WARNING: I wrote this when I was around 14. I am aware that it lacks depth and some of the concepts are immature. I am only leaving it published because I am aware that some people still wish to read it.
For 2 days Clarke had been aimlessly walking through the depths of the forest. What she has done clouding her thoughts. She killed all those innocent people to save her people. Over 300 men, women and children dead because of her. What scares her the most is that she would do it again and again just so her people could live for another day.
Lexas words run through Clarkes mind as tears threaten to spill. May we meet again. May we fucking not Clarke thinks to herself. She hated herself for understanding Lexas decision. She knew that she would have done the same thing without a second thought had it been herself that the Mountain offered the deal, but it did not make it hurt any less.
Before Lexa had left her she was overwhelmed by her feelings for her. When Lexa had kissed her in her tent before they marched on the Mountain she had pulled away, not because she had a lack of feeling towards her but quite the opposite in fact. It had not been long since she had to put Finn to rest after he lost his mind and she was already feeling so much for Lexa. It wasnt just being a hormonal teenager in the chaos of being free on Earth like it was with Finn. It all felt like so much more with Lexa.
Clarkes thoughts were interrupted by the faint sounds of foot steps in the distance. She could tell that they were not trying to sneak up on her or attack but she knew if could be a sky person as the steps she was hearing were of a trained warrior not someone who had lived in a metal box in the sky almost all of their lives.
She turned around abruptly shouting groggily, "What the fuck do you want?!" The sound of her voice making her aware that she had barely drunk anything since she left camp Jaha which left her throat dry and sore.
A mountain of a man stepped out from behind a tree, she recognised him as one of Lexas personal guards. Unlike most grounders, he did not have a beard and had no visible tattoos, making him look rather friendly despite his intimidating size. He looked as if he could not be more that three years older than herself. But Clarke immediately pulled out her gun and pointed it between his eyes before he even had a chance to say anything.
"Did Lexa send you?" Clarke growled.
"Heda requested that I gave you some water and food before you die from starvation," the grounder stated seemingly confident for someone with a loaded gun pointed at their head.
Of course Lexa knew where she was. She was wondering around on her land after all. "You can tell your commander," Clarke spitted out the title like poison, "that she can stuff her food up her ass." Her stomach rumbled after she said it, telling her that she should accept the food, but she did not want to receive Lexas help. Clarke was determined to survive on her own.
The large, muscly man looked at her with a questioning look, seeing that she obviously starving. He took a few steps forward going to place the supplies in front of Clarke. She kept her gun trained on his head as he placed the food down and then disappeared back into the trees without a word. Clarke stood there confused, gun still in her hand looking at where he had disappeared to.
After the grounder did not return after a few minutes, Clarke decided to set up camp for the night, even though she knew that she would not be sleeping as the dead plagued her dreams, or rather nightmares. Every time she had manage to fall asleep she would wake up in sweats screaming.
Just as she lay down, to get some rest. The grounder came back into the clearing carrying firewood. He walked over to where Clarke was and started to build a fire without a word.
Clarke realised that there was no way she was going to get him to leave without killing him, which she did not want to do as she already had enough blood on her hands and she knew that attacking one of Lexas people could put Clarkes people in danger.
"Who are you?" Clarke asked the man.
"I am Zoron kom Trikru, Wanheda."
"What does that mean?" Clarke inquired, curiosity getting the best of her.
"What does what mean? Wanheda?" Zoron replied. With a nod from Clarke he continued, "It means commander of death. It is a great honour to receive this title. Many now call you this after you defeated the mountain."
"Why would you honour me for whipping out an entire population? I killed them all. Most of them were innocent!" Clarke yelled as her emotions took over.
Warmth filled Zorons eyes, the kind that Clarke rarely saw in a grounders eyes as he said softly, "I know what you have done haunts you Skai Prisa. But they have drained and killed my people for nearly one hundred years. None of them are innocent. I personally want to thank you for what you have done. I lost my wife and child to the mountain, as many have. You have earned respect throughout my people as now our children can grow up without the shadow of death clouding over them."
Clarke had no reply for the grounders heart felt words. She found herself unable to speak at the sincerity of Zorons words. Before she could say anything he continued, "If you do not eat and do not find a sufficient shelter soon you will die from the cold of the upcoming winter. Do you wish to die?"
Clarke contemplated her answer before she replied, "no, death would be too easy. I have to suffer for the pain I have caused." With that he handed her a flask with water and some dried meat and instructed her to eat. Clarke was so hungry, she did not even try to protest.
After eating she lay down next to the fire.
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Her night was filled with the faces of the children of Mount Weather screaming as their skin melted away.
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As the sun rose, Zoron did not mention Clarkes fitful sleeping, which she was grateful for. After they ate. Clarke decided that she needed to figure out what his motives for helping her were. "What are you doing here, Zoron?"
"Heda ordered that I make sure you have what you need," he replied easily.
"Why does she care? She left me to die once? I doubt she would have any problem with doing it again."
"She cares for you Wanheda," Clarke flinched at the title, "but she had to do what she did on the Mountain, it is her duty. I know that if she could have made the decision as Lexa and not as Heda, she would have definitely chosen to stay and fight with you. But she could not, she had to make the decision that was right for her people. You of all people should understand that."
At his words Clarke felt sorry for Lexa. She did not have people like Clarke did that care for her on a personal level or people that wanted to care for her, not just because of her title, but because they actually cared for her. As Clarke processed his words she realised that the way that he was talking about her suggested that he knew the grounder leader on a personal level.
"You are close with her?" Clarke asked already having an idea of what the answer would be.
"Lexa and I were good friends before she was called to lead my people. That is why she trusted me to find you and make sure you are well." He answered, although Clarke sensed that there was something that he was not telling her.
"What is the other reason that you are here, Zoron?" She glared at him and raised an eyebrow daring him to lie to her.
Zoron responded apprehensively, "Heda instructed that once I made sure you were safe and well that I inform you that she plans to go to TonDC before so we can go to your peoples camp in a weeks time to discuss the future of the alliance."
"The alliance ended when she turned her back on us at the mountain," Clarke retorted.
Zoron ignored Clarkes statement and continued, "she suggested that it would be best if you were there as my people still see you as the leader of your people. If you wish to go we will leave for the TonDC tomorrow."
A/N: Hey Guys, let me know what you think of this story and if you think I should continue it. Feel free to send me ideas of what should happen. If you like it, please vote, comment and share so I know your opinion. If you have some critical feedback you would like to give me that is also welcome. Any Mistakes are mine, just tell me if there are any. I am hoping to make this story over 50k long depending on how many people want to read it. I will hopefully update again in the text few days. Thank you guys <3