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"Love is blind. Love is weak."
Days flew by and the streets were quiet. Each side of the fence was plotting on the other as they wanted for one to make the first move. Kase would definitely do it but only if he caught sight of Alyzai. However, Alyzai was too busy laying low under Lamar's command. She knew he as right because he had been watching Kase for the pass days and it was evident that they were looking for her.
Brie, one of Lamar's friends, got inside Kase's crew and was now reporting any words he got from inside directly to Lamar. Everything was working in his favor.
Alyzai was able to get out now too, as long as she took a couple of dudes out for protection and Paris for coverup. Alyzai was loving it- for once, she felt free. For once, she felt like she was living without consequence and even that seemed to have its own consequences. She felt selfish because she didn't know if Jaimir was alright or not. She did love him and her heart was heavy for the only man that had shown her real love since the death of her brother.
She wish she could save him.
"How do you feel about these?" Paris asked, holding her bloating foot up as it swell up in some sandals.
Alyzai shook her head. "Those make your feet look fat too. Just wear something comfortable."
Paris snorted, shaking her head too. "Comfortable? I'm a woman, I don't even know how to make bitches feel comfortable around me. I'd be damned if I let myself look ugly and comfortable." She joked, turning to look at the next box of shoes.
Alyzai didn't comment, her mind focused on Jai. Even when she was away she was with him. She could blame it on the fact that he was her first love or maybe that she was just used to him, but the facts were the facts. She wanted this feeling with him, not while running from him.
"Are you listening to me?" Paris asked, nudging Alyzai.
"Mhm, yeah." Alyzai said, smiling at her as soon as she snapped out of it. "Those?"
Paris pointed her toe at Alyzai and giggled. "Yess, these are cute, right?"
Alyzai looked down at her foot and chuckled a little before nodding. "Yeah, I like those."
"Mee too." Paris agreed before taking them off and throwing them back in the box. "Let's go."
Alyzai looked and through the glass window of the store to the outside of the mall, she saw him. Jaimir was there out in the open, looking at her as if he hadn't even thought she was alive. He looked a mix of angry and surprised.
Beside him was Linx, of course, who just looked pissed.
"Paris, we gotta go." Alyzai mumbled before standing up and turning around to walk off. She was greeted by Paris, her eyes showing that she had seen what she saw.
"Yeah, I know. I'm calling Lambo now." She said as they both began speed walking towards the exit.
Alyzai didn't realize she had been thinking this man up the whole time but as he stood there, watching her, she felt fear and excitement.
"Lambo, where are you?" Paris asked as they hurried out the store and down the opposite direction of where Jaimir was. When Alyzai looked, he and Linx were gone. "Yeah, we just saw Jai and one of his little henchmen with him."
"That's Linx." Alyzai corrected as she continued to follow behind.
"If I knew where our so called security was I wouldn't be calling you. They left us like an hour ago at the food lane and we haven't seen them since." Paris explained, ignoring Alyzai.
Alyzai looked around, looking through the crowds of many people that had grouped together to talk or just walk beside each other. She longed to see that face again, she was feening for it.
Paris led them out of the mall and deep into the parking lot where she had remembered they parked. They dipped and curved through cars and trucks, looking for the all black Escalade they arrived in. When they finally got to it, they were greeted by Jaimir and Linx.
Jai looked at Alyzai with clear disapproval as he looked pass Paris and through her.
Automatically, Linx sent a shot straight through Parks's head and blood matter splattered onto her face. Alyzai was in shock as the loud ringing of static hit her ears. All she could see was Jaimir reaching for her and Linx carrying the body away. Then something went over her head and all she could see was black.
***
"So it's like that? After everything?" Jaimir asked, waving a gun around as he talked. Behind him was Sajai and Linx, guns of their own. "I trusted you with everything."
Alyzai was just now coming back to consciousness, everything still blurry as her sight and hearing went in and out.
"You know Kase was going to kill you, right?"
