i told someone today.
my best friend.
i told someone else.
my other friend.
they know i'm gay.
they were accepting.
but i can't help but wonder
do they think of me differently
now that they know?
i want to tell you, too.
i want to tell you
that you're the one
where i finally confirmed it,
going from
questioning to
bisexual.
but i can't help but wonder
would you think of me differently
if you knew?
i can never seem to get the words out;
i'm constantly choking on them
before i finally push them
back down inside.
i meant to tell you earlier.
everyday,
i tell myself
that i'll finally tell you today,
but those days all pass by,
and those words becomes
lies.
and i can't help but wonder
would you be upset
that it's taken me so long
to tell you
(if i ever muster up any courage to do so)
when you trusted me,
unlike how you do to others,
and told me
the first week we met?