mark loves jack: hey motherfucker
jack loves mark: shut up im sleeping
mark loves jack: ......
> heY MOTHERFUCKER
jack loves mark: what do u WANT
mark loves jack: hi :~)
> 29 days now right?
jack loves mark: ffuck
> im too tired for this
> 29 da ys
mark loves jack: its 3pm by u why are u so tired
jack loves mark: i didnt sleep at all last nigjt so i was trying to catch up on sleep
mark loves jack: :( why didnt u sleep
jack loves mark: was just thinking too much nothing to worry about
mark loves jack: ive been thinking too much
> help me
jack loves mark: tøp af
mark loves jack: the best band
jack loves mark: i know it
mark loves jack: glad u do
jack loves mark: ye
mark loves jack: hey are u alright?
jack loves mark: ig yea why
mark loves jack: idk u just seem,, off
> i mean like
> maybe its just cuz ur tired but i just wanna make sure
...
mark loves jack: jack? where'd u go?
> its been like an hour
...
mark loves jack: jack this isn't funny. where are you?
...
jack loves mark: sorry
mark loves jack: ITS BEEN SEVEN HIURS
> WHERE WERE YOU
jack loves mark: im sorry i jsut
> i didnt wanan
> i dont kno w
mark loves jack: jack, what's wrong?
jack loves mark: its stupid mark
> i dunno i just wanted to be alone for a while i gues sim sorry idkidk
mark loves jack: :( jack whatever's bothering you isn't stupid. don't invalidate your feelings, okay?
> i understand that you wanted to be alone though.
jack loves mark: im sorry
> mark?
mark loves jack: yes, jack?
jack loves mark: i just,,
> i love you
> like we've not known each other long but i feel so close to you
> you've really brightened up my days
> you mean so much to me
mark loves jack: i love you too, jack.
> you mean tons to me already. your feelings are most definitely mutual.
jack loves mark: youve,,
> become one of my best friends so fast
- - -
that's not what he wanted to say.
- - -
mark loves jack: ahh
> youre my best friend too
- - -
that's not what he wanted to say, either.
- - -
what a word, huh?
friend.
in retrospect, being called someone's best friend should be wonderful, something that would make one smile so big, their eyes squinted.
that was not how he felt.
he felt nothing but sadness and longing.
he scolded himself daily on how quick the other person had wedged his way into his heart.
shouldn't catch feelings so quick, he told himself. you're only gonna hurt yourself.
he felt so connected to him, like the cheesy movies about true love, or the fanfictions about the soulmate tattoos; he felt like the other's name should be etched into his wrist, and his own on his.
he hated himself. he really did.
- - -
jack loves mark: anyways,,
sorry about disappearing,,
> i just had a lot on my mind i didnt wanna burden jm sorry
mark loves jack: sean williaM you would never bother me
jack loves mark: dont Middle name me
mark loves jack: Sean William
jack loves mark: Mark Edward
mark loves sean william: Don't.
jack loves mark: what the FUCK
> UR NAME STOP
mark loves sean william: :-)
jack loves mark edward: lil bitch
mark loves sean william mcloughlin: fuk u
jack loves mark edward: FOR GODSS AKE
> thats so long
mark loves sean william mcloughlin: hm ur right
jack loves mark edward: i kno
mark loves swm: there! :-)
jack loves mark edward: fUFK
> LIL BIT CH
mark loves swm: im so good
swm loves mef: rekt
mark loves swm: FUCKCK
> hold on
swm loves mef: holding on
mef loves swm: there it matches better
swm loves mef: its perfect
mef loves swm: you're perfect
swm loves mef:
> thanks
mef loves swm: FUCKCKFNSG
> UR SO CUTE STOP
> UR EYES R SO PRETTY
swm loves mef: mARK
> I WAS MSKING A JOKE I LOOK LIKR AN IDIOT
mef loves swm: SHUT UP NO U DONT
> U ARE LITERALLY SO ADORABLE
swm loves mef: SOTP IM CRYING
> MARK
mef loves swm: S EAN
swm loves mef: I LOVE YOU
mef loves swm: I LOVE YOU TOO
- - -
what was yesterday? all that talk of falling for each other? play? banter?
that's not what it was to him. not at all.
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i love creating messes and twisting things dont u
who do U think's pov is the narrative stuff? jack? mark?
hope u enjoyed this trash xx