She blinked, trying to force her eyes opened as the blood rushed to her head all at once. She could barely pay attention to what Jaimir was saying. She wanted to cry the pain in her head was throbbing so incredibly hard.
"Out of all people, why betray me?" Jai asked, leaning down to cup her chin up with his hands. He snatched her head up and looked down at her bloody face that Sajai had literally retextured and remodeled. "Why? Answer me!"
Smack! The hard pain of that familiar metal slamming into her jaw bone pulled her first reply out; a scream that echoed through the abandoned place- wherever they were.
Alyzai held her face in pain and looked at him with fresh tears. "I wasn't.. betraying you."
Jaimir looked like he wanted to hit her again as he stared down at her coldly. "So explain?"
"I was handling Kase. This had nothin' to do with you!" Alyzai screamed through the blood that seeped from her mouth.
Jaimir chuckled. "And how were you going to do that?" He asked.
"I can't tell you that."
"Who were you working with?" He asked sternly in return.
"His son." Alyzai said before spitting some blood out into her lap.
Jaimir was quiet as he looked to Linx then back to her. "His son been dead."
"Lambo. Lambo is his son." She confessed. Jaimir looked shocked or in disbelief as if he didn't believe what she was saying. "Kase has a hit out so we were gonna handle him and that was gonna be the end, I swear."
"You really think she's telling the truth?" Linx asked, squinting at Jai.
Jaimir shrugged. "She know too much to be lying. Only a few know about the hit on Lambo."
Linx shook his head and aimed the gun at her head. "I'm not settling for this no more."
"I remind you of your little sister, that's why you want me dead so bad? Because I'll be a weakness?" Alyzai snapped, looking up to Linx.
Alyzai sat in the living room of Linx's grandmother's house, looking at the pictures hung on the wall and on the coffee table where Linx appeared happier and with way less facial hair. Beside him was a little girl that in a way looked just like Alyzai with the chinky eyes and long, black hair.
Suddenly the shots rang out.
Linx glared at her as if she had lost her mind. "The fuck?"
"I know you killed all of them that day." Alyzai spoke. "I didn't forget. I heard you saying no weakness, and I never questioned you."
"Because it's none of your fuckin' business." Linx spat, poking her in the head with the gun and turning away.
Alyzai shook her head before looking up to Jaimir who was looking at Linx as if he had two heads. "You told me some crazy nigga went to the crib and did that..." He spat.
Linx shook his head, throwing the gun on the ground. "It was Kase, man. It was Kase. He told me I had to do what I had to do or he would do it for me. You think I'm going out like that?!" Linx yelled, looking Jaimir in the face. "You never had a family, you would never have understood, bro!"
"You my family, nigga! You could've told me the truth!" Jaimir shot back.
Seeing the two break down right in front of her crushed her because in a sense, Linx was her family too. Jaimir looked to Alyzai and frowned.
"You getting rid of Kase? Bet. What's the plan?" Jaimir asked.
Alyzai shook her head. "I can't tell you that."
"Don't listen to this bitch. She probably just fucking that nigga Lambo and got some info-"
Jaimir put his hand up to silence Sajai. "Don't you think it's time to stop this shit too? He hurt you too. He did that fucked up shit to your mom." Jai spoke.
Sajai closed her mouth and shook her head. "It ain't like she gon' talk anyway." She mumbled.
"Take me to Lambo and I can have him tell you everything but I can't." Alyzai said, the blood starting to dry on her lip. "But I need to be cleaned up first."
***
The squeaking sound of the car could be heard from afar if you listened in closely with the television off as the couple enjoyed themselves in the driveway. The low moans leaking from Alyzai's mouth over the stereo confirmed exactly what anyone trying to look through the foggy mirror would have thought.
Jaimir had a grip on her curly hair as he threw her body between the two front seats, holding her hip with his free hand as she rode him in a "backwards cowgirl" position. Her head was drug back as her boobs bounced with the car.
"You think you got a new nigga, huh?" Jaimir asked, biting down on his lip aggressively.
