That gif up there? Yeah, I watch it at least 200 times an hour c:
Seriously though, JinYoung's smile is so beautiful I cry.
BTW PEOPLE, DO YOU LIKE THE NEW COVER I MADE? IT TOOK SOOOO LONG TO COMPLETE.
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I don't know whether he's pretending that he and I were never best friends or whether he actually forgot who I am. Either way, it sucks.
The three of us were sat in the studio's cafe, me, JinYoung and Bambam that is. I felt uneasy as he acted as if today was the first time he's met me. The more he talked and joked around, the more I saw the similarities of him now and him 5 years ago.
Whenever he smiled he would always cover his mouth and crinkles formed in the corner of his eyes, exactly like back then.
"I like your ring, where did you get it?" BamBam asked JinYoung, eyeing the ring in fascination. As I looked down at his fingers I face palmed myself for not realising it earlier. That was the ring I left on his desk the night I said goodbye to him. It was made from a black gold stone whilst a small gem called Scarlet Emerald stock tightly to the stone.
I chose the dark stone in particular because it was the exact same colour as my wings but the red gem didnt exactly have much meaning, it just attracted my attention.
"I don't really remember where I got it from, I think I was 18. I guess I've always had this ring on I feel like it just grew on me. Not once have I ever taken it off." He smiled as he started twisting the ring around his fingers. "I have another ring, exactly the same as this one, in my house but the gem doesn't glow like this does."
I smiled to myself, even if he did forget me; he never threw away my ring.
"And you have no clue as to where you got them?" Asked BamBam in shock.
"Nope, but I feel happier when I have them. I don't know, it's quite absurd. But I just enjoy life more with it." JinYoung stared at the ring more carefully as a sad expression appeared in his face but it was gone in a second.
The waitress came back with our milkshakes and I had to hold in the urge to roll my eyes. The first time she came to order our drinks, she was eye raping JinYoung. Of course, he did not notice this. Even if he's forgotten me, he stayed the same. Always oblivious to everything.
As the fake blonde put down our drinks, I stared at her in disgust as I realised she undid a few buttons on her shirt. Placing JinYoung's drink last, she stared at him seductively whilst he smiled kindly at her.
"Thank you." JinYoung says, looking at the waitress as she giggles and flutters her eyelashes. At this, I rolled my eyes and took a sip of my chocolate milkshake. I mean, what the hell was so funny? He only said thank you.
"You're welcome." She flutters her eyelashes at him and I tried my best to ignore it, but with her toxic perfume filling the whole cafe, it was hard to dismiss her presence. "Would you like anything else? My number perhaps?" She eyes JinYoung and only JinYoung.
I heard BamBam cough rather loudly as I noticed how much he wanted to burst out laughing. "Sweetheart, he's taken." My eyes widened slightly at what he said, he's probably just saying it to get rid of the waitress. Yeah, that's probably it.
"Oh..." She says slowly, looking at BamBam for a second and huffing. "Whatever, I can do better."
"Even if he didn't have one, you'd have no shot. At all. Like, zero percent chance. Maybe if you were a guy then a ten percent chance." BamBam states as if it's something everyone knows. Huh, alright so that's something new I've found out about him. JinYoung shot daggers at his friend, confused as to why he was acting that way. Like I said, oblivious JinYoung. So oblivious he never realised I was in love with him for four years.
As the toxic scent decreased with each step the girl took, I felt like my mind could work again. I heard BamBam burst out laughing and when I look at him, he was clutching on his stomach tightly whilst his face flushed red.
"I wonder how many guys she bangs per week. And with that amount of perfume, I doubt they end alive." Says BamBam as he watches the girl taking an elderly's order. He then looks at JinYoung who was still glaring at him.
"Are you always this rude?" JinYoung asked. Not once did BamBam take the smile off his face and instead of answering he wiggled his eyebrows.
"Where's Mark? Heard he's doing a photoshoot in LA. When's he coming back?" At the sudden mention of Mark's name, I noticed how JinYoung tried to hide his smile whilst looking in the opposite direction of BamBam.
"He's supposed to be coming back by the end of the week." He says as the smile he's tried to hide shows.
"Who's Mark?" I asked, wanting know what what relation he has with my JinYoung but I already have a clear picture of what they are. All I needed was confirmation and then my heart would break into more pieces than it already had.
"Mark, the unluckiest guy on earth that ended up dating the infamous JinYoung." BamBam chuckles when receiving a punch to the shoulder by JinYoung himself.
I inhaled deeply as I nodded my head at him, trying my best not to make it obvious how much I wanted to cry of both happiness and sadness. JinYoung is not straight. What? Since when?
"You're gay?" I abruptly asked. My face heated slightly, embarrassed I just suddenly asked the question. Did I sound judgemental or happy?
"You didn't know?" BamBam gasped, shocked with my little knowledge on JinYoung's sexuality.
Well, what can I say? I came back from the underworld just yesterday and I had no access to the internet whatsoever. How crazy would he think I am? And how afraid would JinYoung be?
"I guess I haven't been catching up on the latest news recently." I cleared my throat, rubbing the back of my neck. It was an annoying habit of mine; touching my neck when I lie, but I had no way of refraining myself from doing it. I guess it's an automatic reaction?
"Where did you move from?" BamBam questioned, eyeing me suspiciously.
"Cuba..." I trailed off, sounding more like a question than an answer. Cuba was the first country that popped into my head which I know doesn't have much access to the internet. (a.n. clapping myself on my back because I actually remembered this from history class)
BamBam stared at me, looking as if he's going to ask me another question but his eyes widened when he looked behind me.
"Oh my, Lord. JinYoung..." He gasped, shaking JinYoung and pointing to something behind me. I stared at him confused and watched as JinYoung's facial changed to complete happiness. I turned in my seat to look at what the two were staring at, and to my surprise, Mark was making his way towards our table.
I heard JinYoung's chair squeak as he pushed himself off it, hugging Mark tightly before kissing him right in front of me. I looked away instantly, feeling my throat tighten and I found it hard to breathe. I fought the tears that tried to escape me.
I can't believe I actually thought JinYoung would be waiting for me. But even if he did, he would be waiting for his best friend, nothing more. Because this is reality, and no angel and demon could have feelings for one another. One may fall for the other, but in no world could the both of them be in love with each other.
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Wow whaaaaatt I finally updated?? How long has it been? 7 years??
Anyways, this chapter isn't very long but I feel like that was a decent place to stop at.
MY BBY JACKSON IS TURNING 23 TODAY AND I AM NOT OKAY 😭😭😭 here I will put a picture of my bby in the midst of dancing: