I have to go back, let them see my face,
I wish I could retaliate, I wish I could escape
I have to show up, see them again,
Though I wish I could leave, mark this the end
I have to return, change how they see,
Make them feel different about me
Start at square one, make it all new,
Show them the colours that are true
I have to show up, make an entry,
Prove them I'm better, than what they feel
I know I'm not worth it, I know they can't stand,
Having me in the same room and giving a helping hand
I know they despise me even though they don't know,
Who I really am and what I can show
They only know the side that takes toll when they're around,
But I can't explain that, in my image I have drowned
I'm not who I say I am, who I pretend to be,
But this time I'll show up and I'll be completely me.
~V