Alyzai couldn't even breathe correctly as her eyes watered from the overwhelming pleasure she felt, climaxing for the third time in a row and he still kept going until he exploded once more. Even then, he continued.
"You think you can move on from me?" He asked.
"Nooooo..." She moaned, her back arching dramatically.
"You love me?" He quizzed her as he kissed up her back, slowing his stroke. "Huh?"
"Yes, daddy. I love you... I love you so much." Her body shook aggressively as she fell forward between the driver and passenger's seat, holding onto the arm rest as he pushed his tip in the very depths of her sex.
This had to be the hardest part of all of future relationships; committing herself to them and staying away from her damn ex.
Pssh!
Alyzai gasped as she jumped back and away from the shattering glass, watching a bat storm through the window. Jaimir grabbed her possesively as she watched her "new nigga" unlock the door and look in the car.
"Are you deadass, Alyzai!?" He yelled so loud she was sure the whole neighborhood could hear. He had veins popping out his forehead and neck as he starting hammering the bat into a few more windows.
"Baby!" She screamed, gathering up her clothes.
"Bitch, get out this fucking car, son!" Lamar yelled as he reached for her. "Get. Out. This. Fucking. Car!"
Alyzai hurried on her feet even though her legs were shaky. Lamar snatched her up by her hair and drug her out and onto the grass. Jaimir hurried out after her, adjusting himself as he pushed Lamar out the way.
"You dumb, nigga? Don't put your fucking hands on her!" He yelled.
Lamar looked at him in disbelief. "I know this ain't the nigga from the club, bro..." He snapped, shaking his head. "Yo, man. You can fucking have her."
"Lamar!" Alyzai screamed out as he walked away. "Lamar!"
"You will never get over me, Alyzai. And that's a bet." Jaimir said as he laughed, tossing a piece of bacon back on his plate. "I'm gon' run off every nigga after me, you hear me?"
Alyzai gave him the middle finger as she crawled back into bed with him. "Ain't nobody stunting you, nigga. If I wanna move on, I'm pretty sure I can do so. Just because you took my virginity don't mean shit!" She joked back.
Jaimir started laughing, shaking his head. "You gon' always want that old thang back, baby."
Alyzai frowned as she felt a sharp pain full of hurt and embarrassment lace her heart, sitting there on the grass with all the neighbors looking as Lamar walked back into the house. She had really fucked up.
Suddenly, she felt something cover her cold shoulders. When she looked, she noticed Jaimir standing behind her putting his jacket around her. "Come on, ma." He told her.
How convenient was it that he was always there when she "needed" him? He knew she would always run back to him and maybe he was right but Alyzai would forever run from that truth because she was tired of the back and forth thing. She wanted something different. She wanted someone different. Somehow, she just always ended up with him.
They got back inside the car before pulling off and driving to Jaimir's house.
"You know this is your fault, right?" Alyzai asked him, looking at him with weary eyes as she continued putting her clothes on.
Jaimir laughed, his back to her as she got dressed. "Right because my dick just slipped in you from the bottom while I was dropping you off at your nigga house. So me fucking you in your nigga driveway is all my fault-"
His sentence was cut short when Alyzai threw a pillow at the back of his head. "Shut up."
"If you never would've left me, we wouldn't have to deal with this. You know that, right? Then you wouldn't miss daddy dick and I wouldn't have to remind you that that's my pussy." He shot as he started up his Xbox One.
Alyzai rolled her eyes as she rolled her shirt down her body and slumped onto the bed. "The only thing I missed about you was your dick so move."
"That's it, huh?" He asked, looking for a game to play. "Let's go back in memory lane, shall we?"
"No."
Jaimir laughed loudly. "Come on. Let's see if my dick is all you miss."
Alyzai rolled her eyes. "Whatever."
"So first of all-"
"Just stop." Alyzai cut him off. "The whole plan could be ruined because of you. Memory lane don't fuckin' matter right now."
Jaimir chuckled before nodding. "Nah, it's gon' go down. Believe that."