Maya's POV
Ever since that day I've felt empty inside. I felt it before, but that ended it all. I haven't felt love or even simple feelings for anyone in three years. I'll admit, I've had a couple of admirers but nothing's come of it. I've never been able to return their feelings. I can only imagine how many people I've hurt over the years, though it hasn't exactly felt great for me either.
I know I must sound like a heartless bitch... I just don't feel anything. I can't feel anything. I've had my heart broken so many times, I don't even know if I want to feel anything anymore. It a character flaw; I fall in love so easily and when I do I fall hard, which makes it that much worse when it all falls apart. It genuinely hurts. It hurts every time and it's the worst pain I've ever felt. I've cried so much I can't breathe and honestly... most of the time I don't really care. At least that way it wouldn't hurt anymore.
Everyone around me is happy; all my friends, classmates, family, everyone has someone to love and to love them. Every time I see that... the loneliness gets even stronger.
I would say I'm starting to give up hope, but whatever hope I had was lost long ago. I'm never going to find someone.
I've accepted being on my own.