AUTHOR's NOTE:
Greetings to all my lovely readers!
I just want to inform all of you that I'm currently editing this story. I will apologize in advance if ever there's wrong grammar, wrong spelling, or even words or situations that are not suitable for your taste because I was in high school when I wrote this story, and I'm still not that good and confident in my english. Even now, I'm still not that good and confident with my english, but I'm trying my best. 😅😅😅😅😅
That's why I'm writing this note to ask for your understanding, and I'm trying my best to edit it one by one since I don't have much time since I'm currently writing Book 2, and I'm only doing the editing while I'm re-reading Book 1!
I hope for everyone's understanding.
Thank you!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ALYANNA'S POV:
"Happiness is the art of never holding in your mind the memory of any unpleasant thing that has passed." sabi ko habang pinapanuod yung mga taong naka pila for food dito sa cafeteria
"Ano na namang kaartehan yan?" tanong ni Jessica habang kumakain
"Albert Camus said if people want to be happy, we must not be too concerned with others" sabi ko ulit tsaka ako yumuko sa may table
"What the hell is wrong with you?" asar na tanong nya ulit sakin tsaka ako bumangon mula sa pagkakayuko tsaka ko sya tinitigan
"According to Frederick Keonig, we people tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have" sabi ko ulit tapos sinubo nya sakin yung hawak nyang cupcake
"Enough with those happiness quotations my dear friend because it gives me headache" sabi nya ulit kaya ngumiti nalang ako
"But what's your problem with 'happiness,' by the way?" tanong nya ulit sakin tapos napayuko nalang ulit ako
"Stress na naman ang isang Alyanna Ysabell Ferrer" sabi nya tsaka nya ako niyakap
To be honest, I don't understand the true meaning of happiness at all, even though I know lots of quotations about it.
Feeling ko never ko pa talagang nafeel maging happy simula pagkabata dahil sa hindi ko kayang kontrolin ang sarili kong kaligayahan and since I can't even make my own decisions.
I hate it when people ask me what the real meaning of happiness is. It's not because I hate that word, but because I just don't like hearing it since I've never felt it.
I think never pa ako naging masaya since pagkabata.
"Hey, your brother is coming here" bulong ni Jess sakin kaya bumangon ako mula sa pagkakayuko
"Shit! Sira na naman yung araw ko" asar na sabi ko habang naka tingin dun sa mga kasama ng kapatid ko
"Dahil kay Yvan?" tanong nya
"Can you shut your mouth for a bit, Jess? Your weirdness is getting on my nerves" asar na sabi ko dito sa katabi ko tsaka naman kami umarte na kunwaring masayang kumakain bago pa man makarating ang kapatid ko dito sa table namin
Baka mag sumbong na naman kasi siya sa magulang namin kapag hindi nya ako makitang kumakain.
He is one year younger than me, but he keeps acting like he's the kuya. He is just so protective of us, his sisters, since he's the only boy.
"Ate Ysa!" tawag sakin ni Yvan pag karating nya sa table namin pero nginitian ko lang sya
"Hi, Yvan!" bati ni Jessica sa kapatid ko tapos ako naka yuko lang habang busy kumakain
"So are you going to avoid me too?" seryosong tanong nung mapansin nyang ayaw ko makipag eye contact sa kanya
"Sira na naman daw kasi yung araw nang ate mo" biglang sabi naman nitong katabi ko na syang kinagulat ko
"What!?" di makapaniwalang tanong nitong lalaking nasa harapan namin tapos sasagot na naman sana ulit si Jessica pero mas naunahan ko na siyang makurot ko sa may legs nito
"Aww! That hurts!" gulat na sabi niya sabay tingin sakin with that shock face
"What was that for?" naasar na tanong nya sakin
"Shut up!" seryosong sabi ko sa kanya kaya naman yumuko nalang sya tsaka nanahimik
"What do you what to say, Yvan?" tanong ko nalang sa kapatid ko dahil tsaka lang naman siya lumalapit sakin kapag may kailangan siya sakin or kapag may nang aaway sakin
"Ate Ysabel, mag reply ka daw sa mga messages niya sayo!" seryosong sabi nya sakin kaya tumango nalang ako tsaka na siya naglakad paalis dito sa table namin
"Did you know that you're so lucky because you have a brother like him!" curious na sabi ni Jessica sakin habang pinapanuod namin si Yvan na pinagkakaguluhan nung mga girls dito sa cafeteria
Habang naglalakad si Yvan biglang may humarang sa daan nyang grupo ng babae.
"Hi, Xander!" malanding bati nung mga babae sa kapatid ko tapos nginitian lang ito ni Yvan kaya sila nagtilian dito sa loob ng cafeteria
Here we go again!
The cafeteria is going wild since they are here!
Who are they?
