3rd person's POV
"I am so sorry for the bad press." Paulit-ulit na sabi ni DJ pagkagising niya. Diba't lasing na lasing nga siya kahapon?
"All is well, DJ. I understand you." Sabi naman ni ate Celestine genuinely. Kath drank her coke and stood up from the table. Nasa back stage sila. 3 hours before their last show in Amsterdam and she can't honestly wait to get out of there. Lahat sila nagtinginan sakanya when she headed for the exit.
"I'm just going to get some fresh air." She said and left. Lahat sila nagtinginan. Ate Celestine broke the silence.
"I'm not mad for what happened last night, okay DJ? But I'm mad at what happened with you and Kath. At what you did. Go, follow her." Parang Sonic si DJ na tumayo at sinundan si Kath na nasa may parking lot at nagse-skateboard. Natawa na lang siya. Hindi nya alam kung kailan natuto mag skateboard si Kath. But then he wondered, kilala nya pa din ba si Kath? He watched as she did skateboard tricks and landed perfectly. Tinanggal ni Kath yung bonnet niya at umupo sa stairs ng isang trailer habang nilalaro yung skateboard niya. Si DJ naman, imbes na kausapin agad, he just watched. Ganun naman siya lagi eh. Something about Kathryn has always been fascinating.
Kaso unti – unti nagbago yung aura ni Kath at mula sa kinatatayuan niya, naramdaman niya yon. Bigla na lang binato ni Kath yung skateboard. Tumayo ito at kinuha yung skateboard at saka binato ulit, dahilan para mabali sa gitna yung skateboard. Nabigla si DJ sa nakita niya. O nanghina? Oo, nanghina din. Unti-unting napaupo sa semento at tinakpan ng kamay nya yung mukha niya at nagiiyak. Iyak ng iyak. At sa sight palang na yon, naiyak na din si DJ.
"PUTANG INA MO KA. ANG SAKIT SAKIT. TAMA NA." Sigaw ni Kathryn sa kawalan. DJ bit his lip refraining himself from crying. But it was impossible. Kathryn was making it impossible. She was hitting the cement causing her fists to bleed pero parang wala siyang nararamdaman. She was being cut by her broken skateboard na hawak nya pa din. And besides all that, she was crying her eyes out. "Ang sakit, sakit."
DJ slowly made his way to Kathryn at nakatayo lang siya sa harap nito. Si Kathryn nakayakap sa tuhod niya. At dahan-dahan, she met DJ's eyes causing her to stand up and slap him with her bleeding hand.
"FUCK YOU. Fuck you, DJ. Fuck you." She took a step back, still crying. Nasampal niya na si DJ at lahat lahat pero wala pa din siyang nararamdaman sa kamay niya pero alam niyang dumudugo.
"I don't know what to do anymore." Bulong ni DJ habang umiiyak na din. Nakatingin siya sa semento na may bahid ng dugo ni Kathryn dahil sinuntok niya to kanina.
"I wanted you to fight for me! I wanted you to want me even though I was pushing you away! DJ, tatanggapin kita kahit walang suyo. Kahit walang ligaw ulit. IF you just tried harder. Pero hindi, you let me go. Fuck you for letting me go." Kathryn turned her back at DJ at aalis na pero bigla siyang niyakap ni DJ. Gustuhin man yang itulak papalayo, aminado si Kath na namiss niya yung yakap ni DJ. She relaxed a little bit although she was furiously shaking. "Putang ina ka." Kath hissed.
"I'm sorry."
"You're sorry? Goodness, DJ. Is that all you can say? I'm sorry?!"
"Ano bang gusto mong gawin ko para mapatawad mo ko?" DJ asked. "I miss you."
"I miss you too."
"I love you."
"I love you too."
"Take me back?"
Another slap from Kathryn. Hinawakan ni DJ yung pisngi niya.
"Tingin mo sakin, ganun ganun lang? EH sira ulo ka pala eh."
"Uh, May I court you?" DJ asked smiling. Another slap from Kathryn.
"You don't get it do you? Lahat sayo joke! Tingin mo okay lang na wag ka na mageffort kasi alam mong hindi naman kita matitiis? Tangina mo ka. Tangina ka talaga. I thought you were different, you know? I had faith in us. I had faith in you. Pero wala pa din. Katulad ka pa din nila, a selfish self-centered jerk." Umalis na si Kathryn, as she wiped her tears causing her to stain her cheeks with blood. Si DJ naman, nganga. At yung medyo napapangiti na DJ eh, naiyak na lang din. Direcho si Kathryn sa dressing room kung saan naglalaro ng Monopoly yung Parking 4 with ate Celestine. Lahat sila nagulat ng makita yung mga dugo nI Kathryn.
"Sinapak ka ba ni DJ?"
"Sinaktan ka ba nya?"
"Pinagbuhatan ka ng kamay?"
"Jusko talagang bata yon."
"Kathryn, ano kailangan mo? Ice?"
"I'm okay." Was all she said before proceeding to the make-up room and locking herself in there. She cried her eyes out as she laid down on the 2-seater couch. Pinagkasya nya yung sarili niya dun. And if you took a full shot of her, mukha siyang bata na nakayakap sa tuhod nya at iyak ng iyak.
"Ano bang pwedeng kong gawin para magstay ka at bumalik tayo sa dati?" She heard DJ ask from behind the door. "What can I do to take your pain away?"
"Leave me alone." She shouted.
"Iwan mo na." Rinig niyang sabay sabay na sabi ng iba pa nilang kaibigan. She covered her ears and cried her eyes out. A few hours later, she heard a loud thun. She got up and saw the make-up room's door broken. Andun si JC, Seth at Lester nakatayo. May hawak na panyo at yelo. Nakatingin lang sila sa isa't isa at hindi alam kung sino una magsasalita. The 3 boys started to feel stupid for breaking the door.
"Kath—" JC. But Kathryn was already attacking them with hugs and all they could do was hug back. "Kasama ni Katsumi si DJ. Nagpapalamig ng ulo. Wag kang mag-alala, bawal na alak. Kasama na din si ate Celestine kaya wala siya." Umupo yung tatlo sa 2-seater couch, dahilan para magaway-away sila gamit ang mga mata nila. Umupo si Kath sa lap ni JC na parang bata. Nilagyan naman ni Seth ng yelo yung mga kamay ni Kathryn at pinunasan naman ng pawis at luha ni Lester si Kath. "Kath, alam kong bullshit tong tanong ko pero....... Okay ka lang?"
Sinamaan ng tingin ni Lester at Seth si JC pero si Kath ngumiti na lang pero nagsisimula na ulit umiyak.
"Sana. Akala ko. Pero hindi pala. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Nakita ko kung gaano ako kahina kapag si DJ na pinaguusapan. How much willing I am to get back with him nung kinausap niya ko. Pero tangina, he gave up without a fight. How am I suppose to live with that?" Kath asked, tears brimming in her eyes again. "Nakakainis. Bakit ganun ko siya kamahal?"
JC shushed her and she put her head into JC's shoulder. Iyak lang ng iyak. Yung 3 itlog, nagkatinginan na lang at awang-awa kay Kathryn.
"If I knew this would have happened, din a sana ko sumama kay Kats na tumira sainyo nung summer."
"Ang daya naman nun Kath." Seth.
"I didn't sign up for this. I didn't. Why is this happening to me?" She asked.
Walang sumagot.
Katulad ng madami nyang tanong....
Walang sagot.
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