RK's P.OV,
I rang bell harshly worried for madhu... when I woke up found an empty bed beside me... I tried her number but she didn't pick it up... what happen to her everything was good before some hours... we spend splendid time with each other then why she suddenly disappeared from home...
Door didn't opened as I waited for 15 mins patiently but it's too much now frustrated I bang on door it flew open means door was unlock only... I rush inside calling her name"madhu!! Madhu where are you??" I walk upstairs into her bedroom opening the door find it empty...was going to walk out but heard sound of shower so walked near washroom... the scene before my eyes shattered me to the core...
I panicky run near her turning off shower knob shouted "madhu what are you doing??"she didn't responds... she is just sitting on floor tears cascading from eyes her whole body is trembling with cold as she is drench in water completely... I bent little shaking her "madhu what is all going on?? Are u listening to me HONEYBUNCH!!!" I almost yelled on her breaking her trance she slowly raise her eyes to meet with mine... she got tense seeing me her eyes travel to her arms where I am holding her...
Next moment she jerk me harshly I stumble back and madhu shouted "don't touch me... stay away RK..." her outburst took me aback... what is wrong with her?? She stood up on feet and I also copied her coming face to face I asked her again "what is wrong madhu??" she stare at me in disgust as tear stream kept flowing from her eyes..."everything is wrong RK?? How can u be so cool after what happened between us some hours before??? Don't you realize we did all wrong... we have committed a sin RK??"she explains with pain...
She is regretting what happened between us I know it was wrong but I don't have any intentions to do so was just we carried away in moments... I took a step near her trying to explain said "look honeybunch..." before I can complete she put hand between us speaking in fury "I don't want to listen anything RK... just leave me alone right now... whatever you wanted from me you got it... now please leave me... I am begging to you... please!!" her plead and vulnerable condition destroyed my heart... she always thought I want this thing only from her... I never want this I admit I was attracted badly but not this...
Without any word I walk from her room taking out cell dialed a number and said "hello trishna... RK here... come to see madhu she needs you.." I hung up... hope trishna can take care of her coz I know she needs someone right now...
Madhu's P.O.V,
"I don't want to listen anything RK... just leave me alone right now... whatever you wanted from me you got it... now please leave me... I am begging to you... please!!" I cried more completing myself without any word RK left from there as I fall on floor again... why this happened?? We don't have to do this it's all wrong I am cursing myself... it's not his fault only I should have stopped him... we lost our senses our mutual attraction destroyed me... I lost myself to him... guilt is killing me from inside... what will happen now... What he might be thinking about me??
Most terrifying is what if I got pregnant this mere thought made me feel sick... how I will tell this all to mom dad?? I betrayed them... A sharp cry escape from my lips "I am sorry mom... I am sorry dad... I am really sorry!!!" cupping my face I cried more... "madhu!!'' my head snap to the voice... next moment trishna ran to me hugging tightly I hugged back crying my heart out...
"Shhh!! Stop crying madhu... wat happened?? Why you like this??" she asked me patting my back... my throat is choked words are lost what should I tell her now... how I will explain this to her?? We stayed like this for a moment then trishna helped me to stood up and made me sit on bed... she knelt before me taking my hands into her she asked with painful eyes "what happened madhu?? Is it related to RK??" hearing his name my heart filled with pain... I nodded my head in yes... she questioned "what he did now??" "It's not only him we did... we did a sin..." her eyes open wide in shock as she got what I meant to say... her hand covering her mouth as she stood up trying to digest the news... I kept mum not knowing what to say... the room fills with awkward silence...
"how could you both madhu?? " trishna spoke in disbelief after 10 mins... I bowed my head in regret as guilt engulf my mind again... she came before me and asked "now what you will do??" I shook my head right to left as I myself don't know... she sat on bed making me turn to face her... then spoke "just answer my simple question madhu... do you love him??" her question pinch my heart I replied back next sec "no we don't love each other..." "I am asking about your feelings only not him..."