Well, they are the so-called F4, which is a famous group composed of four boys. The term "F4, or Flower Four" came from the famous Taiwanese drama Meteor Garden or the Korean drama Boys Over Flower! They said that those Linta Girls created that name, but according to my brother, Joseph, a member of that group, is the real one who named their group after those series.
I hate to say this, but my brother is the youngest member of that group, and the other three members are in the same class as I am.
Di ba ansaya!!
"Mag reply ka na daw sa kanya!" sabi ulit ni Jessica sakin
"And why should I do that!?" tanong ko naman sa kanya tapos nagkibit balikat lang sya
"I don't know either!" seryosong sagot niya
"But maybe it's important since Yvan is the one who asked you to reply to that person, even though I don't know who the heck that person is" sabi nalang niya ulit sakin
"Your so weird!" sabi ko nalang dito sa katabi ko tsaka ko siya sinubuan nung cookies para matahimik nalang siya
I don't really understand why this weird girl has become my best friend!
Our personalities don't match at all. But we have the same gusto naman in terms of gamit or food ang usapan. Basta pag related sa pera pareho kami, but pag usapang personalities hindi talaga kami tugma since I'm an introvert and she's an extrovert. Masyado kasi akong tahimik at mahiyain tapos siya naman ay masyadong madaldal na minsan sobrang useless na nung mga pinagsasabi nya.
But still, she's my best friend, and I love her.
Tama nga naman yung quotation: "Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: What! You too? I thought I was the only one".
We both have the same hobbies and even experiences in life. Maybe that's why we click very quickly and become best friends.
I won't forget the first time I entered this school. Because something good and something bad happened to me that day. The good thing is that I met my very weird best friend, and the bad thing is that I met Ugly Mr. Bastard, my worst nightmare.
"How can I live my life in peace?" tanong ko dito sa katabi ko pero imbis na sumagot sya ay nginitian nalang niya ako
Habang nakatunganga ako dito sa cafeteria nilibot muna ng mata ko yung paligid at sa kamalasang palad ay naagaw ng mata ko, in short nagka eye contact kami nung lalaking pinalilibutan nang itim na aura at iyon ay si Ugly Mr. Bastard na leader nung grupo ng mga kumag na F4.
The truth is, I hate the existence of that bastard. I think I will go crazy because of him. Palagi nalang kasi akong beastmode, maybe because I see him every day.
Habang naka tingin ako sa kanya ay makikita sa bunganga yung pag bigkas nya nung 'Reply to my messages, now!' pero imbes na gawin ko yung sinasabi niya ay inirapan ko lang siya.
Maybe you're asking, "Why does he want me to reply to his messages?" and "Why do I see him every day?"
Well, I hate to say this, but he's my seatmate, and the saddest part is that he is my husband, who is my partner in my life. It really hurts my head when I say that word because I think I regret marrying him.
I always try to avoid him, but it's useless since we live in the same house. Yung feeling na mas madali pa atang gawin ang pag sagot nang logarithm equations kaysa ang gawin na iwasan siya.
The real reason he keeps messaging me is because he's asking me to go home, maybe because he is too scared to get his cards cut by his grandmother.
Bahala siya!
Patigasan nalang kami ng ulo.
"Let's go!" pag aaya ko kay Jessica tsaka na kami tumayo at nag lakad paalis dito sa cafeteria
Habang naglalakad kami biglang tumigil si Jessica.
"You go first! I'll just go to restroom" sabi niya sakin kaya tumango nalang bilang sagot tsaka na ako naglakad pabalik sa classroom
Habang naglalakad ako paakyat ng hagdan ay laking gulat ko nalang dahil sa may biglang humatak sa braso ko na kung saan muntik na akong mahulog sa hagdan kaya napa sigaw ako at buti nalang talaga nasalo ako nitong humatak sa braso ko.
"Why are you screaming!?" asar na tanong nitong lalaking humatak sakin
"What the hell are you doing!?" gulat na tanong ko naman sa kanya pero wala akong nakuhang sagot mula sa kanya tapos bigla nalang niyang hinawakan yung wrist ko tsaka niga ulit ako paalis dito sa kinaroroonan namin
"Are you crazy!?" gulat na tanong ko sa kanya pero hindi pa rin siya sumasagot at patuloy lang sa pag hatak sakin
"Let go of me! People can see us!" sunod sunod na sabi ko sa kanya habang nagpupumiglas mula sa pagkakahawak niya sakin
"Pwede bang pakiluwagan naman yung pagkaka hawak mo sakin? Nasasaktan po kasi ako!" naiinis na sabi ko ulit dito sa lalaking humahatak sakin
"SHUT UP!" naiinis na sigaw nya sakin kaya nanahimik nalang ako baka mamaya matamaan na naman ako.
I hate the way he treats me!!
UGLY MR. BASTARD!