Fubu days
I hate him!
I hate him for making me feel that I'm special, that I'm not just one of his flings, that he likes me more that just a friend (or a fuck buddy).
I felt betrayed by James fucking Reid.
It's been three days since I distanced myself from him because of the Julia issue. He's not just ruining our loveteam but he's also breaking my heart.
If he likes her, he should've told me. Hindi yong pinapaasa ka na may gusto sayo eh may gusto naman palang iba. Nakakagago lang.
I should be the one ignoring him but it turned out that he's being cold towards me.
Hindi naman ako nagpapapansin, he didn't even make a move to talk to me but I preferred that we'll be back to being friends again. I'm willing to set aside my feelings and my pride just to be back in our usual self and to not complicate our working relationship.
Siya pa talaga ang hindi namamansin eh siya itong pa fall. My thoughts were interrupted when I heard a knock and I pushed the button that electronically unlocks the door.
"Nadz!" Yassi came strutting in and I stand up to hug her.
"I don't understand why you need to knock. Didn't I give you the password of my room?"
"Syempre, courtesy parin, malay mo naman busy ka pala."
"Busy? No. That stupid guy no longer come here." I murmured and she arched her brow.
"What?"
"Nothing, I just want to eat hotdog. " I said and for some reason, Yassi bursted into laughter. "A real hotdog."
"Ahh."
"Yass, kindly tell your boyfriend na tantanan ka na, nagiging berde na yang utak mo." I kidded and we both laughed.
"Why are you even here?"
"Let's have lunch together."
"Okay." I readily agreed. I want to see Yassi and Bret because they made me believe in happy endings.
"I have been feeling down lately, I need sugarcoating." I joked as I picked up my bag. When we got to the elevator her boyfriend hurriedly hug her. Ang OA ni Jackson.
We got inside the elevator on the 6th floor. We went directly to the newly opened restaurant. Bret opened the door for us and we stepped inside.
"They're already here." Bret uttered smiling and I was surprised to find Sam, James and Joseph waiting for us.
I felt nervous upon seing him for almost a week of not talking to each other even at work.
"Hello! Bret, Yassi and Nadine." Joseph greeted.
Sam seated in the head of the table while we are facing Joseph and James.
"Let's order, I'm so hungry." I said and pretended to browse the menu. I've never been in an awkward stage but James' lingering gazes made me feel awkward. And horny.
"I ordered the group feast, Nadz. All the food in their menu is in there." Sam said and I lowered the menu.
Oh my gosh, Yassi might notice that I'm not looking at James. Matindi pa naman ang observation skills nito. I thought as I took a sip of a glass of water infront of me.
"James, when are you going to introduce Julia to us as your girlfriend?" Bret asked and I didn't even notice that I drank all the water in the glass.
"Nadz, are you alright?" Yassi asked and I nodded my head at her.
"I'm just so thirsty." I replied and saw the corner of James' mouth lift. Is he making fun of me? "Nandyan kasi si Joseph, he's so hot." I told everyone, my voice teasing and Joseph laughed.
"Ikaw talaga Nadine, you never fail to make me blush." Buti naman at nakikisakay din itong taong to. I felt Yassi kick my foot and I mentally rolled my eyes at her. Tsismosa talaga tong kaibigan kong to.
"I make you blush, Seph?" I replied smiling. "Am I that hot to make a man like you blush?" I flirted. This flirting is fun and harmless.
"You're always hot Nadz." Joseph laughed and I laughed along with him. I didn't look at the reaction of everyone, for sure they're wondering what's going on especially Yassi.
"Well, thank you Seph. I know I am but the confirmation from you made me hotter." I replied and we laughed together. I don't want to look at James because I'm confused and he's the reason why my heart is beating fast. I miss him but I need to calm, it's time to make goodbye sa kahibangan ko sa kanya.
"Nadz, there's a newly opened bar just two blocks away from here, do you wanna check it out? We could hang out and watch movie then we could..." He let the rest of his sentence hang in the mid air and I smiled.
"I'll think about it." I replied as Yassi cleared her throat. Alam kong nagpaparamdam siya kasi hindi ako nagkukwento and she must sense na kinikilig ako kay Joseph. Who wouldn't? Muscles pa lang sa braso ulam na. I thought as I averted my gaze and met Yassi's laughing and curious brown eyes.
"Magkwento ka." I heard Yassi whisper as she pretended to lean towards me to get the tissue holder that is close to me.
"What's the real score between you and Joseph?"
"Nothing." I whispered back.
"Simpleng landian lang."
"Ikaw ha." She murmured and I grinned.
"Naddie," I was surprise to hear James call my name and apparently the other occupants of our table were surprised too as they stopped talking and gave him her attention.
"Yes?" I answered. Ang tindi naman makatitig. Are you undressing me in your head James? I asked myself as I started to feel hot all over me. "What is it Reid?"
