I can hear your screaming
In my face and personal.
I hold back the tears
And feel my fears
Burst at the brim of my mind.
You're growling and yelling and glaring
Into my fractured soul.
I feel fire boil my mind
As anger rises in my throat.
But I resist.
I mutter something
As I leave your presence.
I hide away in the corner of my mind.
Away from the screaming and the yelling and the crying.
The crying.
Because now I'm crying
And I realise I'm screaming.
There are no words
Just pure pain and sorrow and anger
Erupting from my maw.
I hug my unhinged being.
Letting my walls crumble
Humpty falls to his untimely death.
I crawl into a black hole of desperation and
Loneliness.
My screams are now retching gasps.
What is this feeling?
I feel sick.
I need you, someone, anyone
Just to hug me. Just one hug
Could do wonders for this weeping
Sack of pitiful meat.
I slip further, falling deeper into the dark.
Now there are no screams.
Just tears.
They drop from my cheeks to the table.
It's cold surface is pressed against my forehead.
With each sob I'm falling deeper.
Retreating into my head.
Running from the tears and screams and oppressors.
Now there are no more tears.
Just darkness.