two days later.
SAJE|SOLANGE
Holy fuckin shit I found out that I have a sister and without knowing that i even had on at all .
I mean I knew my mum had hidden secrets in the closet but not no fucking skeletons and shit like this .
My sister had moved in with me and Earca for the settlement money then she want to leave and I'm not going to stop her .
Its fine that she dont want to get to know me but I thought I and her had a moment when she hugged me but i guess not .
Earca and I were in the dining room getting plates for the breakfast I want and brought .
" Go get your sister .." she mouthed pointing towards my room .
I nodded my head and went to my room , Solange was still sleep in bed .
I sat on the bed slightly tapping her leg , and she still slept .
" Solange , I got us breakfast. "
Solange got up with bags under her eyes , she looked like she had been crying all night and some more shit.
" Just give me minute , I'm coming . " she sat up on the bed .
I stood up giving her a nodded and heading back into the dinning room to eat .
Walking into the living room only to see Drake all up on Earca , I cleared my throat to let them know my presence was known .
They laughed and acted like they were embarrassed but they weren't .
SOLANGE
The deep hatred for myself as a person diminished .
I hated myself for the things my body had been used for , how I had been branded repeatedly with wicked but meaningful bruises on my skin .
I hated myself because love had become something so foreign to me . Not just intimate love ,but love I'm general .
I felt turned on my mother who was like my world , until she put a price on me and my life and acted like I was nothing .
I honest to God still do miss my mother, I also felt like not welcomed here by sister only because I don't know her and she loves her friend more than me .
I am like a complete puzzle that fell entirely apart .
I was standing in the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror , I didn't even deserve to be looked at so I slid to the ground crying softly . Looking into the mirror looking back on how Tiger II fucked my life up .
As my mother was holding my hand we were headed to this house . I was scared but mum told me not to be afraid .
I saw 2 men and 15 girls who were strung out on drugs. I felt afraid, but the man told me everything would be alright.
Mamma introduced me to a man called Tiger II who I later learned owned the place and was the leader of a gang. After a week, when i came to conclusions my mum had sold me off to this man .
After two whole weeks Tiger II ordered me to have sex with a man on video but I refused. He said: "You cannot refuse. You must do this for me." He ordered someone to inject me with drugs. Then I could no longer refuse because I had no control.
I had to do what they wanted which was to be filmed having sex with Khmer men, Vietnamese men and Japanese men , White men , Black men , and even females.
During this time, I also had to have sex with Tiger II and members of his gang. This torture continued for 20 days and they subdued me with drugs. I was hopeless and thought: The world is so big with many girls and women, why has this problem happened to me?
Tiger II ordered me to sell drugs from 9:00pm to 11:00pm and then sell my body from 11:00pm to 4:00am. I was ordered to steal, pickpocket, and cheat my customers by taking their money and motorbikes.
They expected me to make $200 to $300 per night; if I did not, they punished me by stripping and beating me with a stick until I fainted, electrocuting me, cutting me and pouring salt water on the cuts, and placing my hands into a bamboo press for up to 20 minutes.
I received these punishments several times and still have the scars. To numb the pain, I began taking more drugs, like yama and acetima-mint, which made me feel invincible and unafraid. Tiger II and his gang watched me carefully and punished me for anything I did wrong.
They forced me to sleep with as many as 50 customers a day. Tiger II said I was his money maker , his prize possession and he would never let me go .
I had to give Tiger II all my money, but I secretly hid $5 from each customer. Most of the customers thought I was dirty. If I tried to confide in them about Tiger II, they accused me of lying .
Getting knocked out of my thoughts it was Saje . I finally came out the bathroom walking right pass her going to take a seat to eat my breakfast .
Walking into the diner room only to see Saje friend slobbing her boyfriend down .
Saje came back into the room and took a seat next to me , she cleared her throat .
After they were done tongue fucking each other , the guy looking like he had a confused look , I looked at Saje and we started laughing at his face expression.
" Sortez-le de ma putain de visage comme ça " I rolled my eyes getting annoyed . ( get him out my fucking face like this )
They were looking at us as we talked in French , because I wasn't trying to be mean .
" Juste chill oit ok, il ne savait pas que j'avais un jumeau avant. "( Just chill oit okay , he never knew I had a twin before . )
Saje mentally rolled her eyes at me , I felt it .
I honestly want to fuck her up right now , she better check who the she talkin too and get him out my fucking face .
" GET THE FUCK OUT MY FACE , DANG! " I finally snapped ..
I got up going back into Saje room getting an outfit , I was leaving considering the fact I don't fuck with Andre any more , only for me and my sisters safety .
Putting on my clothes and grabbing my purse and phone , I was leaving to go get my hair color back dyed to blonde and my curls back .
I have this state of mind that I needa do what's right for Solange and no one else .
Walking into the room was Saje
"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU !" she yelled out .
I scoffed rolling my eyes putting lotion on my legs.
" So you fucking deaf now ? cat for your fuckin'tongue ?" she got in my face .
I always hated when people talk to me like that , like I don't know shit .. like I'm a dumb girl .
All I know lil 'sus better calm down she pressing my buttons before I pop .
" My whole life is so fucked up , why does this have to happen to me " she was ranting on and on about all the mistakes God made in her life , saying I was a mistake also .
" How fucking self centered can yo' selfish ass be ? Huh ? Do you only care about your fucking self? We're you the one sold like your life never matter! I know I don't know you very well but you don't have the right to speak up on shit , lucky I don't beat yo ass . " By this time I don't care nothing about inheriting my mum's money .
".... I outta beat your ass, keep disrespecting me ," I scoffed packing my things up . " Oh yeah when you've been through as much shit like I've been then you can complain other than that shutup. "
I grabbed all my things and scoffed bumping passed her I was leaving and didn't want nothing to do with this bitch .
I want to go get an hotel , because I wasn't going to stay where I wasn't welcomed .
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