Taking a deep breath I declared "no I don't love him..." "you are lying madhu... I can see clearly in your eyes... I had seen you how much you missed him while exams what was your condition without him..." her words echoed my mind this is all wrong I shut my eyes tightly speaking "you are taking this all in wrong way trishna... I already told you it's just attraction nothing more... and if it is love then also I don't want it to be... you know I don't believe in this..." "madhu you are being stupid that all is past how can you judge your present and future according to it..."
She pinch my past nerve making me weak I don't want to remember it... I spat in anger "please trishna don't drag that all things here... please!!" "fine I wouldn't you just simply accept truth then..." "how can I you know everything trish I don't want this fake love relationship in my life again... I know what we did was wrong... I am feeling guilty about it... and I have decided it's over everything is ending here... if u tried to drag it again I wouldn't talk to you..." completing myself I sob again as tears moisten my cheeks...
Tirshna didn't said a word just sat beside pampering me... my mind filled up with guilt, anger, fear, helpless... whole day passed like this trishna stayed with me she cooked also and made me eat forcefully... if friend like her is with you then no need of anything else... she always understood me... when we met two years back I was completely broken... she made me smile again... she made me realize that life doesn't end just coz of one bitter incident...
"okay madhu I need to go you take care and I will keep calling you..."saying so she hugged me and walked out from house waving one last time...I close the door settling on couch hoping today's morning can bring happiness fading yesterday's memories... RK didn't call me after our last meeting... I know I was very harsh with him but I was not in sense... "ding...dong..." doorbell broke my trance I stood up thinking "what if RK is here... how I will face him??" praying to god I slowly walk near door and opened it very next moment I was in mom's embrace... "ohh my sweety... missed you so much..." mom spoke excitedly... I saw dad and bro coming behind our eyes met so I forced a smile replying to mom "I missed you too mom..." she backed away asking "is everything fine sweety?? You looking so pale" "I am fine mom I just missed you all so much..." I hugged her back as tears again made its way...
They all settled in house putting luggage aside I sat near dad snuggling into him as I am always dad's princess I need him more right now... dad hug me from side asking "so my princess how was exams?? Again u gonna top??" I replied with small smile "yes dad it was good..." "why you sound so low beta??" I shook my head in no and control myself... yesterday's incident played in my mind what will happen if they will come to know about this... how I will face them... I am feeling so guilty why we have to do this??
Then we all had lunch a complete family like before meanwhile armaan bhai tease me narrating how much fun they had without me but I was less bothered about it... I walk into bedroom looking around my eyes fell on bed as my mind linger to nights which I spend with RK sleeping here in his arms... why he is not leaving my mind... I want to forget about him... I sat on study table looking out side window a lone road...
slowly each memory filled my mind playing before my eyes... his first appearance in my life when we saw each other in college... the way I got attracted to him... our first kiss... my new name given by him "honeybunch" his touch...
Our first night how forcefully he walked in home... made me sleep with him... pampered me... stayed awake for me whole night when I was so scared... the second night without any reason he came again to sleep with me... his obsessive nature... his authority on me... his cuteness... how cutely he lied when radha aunty caught us... his stupid idea of staying away from me coz of exams making me crave for him... lastly the passionate moments we spend with each other... I never thought he would come to see me after what all happened between us but he came and reason I can feel it he is not just attracted to me is more than this...
My eyes travel to RK's house as his figure appear before me... I closed the window so he can't see me... he walk near edge of terrace and stood there resting his hands... I observe him keenly... his cool look and charm has been faded... he is sad... his eyes showing his pain... I don't have right to hurt him... I should have stopped him the day it all started...
A tear rolled down from my eyes... I cursed myself for making it all happen... for taking this attraction so long... "I hate myself... " I mumble... not able to see him like this I slide curtain closing his view...
I ran into bed burying my face in pillow I cried more and more...
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