Lea
"You've been fooled, my phone was stolen back then so maybe someone pulled out a prank for the both of us. Believe me Ags, kahit kaila, 'di ko gagawin iyon." I said sincerely, kung sino man ang sumira sa relasyon namin noon, huwag na huwag lang siyang magpakita sa' kin at baka mapatay ko siya.
I'm having a hunch that it's Aga's Mom. Una pa lang, ayaw na ayaw niya na talaga sa 'kin, but I don't have any proof, masamang magbintang so let's just set that aside first.
"I'm so stupid. I could've confront you but I never did. Fuck, I'm sorry." he apologized, he shouldn't 'cause I know we're both victims here but guess, I badly need his apology.
I smiled at him, "It's okay. Matagal na 'yon, I've already moved on from the past. The important thing is that we're both happy with our own lives right now, aren't we?"
Agad naman siyang umiling, "No, it's not. I'm really sorry Lei. Kung hindi lang ako gago, eh sana tayo pa rin ngayon. I should've talk to you but I didn't, tinapakan mo ang ego ko and all I thought it was you who sent me that fucking message but I was wrong."
Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong matuwa dahil a narinig ko. We can always start a new one, right? No. Dream on Lea, may pamilya na ang tao, kakabit ka pa talaga?
Tumango-tango lang ako after analyzing everything, nabuo na ang puzzle na matagal ng naging question mark sa isipan ko.
"So that explains everything.. Kaya pala hindi kita macontact because you we're probably avoiding me because of the message, I was depressed Aga, really. I tried to talk to you but I'm way too late, kasal na kayo ni Clara that time a--" I didn't get to finish my words when he suddenly butt in.
"Clara and I are not married, Lea." he said na ikinanlaki ng mga mata ko. What the heck?
"Ha? I.... I thought you were? Somebody sent me your marriage certificate and it was clearly stated there na kasal na kayo ni Clara." sambit ko.
"This is bullshit. Pinlano talaga 'to eh, someone did all of those stuffs mapaghiwalay lang tayo." he gritted his teeth and I can sense that he's really furious right now.
Kahit ako, 'di rin makapaniwala sa mga nalaman ngayong araw. Aga and Clara are not married, somehow, parang medyo gumaan ang dibdib ko dahil doon and I don't even know why..
"I was with Clara the whole time since I should take full responsibility of getting her pregnant. When you broke up with me, I was wasted and depressed, gabi-gabi, palaging nasa bar ako at pangit mang pakinggan but I flirt with a lot of girls there.
There's this one time na sobrang lasing ako and I don't have any idea kung ano ang mga ginagawa ko, basta, all I remember is that I had sex with someone and it's Clara. It's just a one night stand, no strings attached but who would thought na makakabuo kami? I remembered not using protection and there, we had Chiara." he explained, why is he even explaining anyway? Pero mabuti na' to, at least malaman ko rin ang side niya.
"That's.. awful! But hey, hindi mo naman pinagsisihan na nabuo si Chiara, 'di ba?" I asked him and for the first time sa gabing ito, he nodded and smiled at me.
Namuo naman ang katahimikan sa pagitan naming dalawa, nakakatawa lang isipin na kanina pa kaming nag uusap dito and still, traffic pa rin!
"Lei?" tawag niya.
"Hmm?" I looked at him, waiting for a word he is about to say.
"Sabel.. where is she?" tanong niya, how I wished she's here with us but she isn't, my baby passed away in such a young age, she didn't even get to see God's beautiful creation!
"She's...she's gone." I said softly, almost out of voice. Napaawang naman ang labi niya sa narinig mula sa' kin and the next thing I knew, humihikbi na siya. Hindi ko na rin napigilan ang mga luha na kanina pa'ng gustong makawala, right now, we're both crying. We're both in pain.
This is the first time that I saw him cry, he's a tough man and once in a blue moon mo lang siyang makitang umiyak, I can't blame him though.
When Aga and I seperated without proper goodbye's and a break up scene (at least for me), I went to Batanes where my Mom is currently staying to somehow, ease the pain I'm experiencing.
I'm also depressed, mahal ko eh 'tas iiwan ako? I'm in the verge of mental breakdown, ni hindi na nga ako halos lumabas sa kwarto ko noon para kumain eh. Each day passed and it feels like hell for me, araw-araw akong pinapatay sa sakit and it sucks kasi ni hindi ko man lang nagawang labanan iyon.
One day, I found myself waking up in the morning because of so much pain somewhere in my abdomen. Sobrang sakit na halos 'di na ako makatayo, well, I did get up from bed and I was horrified after seeing my bed sheets covered with blood.
At first, akala ko, nadatnan lang ako ng monthly period but when realization finally hit me na parang ang daming dugo naman kung monthly period lang iyon, so, as I looked down to my tights, agad na nanlaki ang mga mata ko upon seeing fresh blood kept on pouring to the floor na para ba'ng sirang gripo. I screamed for help and the last thing I remembered, I saw my Mom entered my room then I passed away.
