, "You need therapy, you know that? Has anyone ever told you that?" Now it's his mouth that dropped. "What? Stop dodging the question, Louis." I looked at him directly in his eyes, to make myself look like I'm not lying. Because I'm not completely lying, I'd like to think of it as half-lying. "Nothing, okay? Nothing's in it for me. Just the pleasure of your company." He shakes his head in disbelief, stands up, gathers his things and walk away. I quickly stand up and take my things, too and followed him. "Harry! Where do you think you're going?", I scream. "Home. Or some hotel nearby. I'm allowed, right? It's not like we're together or anything." "Look, what do you want from me? Do you want us to be in a relationship? Do you want to make us official? Is that you want for me to do?" He stops, turns around, and faces me. "I don't know, Lou. What is us? Lou, don't you get that we is the only thing I take seriously again? I mean, if you don't get that...", he replies, air-quoting the word us and we. I quickly rush towards him, until we're about 10 centimeters apart. "Whatever you want, Haz. You know I'll do anything for you." He holds one of my hands and stares at me. "We don't need to be official, you know. I just want to know where we are now. That this is something." I sigh. There's just one thing to answer to this. I can't even believe I'm saying this. Betrayal is coming out pf my mouth. "Well, Haz, I fancy you, is that enough? Is that something?" He kisses me lightly on the lips and whispers, "It's everything."
''Zayn
We're now home from the mall. Not trying to look jealous and confused, I immediately lock myself up in my room. I get my small bag out of the closet, then I charge my iPod, but I click it on shuffle. I get all my things I came here with. It's pretty many, so I won't bother going to my flat for more. I think this will be enough.
I then realize what's playing on my iPod. For a while, I sit down on a chair and took a piece of paper, and a pen. I started with a Dear Liam, then I listened to the words, wrote them down, and what I think of the lyrics, which I can really relate to.
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When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you you you
You.. when I'm with you
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I'd like to think of it as a fill-in-the-blank. When I'm with you, Liam, I feel alive and happy, not the mysterious me that everyone knows. I become different, I become the person who I reeally want to be.
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What good's a memory
Without you there with me
The morning sun ain't the same
Without you here
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But I have to leave. It's killing me more to see you with somebody else, with my best mates. Out the 4 of us, you already liked two, and unfortunately, I'm not one of them. I can't bear to think if you will ever like Harry, too. I might break down by then. It's already hard to see you with two, so I don't know how will I react when it will become three, and I'm not the third.
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You are the summer breeze
The wind blowing through the trees
You make the loneliness
All just disappear
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Because you're my everything. You're why I'm still here.
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Nothing replaces your touch
Never stop believing in us
They try to break us
But we stand strong in love
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I would love to say this to you, but I can't. You don't like me back, and I have to accept that. They try to break us, wait no, they try to keep me away from you, and I gave in. And now, I'm really leaving.
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They'll be no distance too far
I gotta be where you are (right where you are)
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I would love that, but I can't. Too hard.
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I don't wanna face this world alone
Without you by my side
You're the only one
That makes it feel like home
And I need you in my life
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I need you, Liam Payne. If I leave you, I leave everyone. And all of you make my life,you're the reason for who I am now. And I seriously don't know what to do without you.
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When you're not around I'm feeling
Like a piece of me is missing
When it feels like the day is closing in
Somehow I find the faith
To make it through
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you you you
You.. when I'm with you
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I will find faith, to make it through. To forget all about us, all of us. And start a new life, possibly.
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What's a photograph
If you're not in the other half
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Speaking of that, I have two pictures of you and I together. I packed one, for memories, and left one behind. And I secretly hope the one I packed will be lost forever, and the only memory that will be left is the memory in my mind.
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Why even dream
If I'm not dreaming of you
You make me a better man
Promise I'll do all I can
Your love keeps me bringing me
Closer to the truth
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Yes, you really make me a better man, but I can't promise you I'll do all I can for you. Sorry.
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Nothing replaces your touch
Never stop believing in us
They try to break us
But we stand strong in love
They'll be no distance too far
I gotta be where you are (right where you are)
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But I broke down, and gave in. And I won't be with you anymore.
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I don't wanna face this world alone
Without you by my side
You're the only one
That makes it feel like home
And I need you in my life
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I'm scared, Liam. I don't know what I will do after I leave. But I do think you know I can do it, don't you? I'll just remember that, and move on with my life. It feels like One Direction is not where I should be right now.
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When you're not around I'm feeling
Like a piece of me is missing
When it feels like the day is closing in
Somehow I find the faith
To make it through
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It really hurts to leave all of you, especially you, Li. You guys have no idea how I don't want this to happen, but I need to. If I don't, I'll just die inside slowly. And you don't want that, do you? I hope not.
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When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you you you
You.. when I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you you you
You.. when I'm with you
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I never regretted a second being with you. Never.
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Hey
I questioned whether time or fate
Would ever show me a sign
The moment I saw you
That's when I knew
I feel it when I'm with you
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Yes, I love you Liam. I fucking love you so much. From the start. But I'm not mad that you don't know it, I never made an effort to let you know anyway.
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I don't wanna face this world alone
Without you by my side
You're the only one
That makes it feel like home
And I need you in my life
When you're not around I'm feeling
Like a piece of me is missing
When it feels like the day is closing in
Somehow I find the faith
To make it through
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you you you
You.. when I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you you you
When I'm with you
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Yeah, I guess this is it. I love you all so so much. And don't worry, I won't do anything stupid as to kill myself. I'll just leave. Leave One Direction, leave all this luxury life completely. I'm going to be a common person again, and that's what I want to be. I'd like to experience that life again.
And promise me something, okay? You won't stop playing just because I'm not there. This may be selfish for my part, I'm really really sorry. And please don't blame each other about it. And sorry for the tear drops on this paper, can't help it.
I really love you guys. -Zayn
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I leave the paper on the table, so they'll see it immediately. I wipe the tears from my eyes. I check my phone and there was a message that Liam and Niall are out. Perfect.
I rushed outside, bag in my hand. I have nowhere to go, but I'll survive. With one final look, I get inside my car and drove off.
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Awww. Zayn left! :( And yep, this chapter is mainly a Zayn one, with Larry on the side. I kinda made it to make it up for the past chapters with no POV of him. :]
5 VOTES! Yeah buddie. :D Comment too! :) And BTW, if this sucks, it's because I'm tired and sleepy, but I still made one though! Because I love you, guys. :")
Enough with this sweetness, making me cringe. XD
Don't ever give up. xx