"Are you still sure about this Lauren? I mean I know you can handle it but I just want to make sure." Ally went on. I mentally rolled my eyes but plastered a smile on my face. I nodded my head and eventually the southern-bell dropped the issue. "Okay, I trust you. If you need anything just let me know, I hope it goes alright."
"Thanks Ally, I will." I rushed towards the elevator and used my new set of keys to get me onto the fourth floor. It seemed like it took forever before the elevator finally stopped and the doors opened the reveal the fourth floor. I walked down the hallway towards the last room, where Y/N was currently occupied. I knocked on the door and opened it to see the Y/H/C haired girl still laying in her bed, her eyes trained on her hand as it twitched like crazy. "Y/N," I hesitated on calling out her name. "It's me, Lauren."
Y/N clenched her fist together while still looking at it. I watched as she laid there clenching and unclenching her fist so that she could look at every part of her hand. As more time went by I noticed that Y/N's hand only began to shake even more. I stepped inside the room not waiting for her invitation and came to a stop at the taller girl's bed. Y/N's Y/E/C eyes, which were previously moving around erratically as she looked at her hand, turned to meet mine along with her head. I could see the begging and fear in her orbs while she moved to sit up in her bed. I did the only thing I could think of and softly grabbed Y/N's hand, interlacing our fingers together.
The softness of her hand was a nice feeling I welcomed, but the pressure between started to build as Y/N squeezed her hand tightly against mine. I could see her jaw clench as she grit her teeth together. She avoided my eyes but her hand only got worse which wasn't what I expected. "Y/N, look at me." I said softly. The younger girl instead let go of my hand so that hers could drop to my thigh. I jumped in surprise but soon enough Y/N's hand started to squeeze my thigh tighter and tighter. "Y/N, look at me." I repeated. Her dilated Y/E/C orbs finally met mine as I reached both of my hands to cup her cheeks, forcing her to look at me straight in the eyes.
As soon as they met mine her pupils started to shrink back down to a normal size. With time though Y/N eventually started to calm down, as her hand started loosening up on my thigh. The taller girl blinked several times before she took her hand off of my leg so that she could scoot backwards on the bed. "I'm sorry." She muttered quietly and almost hesitantly. I smiled softly at her and I could tell that she was confused by my action.
"It's okay. But how long have you been cooped up in this room? I was thinking we could go for a little walk." I spoke. Y/N looked at me for a split second before she looked away again with a shrug of her shoulders. I didn't question it, instead I stood up and brought Y/N with me, her looming figure following behind me. I unlocked the door and dragged the taller girl behind me until we got into the elevator. I pressed the button to go to the first floor and soon enough we were on our way. "I know you're not much of a talker, so if you feel a panic attack or anything coming up, just hold my hand and I'll stop and help you, okay? But I want you to try to communicate with me." I placed my hand on Y/N's bicep as she peered into my eyes.
"Okay." She mumbled. When we stepped out of the elevator I could tell that Y/N hadn't been out of that room very much. It seemed as if she were taking everything in for the first time in her life. I looked at her hand that was in mine to see it still reddened. It was beginning to scab over as well. I brought it closer to my face so I could examine it.
"Does your hand feel better?" I asked Y/N quietly. She looked down at me before nodding her head, the slightest smile taking over the side of her mouth. I hadn't seen her smile yet so this was making me feel all giddy inside. I led the taller girl around the complex to show her around and tell her everything she hadn't seen since she's been cooped up for so long. As we walked, most of the staff members looked scared shitless to be in Y/N's presence. Even some of the other patients steered clear from the Y/E/C eyed girl. I could tell it disheartened Y/N a little bit but she didn't let it show too much or for too long. Someone was walking towards us and judging by their outfit I could tell it was a patient. Y/N's body was pushed into mine as the other patient shoulder checked her as she walked by.
Y/N was quick to squeeze my hand tightly as she froze in her spot. Her breathing picked up and I knew she was close to attacking the other girl. I placed my unoccupied hand on her cheek so that she would look into my eyes. Soon enough her pupils shrank back to their normal size and her breathing slowed to a normal pace. Before I could say anything Y/N spoke up so quietly I could barely hear her. "Can you take me back to my room please." She whispered. When she saw me about to interject she cut me off. "Please." She begged. I hesitantly nodded my head and begrudgingly walked us back to the main elevator.
Y/N was avoiding my eyes like her life depended on it. When the elevator had made it back to the fourth floor she let go of my hand so she could rush down the corridor to stand in front of her room door. I opened it for her and Y/N quickly went to lay in her bed, taking off her shoes and keeping her back to me. After checking the time I went to sit on the edge of the bed, placing my hand on her hip. "It's lunch time, so I was going to bring you some food. Do you have any preferences?" I asked quietly to where Y/N shook her head sadly. "Okay. I'll bring your food right back and we can eat together okay?"
