Lie down with me
And hold me in your arms.
20% gay? I wanna say that means I'm straight but recently I tend not to completely believe that. With Even around, it made me think more about my sexuality. As you see now when I'm actually taking part in a gay test online. I still don't understand my feelings for guys, it is all a little new to me, I guess I have always had the feeling but this is something like no other. All because of him. I don't even want to think about him, not anymore but I cant help it, he is so intriguing.
I know that there is something there. There must be, maybe not for him I do not know but for me it was a definite yes. I can't ignore it though, it taps away at my brain like a woodpecker on wood or a loud defined clock. It has me captivated constantly, all the damn time! I have not even spoken a word to Even. Not one! However he still has me feeling this way. He has said one sentence, just one! And it stuck in my head as if it were super-glued to my brain.
I found out his last name today. Even Bech Næsheim. I did the creepy stalker thing and I looked him up on every social media platform I possibly could. Nothing, nowhere to be seen? Is he real? I found nothing, that's until I googled his name and then found a homemade video of him and a boy whom I am guessing is his friend. It was a video, just him talking about some actor he likes and a 'movie' that he is making. Baz Luhrmann that's him, Even's favourite actor. By the way, I also went on to watch Romeo and Juliet. Yes, it has gotten to this point.
Maybe one day I will stop looking him up online and grow a pair to talk to him, I'm sure I could find a bit more information than his name, age and his favourite actor.