"I need a favor from you, I know you're good in photography. So I need help for my mother's surprise birthday party." Wow, alam naman nitong artista ako at hindi photographer at hello, busy kaya kami sa mga shootings. Nagpapatawa ba tong taong to at bakit niya ako kinakausap? He smoothly said and I blinked.
"I'm rather busy...."
"Please." He said. How could a please sounds so damn sexy coming from this guy.
"Well, why won't you ask Andrei James, I know that you guys are busy with work." Joseph said and James continued to stare at me. I felt Yassi kicked my foot again.
"Please. I'll ask the management to free our schedule on that day." He said and I gave in.
"Okay." I finally replied and he smiled. My pulse raced. Shit Nadine. What the fuck did you get yourself into? Diba mag momove on ka na sa pa fall na yan?
"Thank you." He said before he stood up.
"I need to call someone." He told everyone and left. I felt weak.
"I need to use the comfort room." I stood up too and ran towards the women's silent sanctuary. "Shit! Shit! Shit!" I chanted as I look at myself in the mirror. Damn Nadine, why are you so stupid? I asked myself in the mirror and straightened when the door opened.
My eyes widened when I saw who stepped inside.
"What are you doing here?" I asked as he stood behind me. He was looking at me through the mirror and I gripped the counter tightly when he started to raise my skirt. I was wet in an instant.
"Nadine Lustre, when are you going to get inside that head of yours that you are mine? " Aba matinde. Anong pinagsasabi nitong gagong to. Is he that possessive with his other flings? Aba ibahin mo ako James Reid, hindi na ako magpapa uto sayo. He asked and I gasped when he pushed inside me.
"James, what are you doing?" I whispered the question as he held my gaze through the mirror. I knew what he was doing but feeling ko sign of protest ang pagtatanong ko sa kanya. But I like what he is doing to. Nagpapakipot lang ako ng slight.
I slightly bent forward and his knee was bend behind me. I was wearing something that easily moved aside while he moved inside me.
"Ahh! Naddie. I missed you. He groaned as I grasped.
"Wait....someone...might get ...in." I moaned as I felt his hand on my chest.
"It's already inside." He whispered and I cried out in pleasure.
I'm not in public displays of intimacies and I am a woman who knows what she wants and how to say no. I have my own set of rules but James is too big for conventions and arguments.
"James..."
"I know." He moved faster and I put a hand over my mouth to silence my screams. He's freaking hot. I had to give him that.
He deftly put a hand under my blouse as he began palming my flesh and I stared at us in the mirror. His eyes were holding my gaze and his mouth was slightly open. His arm was around my waist and one of his hands was under my blouse. While I was panting, wide eyed open, immaculately groomed and hair out of place. It was an erotic sight to be hold.
I gasped in pleasure as I felt my warmth squeez him repeatedly . He let my hip go and stand properly and wrapped an arm around my waist. I was confused at first because I could feel that he was nearing his release yet he stopped moving.
"Why James?" I murmured the question as he looked at me. His other arm around my back and pulled me against his chest. His maleness was still throbbing inside me but I knew that he hasn't reached his climax yet.
"Is something wrong?" I asked and felt him shook his head.
"Sorry." He muttered and my brows knitted together in bewilderment.
"Sorry because I dind't have the courage to court you properly. I'm sorry if I had to resort to being an ass just to get your attention and I'm sorrier that I made you think that this is just about bedding you."
"Why are you doing this James? I thought you and Julia are together."
"No! It's just all a misunderstanding. I never dated anyone when I realized that I'm already falling for you. I'm sorry if I'm being a coward for not telling you right away. You're the only girl I've been with for the past few months. And with regards to the Julia issue, I never dated her. It was just one time when we're coincidentally in the same bar and she's really drunk and she can't handle herself. Her friends doesn't care about her so I feel obligated to bring her home. She's just a friend. That's it and the media is just exaggerating it."
"It felt terrible not talking to you for almost a week Naddie. I was just preparing myself how to confess my feelings for you and I regretted those days without you near me. But here I am now, inside you, telling you that I can't live without you. I swear I didn't mean to do it this way. I was planning a romatic set up, not like this. Joseph made me do it. That asshole triggered me to do it. Please don't talk and act to him that way. It breaks my heart. I don't want to see you with other guys just the thought of it makes me go crazy." I was speechless for a moment. I didn't see it coming.
"Naddie, I've like you for so long, and I've wanted you for so long." He whispered against my ear and started surging against me again. I felt a little disoriented even as my belly clenched as my desire awakened again. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders as I strained to be closer to him and he sped up his movements.
"James, faster." I whimpered as he continued to whisper sweet nothings. I ground myself against him, eager to reach the precipice. His mouth sought and found mine and I hungrily returned his kiss. He moved and he's taking me from behind again. Our new position brought him deeper inside me. He spread my legs as he pump into me fast and hard.
"I'm close." He gasped and he let out a long moan. I didn't know what triggered my release. I wasn't sure if it was his face contort with passion, the feel of liquid filling my warmth...or him repeatedly whispering 'I love you' in my ear.
Then I heard a knock on the door.
End
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