I was rushed to the hospital and thankfully, the fetus that's inside my womb was saved. Yes, I'm pregnant with Aga's. It m not really pleased to hear about it 'cause of course, who wants to see their child grow without a father's support? But then I realized na ay, maybe this is God's way of showing me na may isa pa'ng bagay akong dapat ilook forward kesa mawalan ng interes mabuhay.
Mabilis na lumipas ang mga araw, on my 5th month of pregnancy, we flew back to Manila at ayon kay Mommy, mas maasikaso ako ng mga doktor doon.
The day of my labor also happened so fast, 8 months palang iyong nasa tiyan ko and hell, it was painful. The pain was unbearable especially that ako lang magisa, there's no Aga beside me, ako lang talaga.
While giving birth, parang pinupunit ng sapilitan ang pagkababae ko. They're doing everything to ease the pain I'm into but they just can't. Anesthesia is not working for me either.
Nabunutan lang ako ng tinik when I finally gave birth, upon seeing my daughter, tila napawi ang lahat ng sakit na tinamasa ko. She's a premature baby so kailangan niyang mag undergo sa process of incubation.
Everything went so smoothly not until something unexpected happen, akala ko okay na ang lahat but I was wrong. Three days after, Sabel died. Hindi niya kinaya, she's too weak and mind you, kung sa tingin ko noong iniwan ako ni Aga at noong nanganak ako sa' kanya ang pinakasakit na nangyari sa' kin, no it's not.
Seeing her lifeless body in front of me stabbed my heart multiple times both mentally and emotionally. She's the only one that I had 'tas, nawala pa?
I've completely lost my interest to live. It took me months to recovered. It took me months to realize that Sabel wouldn't like to see her Mom in that way so I continued to live my life and go on with it kahit masakit pa rin.
After minutes of silence, my gaze went to Aga nang magsalita siya.
"Sabel.. Kung nasaan ka man, I hope you're happy and contented. Dad loves you so much honey, 'di man kita nakasama or nakita man lang-- I still love you.." wika niya habang nakatingin sa taas, mas lalo akong napaiyak dahil sa narinig mula sa' kanya.
He could've been the perfect father for our little Sabel. He could've been..
Napaangat ako ng tingin when Aga suddenly, carrased my cheeks wiping my tears away.
"Lea, alam kong gago ako pero mahal kita at iyon ang totoo." he whispered and I can feel my heartbeat beating uncontrollably.
"Ikaw lang ang minahal ko mula noon hanggang ngayon. Para kay Sabel, para sa'yo, para sa' kin, let's start over?" he asked na ikinagulat ko.
"I know this isn't the right time to ask you this but no one can't stop a man who's madly inlove, right? Kung ayaw mo, kung hindi mo na ako mahal, then I'm ready to court you and let you remember how much I love you and how much you love me back then.." he added as he lean to kissed me on my lips, my body was not cooperating as well and it is so numb to move.
His kisses we're irresistible that I found myself responding to those. This is wrong. This is damn wrong! May asawa't anak siya and here I am kissing him? No one can stop a woman who is also inlove.. Bahala na!
After the kiss, I was the first one to break it as I catched my breathe.
"You're a jerk, you caught me off-guard!" I exclaimed while chuckling, a smirked formed on his face.
"Well I guess, that's a yes?" he asked. Wala eh, mahal ko pa rin eh.
"Probably, yes!" I answered and again, he claimed my lips as he snake his arms around my nape.
"I missed you so freaking much!" I said in between our kisses, this feels so good!
Agad akong napabitaw sa' kanya when we heard honks of cars everywhere, napatingin ako sa labas and I was surprised to see na medyo gumaan na ang traffic, in fact, ang layo na ng agwat namin sa mga sasakyan sa harap namin kanina!
"Panira, tss." I heard Aga murmured as he turned his engine on and started to drive, napailing na lang ako.
"Okay lang iyan, babes." I said absentmindedly. Did I just called him babes? What the?
He took a glance at me and he's wearing his mapanukso smile as he return his gaze at the road immediately.
"Anong sinabi mo?"
"Hmm, okay lang iyan?"
"Hindi, iyong huli!"
"Iyan?"
"Hindi, you said something and I heard it! Iyong huli nga!"
"Letter N?"
"Lea!" he called in his warning tone so I raised my hands in surrender.
"Fine, I said babes!" I said in defeat, a sly smile was plastered on his face upon hearing it.
"Naks, I love you babes!" wika niya.
"I love you too!" I answered not minding everything, the consequences and so.
Being with him again for the second time around is just indeed, a love to remember..
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Note: I SURVIVED! Ang haba ng chapter na' to jusko, kahit na parang rushed siya, still, I hope it's not crappy enough.
Hinati ko ang ALTR sa dalawang part and the first part just ended ^^ The second part is on its way soooo be ready for more :))