waa! 2 weeks nalang graduation na namin.. (TT____TT)
nakakasawa na ba ang panimula at patapos na author's note?? haha :D
yaan nyo na. nag eemote ako para kunware may part din ako sa story na to! haha
para kay @juliemaelabiga :)
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XANDER's POV
namiss nyo ba ako?
tss. oo na alam ko namang hindi..
alam ko ring galit kayo sakin..
aist.. 4 days ko na syang hindi nakikita at nakakasama..
i really do miss that eating machine..
yung babaeng parang nakalunok ng megaphone..
yung matakaw na babae na parang may blackhole sa tyan..
yung babaeng dahilan ng pagngiti ko..
yung dahilan kung bakit lumalabas yung tunay na ako..
siguro nagtataka kayo ngayon ano?
to tell you the truth. i really do like danica.. a lot..
i never intended to push her away..
it was never my idea to hurt her..
but.. that's the only way i can save her..
as much as i want to protect her, she'll will always get hurt if she'll stay by my side..
i can't bare to see her in pain..although i'm in pain to..
i don't want her to be in jeopardy for my own happiness..
as much as i want her.. i really need to let her go.. </3
*FLASHBACK!*
that night.. sa bar:
pauwi na sana kami pagkatapos ng rumble ng bigla namang may pumigil sakin..
she said she wanted to talk with me..
pinaalis ko na yung ibang mga kasama ko.. ng kami nalang dalawa ang naiwan..
"hindi ko nagustuhan ang ginawa mo.." she said with her arms crossed..
"do i need to please you with my actions? umuwi ka na valerie. gabi na.." i said coldly
"that girl.. do you really like her?" tanong nya sakin.. natigilan naman ako at napaisip.. do i like danica?
"answer me.. do you like that girl?" ulit nya uli..
"yeah. and she's my girlfriend.. so please, lubayan mo na ako valerie."
"hah! do you think i will fall for this crap?! alam kong nagsisinungaling ka! you're just using her against me!"
"really? what made you think that i'm only using her? can't you see. i'm inlove with her?"
"if you really love her.. wag mo na syang lalapitan.. kahit kailan!! if you really care for her, don't ever come near her! or else i'll break her!"
i gave her a sharp glare at hinawakan ko ang braso nya ng mahigpit..
"DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH HER!!" sabi ko sa kanya habang hinila ko ang braso nya!
"well see! if ever you come near her.. i swear, she'll suffer a lot! and don't think i'll cross my mind! i am truly gonna break her! you're mine!"
"GODDAMN! valerie i've never been yours?!! wala kang karapatang diktahan ako! if you ever touch her. i'll never know what i'll do to you! so back off!!"
"you back off!! alam mo kung anong kaya kong gawin!! kaya kung mahal mo talaga sya. lalayuan mo sya! or baka mas gusto mo pa syang mapahamak ng dahil sayo.. your choice!" she said then she left..
i can't let her hurt danica..
i don't want danica to be in danger because of me..
i knew valerie. she'll do whatever it takes to bring her down..
i can't let that happen.. not on danica..
*END OF FLASHBACK*
that's why i had to left her hanging. i'll disregard my feelings for her sake..
then kahapon lang, pumunta sya sa HQ, kaya pala ang ingay sa baba nun..
akala ko babae nanaman ni paolo.. then nagulat ako ng makita ko sya..
no! hindi pwedeng nandito sya!! anong ginagawa nina jeric?! alam naman nila yung sinabi sakin ni valerie.. gahd! she had to leave now..
"xander, let's talk please" sabi nya.. god! i missed her voice..
"no.. umuwi ka na.. jeric ihatid mo na sya" kung alam mo lang kung gaano ko kagustong makasama ka na ulit.. pero.. hindi pwede..
"xander. ano ba? mag usap muna tayo please!" pigil nya sakin ng sasarahan ko na ang pinto..
kung alam mo lang.. gusto na din kitang makausap.. gusto ko nang sabihin sayo ang nararamdaman ko.. pero, hinde pwede.. ayokong masaktan ka..
then pinapasok ko sya sa room.. eto nalang talaga ang naiisip kong paraan..
"speak" i said coldly without looking at her.. ayokong tingnan sya.. i feel guilt evrytime i look at her in the eyes..
"uhm.. a--about. the co--contract..." she said.. pero pinutol ko na ang sasabihin nya..
"yun ba? i haven't forgotten about that. so make your wish. anything.. ano bang kelangan mo? pera?" then bigla syang tumayo at.. *PAAAKK!!*
i know.. i deserve that slap..
"damn you! do you really think you can buy me?!bakit ka ba ganyan?!! nandito ako para tapusin na ang kasunduan natin! tutal naman para ka rin namang walang pakialam sakin so let's end your stupid antics!" she said.. teary eyed na sya.. danica.. i'm sorry. kung alam mo lang..
"am i supossed to care about you?! goddamn! danica! kasunduan lang yon?! were on a fake relationship! that means all of what were doing is fake! ok?!"
i do care about you.. at lahat ng pinakita ko sayo, totoo yun..
"di inamin mo na rin na manggagamit ka!!!" she said..
ouch! her words hit me.. i never intended to use her.. well maybe at first. but this time iba na..
"what the hell are you talking about?! is it about the kiss?! i said i'm sorry ok?! bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan?! don't tell me may romantic feelings ka para sakin?!"
isang mahabang katahimikan ~ ~ ~ ~
"umalis ka na..wag ka ng magpapakita sakin.. i don't want to see you.. ever.." i said coldly.. without looking at her.. no! please stay.. :'((
i heard her sobbing. pero ayoko parin syang tingnan..
ayokong makita syang umiiyak. lalo na at kasalanan ko pa..
baka imbis na layuan ko sya. baka hindi ko na sya pakawalan..
"i thougth you were different.. but now i know.. your nothing but a heartless monster."
a heartless monster..
she said i'm a heartless monster, then she left..
maybe i really am a heartless monster..
but that was way before i met you..
i really don't care about things.. the hell with them!
but when it comes to her.. i slowly turns soft..
i never wanted to make her cry..
all i want is to be with her.. to make her smile.. and to shed her tears whenever she's hurt..
pero anong nangyare.. ako pa tuloy tong dahilan ng pag iyak nya..
FUCK! i hate my self!
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