When I didn't get an answer I took it upon myself to leave the room quietly. I immediately made my way to Ally's office and knocked on the door once I was there. When I got the invitation to enter I closed the door behind me and sat in front of her desk. "What's up Lauren? How's the first day going along." She smiled sweetly at me and I couldn't help but return the gesture with a nod.
"It's going good. Or it was." I sighed, my smile turning sad. Ally furrowed her eyebrows before signaling me to elaborate. "So Y/N and I were walking around the property and it was going really well, she seemed to be coming out of her shell. Then all of the sudden some other patient comes and pushes her. Y/N's mood instantly went sour from there and she begged me to take her back to her room where she's currently laying down." Ally made a noise of disapproval when I was talking about when the girl pushed Y/N. "I was just wondering if there was something we could do about that. I can see how the other patients and staff members disregard Y/N like she's nothing."
"I'm afraid not, not until something drastic happens like Y/N is severely hurt by another person. Unless we have proof we can't do anything." Ally stated sadly as I nodded my head. I crossed my left leg over my right as I leaned back in the chair. I hummed in disappointment but turned my attention back to the shorter girl. I had an idea that hopefully she would allow, I wanted to be able to take Y/N off of the property so she wouldn't have to deal with being criticized all the time by the people here.
"Would I be able to take my patient off of the property so I can prevent that from happening? It's not going to help anything if she constantly feels the need to shrink back into her room the second something doesn't go her way. She's not going to want to get better if everyone here is putting her down." Good one Lauren. I looked at Ally, waiting for her answer on the matter. She tapped her chin with her finger as she thought. There was a brief pause before the shorter girl shrugged her shoulders as there was still a worried look on her face.
"I don't see why not, and if you see it fit then sure. We would just have to set up some precautions and go through that process but I'm sure the board would allow it." Ally shrugged once more. I nodded my head and stood from my seat with a smile. I thanked Ally on my way out as I went to get Y/N and I some food to eat for lunch. It wasn't easy since I didn't know what she wanted so I grabbed a couple different items to eat. It wasn't much longer until I was headed back to Y/N's room with our food. When I got back the taller girl was still in her previous position with her back to me.
"Y/N, I got us food." I hesitantly spoke. I was pleasantly surprised when she sat up and faced me even though she wouldn't meet my eyes. I placed the different food out on a small table and moved it in front of us. I sat down next to the taller girl as she picked what she wanted to eat. As she picked up her fork in her right hand, I was quick to interject. "I want you to try to use your left hand."
"But I'm right handed." Y/N muttered. I nodded my head but stayed quiet. Eventually the taller girl sighed and switched her fork over to her left hand before trying to gather her food. She was struggling big time and Y/N could barely stab the chicken with the utensil. When she started getting angrier at the situation I could see her hand beginning to twitch slightly. I panicked and stuttered over my words before I was able to spit it out.
"That's okay just calm down, you can use your right hand." I was quick to interject. Y/N huffed and switched the fork back to her dominate hand. She started eating normally without her left hand twitching next to her causing me to sigh in relief. I was finally able to take a deep breath and relax enough to eat. There was an awkward silence that loomed over us as we ate. I honestly wasn't sure where to go from now on, and even then I knew I couldn't pester her all day as much as I wanted to. I was wishing that there was an underlying rule that stated if they were higher maintenance they needed more attention. But sadly I knew that wasn't true.
I just had to come up with something that would call for us being together more often. I felt for the younger girl, she's been abused in so many ways and I knew I'd take the stance to stop all of that. By then I knew how I was going to take advantage of the situation and allow us to spend more time together. But first I wanted to make sure that Y/N would've been comfortable with it. I cleared my throat which earned me the attention of the younger girl. "Would you be okay with meeting with a lawyer for your case? I understand if you want to wait a while but it'd be better if this was done sooner than later." Y/N put her fork down on her plate and looked away from me with a shrug of her shoulders.
"I don't know how to control myself yet." Her raspy voice came out in a hushed whisper. Without saying anything else she returned to eating, leaving me stumped on how to respond now. That just let me know that the answer to that question was a no, and I honestly wasn't going to push her on the subject. I would just have to work harder on her confidence. By then I had lost my appetite so I put my good away and waited for the Y/E/C eyed girl to finish her food as well. When she had I threw everything away as Y/N returned to her position of laying on her side with her back to me.
"Are you done for the day, or do you want to continue?" I asked as quietly and softly as I could. The taller girl shook her head without saying a word. I sighed and rubbed my forehead in exasperation. I figured my work was done for the day so I stepped forward to bid my goodbye's to Y/N. As I leaned over her figure she was staring at her shaking hand once more. I placed my own hand on her waist in a comforting manner but it didn't seem to be of any help at all, the twitching only got worse. "Y/N-" I barely managed to get out because in the blink of an eye, I was pushed against the opposite wall with Y/N's taller frame looming over mine, her left hand on my right breast. The Y/H/C haired girl was so close to me that I could feel her hot breath on the side of my neck.
Her eyes were completely darkened by now, her pupils dilated twice their normal size. Surprisingly enough, I wasn't scared at all. The close proximity only sent a rush of adrenaline throughout my body. I stuttered over my words that came out with no real structure whatsoever. I gripped onto Y/N's left wrist in an attempt to calm her down but she didn't budge at all. "Y-Y/N." I breathed out. The only response I got was the taller girl leaning in even closer to the point where her lips touched the skin of my neck, her right hand coming to grip tightly onto my hip. "Y/N stop." I managed to get out. Considering it wasn't even her dominant hand I was having a hell of a time trying to get her left hand off of me. When I felt the scrape of her teeth against my neck I used my other hand to push on her chest. Soon with enough force I managed to push the younger girl away from me, her teeth releasing the skin of my neck but her left hand switched from my breast to grab onto my wrist, my hand still on her chest.
By now she was the one to have a hold on my wrist but her right hand traveled down to my butt. "Y/N let go of me." I tried to wiggle out of her grasp but her hold only tightened. "Y/N this isn't you!" And then it was like clockwork. Y/N stopped her efforts and just froze up in her spot, her grip on me loosening just until her arms dropped to her sides. I gulped lightly and was finally able to catch my breath. Y/N took one slow step backwards while avoiding my eyes. She brought her hands up to look at them, the shaking no longer present. With every passing moment she took a step backwards until she collapsed on her bed with her head in her hands. When I saw her body shaking again I knew it was only because she was crying now.
I went to kneel in front of the taller girl but she jumped backwards so that she could sit against the wall, more specifically in the corner where her bed sat. She brought her knees up to her chest as her crying got more intense. "What the fuck is wrong with me?" She barely managed to choke out. From then on she continued to bad-mouth herself until she couldn't speak anymore. The only thing that came out of her mouth were sobs and whimpers, which was honestly breaking my heart. The past scene was far from my mind, the only important thing now was to make sure that she stopped crying. I crawled onto the bed despite Y/N's protests as I cradled her head in my arms. She tried to fight me but let herself go in the end, her body weight completely resting against mine. "I can't take this anymore." Y/N cried.
"Hey, hey. I'm not hurt, nothing's wrong. You're okay, I'm okay." I cooed softly in her ear. It was clear that Y/N was trying to apologize but no structured words were able to leave her mouth. Soon enough she just kept quiet with her body shaking as she tried to keep the sounds of her crying to herself. I don't know how long had passed but there was a point where we adjusted ourselves so that Y/N's head rested on my lap, my legs outstretched in front of me. I kept my hand running through her hair in a comforting manner until the younger girl managed to calm herself down. Y/N had her arms wrapped around my waist tightly as she became quiet. I was able to wiggle my phone from my back pocket to see that it was now about four o'clock. I brushed the hair out of Y/N's face and leaned over to see her eyes closed. By the time it registered in my head I realized that she was now asleep.
The taller girl was still clinging onto my smaller frame as if her life depended on it. I couldn't help but smile as Y/N turned her head so that it faced me, but she buried her face against my stomach before she settled back down. The only thing that bothered me were the dried tear tracks running down the length of her cheeks, her eyes still slightly swollen and red. My heart ached at the sight. With a sigh, I took my time wriggling out of Y/N's grasp and eventually succeeded, but as Y/N started to shuffle on the bed I quickly grabbed one of her pillows and placed it in her wandering arms. When she felt the object she squeezed it against her body as an outline of a tiny smile formed on her lips.
It was weird to see the difference in appearance the taller girl carried from now and when she loses control of herself. I wouldn't ever think they were the same person. Since there was nothing left for me to do I decided it's be best for me to just leave for the day. I'm sure tomorrow would bring a hell of a lot of trouble and awkwardness but I sucked it up and headed down to Ally's office to tell her I was done for the day. Again I knocked on the door only to enter after I got the okay from Ally. Instead of sitting down I stood in the door frame and gave a small wave to the shorter girl. "I'm heading out." I informed her.
Ally smiled and took her glasses from their spot where they sat perched on her nose. "How was your first day? Are you still excited to come back tomorrow?" She asked enthusiastically. I returned her smile and despite what happened earlier, I nodded and lied right through my teeth.
"Yeah, it went absolutely perfect." Apparently it was really believable though because Ally congratulated me and eventually bid her goodbye's. I headed back to my rental car and got in, letting a deep breath fall from my mouth as I leaned my head on the steering wheel. I quickly knew that this was going to be the most difficult thing I have ever done. But who never appreciated a little challenge?