It has been said
That poets write their
Strongest pieces
When they're going
Through bad times
That when things are
Working out
The writing isn't the same
That can and may be true
Contemplation
Should I have written
When my anxiety
Was piggybacking me
Waiting for my blood test results
You know it's been 7 months
Since the last one
There was that
And getting final grade back
Still waiting
Not making it my everything
I've started to change back to
Who I was pre-illness
Caring about others
Who put themselves first
And can close off to me
Even though they know
I worry and that's bad for me
But it's done anyways
Because who cares if a
Friend is worried
Instead of a heads up
They come first
Why do I do that?
If they can put themselves
First
Just like I did before
I shouldn't take it personally
Contemplation
I used to be an enigma
To friends
Even that word, friend
Needs to be re-evaluated
I watch folks pray to
The social media G-ds constantly
About finding true love
But are they looking
Or just hoping the perfect man
Will fall into their laps
Beauty and the Beast
Is only a movie
In order for life to have meaning
You got to work for it
Open your heart to the universe
Be more social
Or join a site
I am made out of love
I am determined to
Move on my own path
And
Maybe just maybe
I will not share anything else
Personal about myself
Until I am as cared about as
I have about others
I deserve better
Poems will happen
I am a writer after all
But what's deep in my heart
My soul
Is no longer anyone's business
Because you don't deserve it
That's not a judgment
That's the truth
I saw
I witnessed
I contemplated
I gave chances
Since people are staying true to
Themselves
I deserve the best as well
Poems are written during
Epiphanies too
It's my turn now