When all you had was nothing and all we did was laugh what happened to that -Selena Gomez
Selena
Today is the day all my 5 songs come out. In just a few minutes everyone will know my pain. The songs that I am releasing are called , The Heart wants what It Wants, Forget Forever, My Dilemma 2.0, Perfect, and finally Nobody.
"Hey Jim let's release them now" I say hopeful he would give me the okay
"You got it, and you're songs are out to the world in 3,2,1..... Congrats" he said laughing, I softly smiled and hung up the phone
I immediately went on Twitter and tweeted that my songs were out. An hour later I was floods of tweets, I decided to look through them
Selenaisqueen: @ SelenaGomez these songs are amazing but are you okay?
MommyGomez: omg @ SelenaGomez are you and Swae okay?
Selenaisgorgeous: GUYS @ SELENAGOMEZ IS NOT HAPPY CAN YOU TELL BY HER SONGS THEY'RE ALL SAD
Forgetforever: @ SelenaGomez guys we need to support her right now, I know she's in pain by these songs
Swelena4ever: @ SelenaGomez is the song Perfect towards Swae? Did he cheat?
I smiled sadly at my fans, they always knew exactly how I was feeling and what was happening. I go on Twitter and decided to tell my fans what's going on
SelenaGomez: Hey guys hope you all liked the songs, and yea these songs are really my feels right now
SelenaGomez: I'm not happy with myself and I don't know how to describe this pain I'm feeling
I sigh and hear the door slam open, I look over and see Swae with a furious look.
"Why didn't you tell me about these songs?" He asked me angrily
"I didn't think you would care" I said rubbing my arm
"Are you crazy Selena, is this some kind of publicity stunt!" He yelled in my face, I flinched and backed up
"You're making me seem like the bad guy when I'm not" he said rubbing his face, I looked at him with my teary eyes
"If you're not happy in this relationship then LEAVE SELENA, I'm not forcing you to stay here, fuck I'm better without you" he yelled, I bit my lip holding back my sobs
"I'm sorry I didn't think it would be this important" I said wiping my tears
"You're stupid then Selena, you're a stupid bitch okay !" He yelled throwing a vase across the room
I let out a squeal when he threw the vase. Now I was scared, what if he hurts me
"You see what you do to me, all you do is make me mad!" He screamed
"I'm sorry, I really am" I cried
"You're always say sorry and it's starting to get annoying" he said, I looked at him with my red eyes and gave him a sad look, he hates me
"Selena just get out of the room I don't want to see you right now" he said more calmly pointing me out the room.
I grab my phone and start walking out the room, I look back and see him staring at me angrily
"GET OUT SELENA WHAT ARE YOU FUCKING DEAF I SAID LEAVE" he yelled pushing me out and slamming the door in my face
I fell to the ground and sobbed. Why did God have to give me this life all I want is happiness and all I get is pain. I really don't know what to do know, I love Swae too much to let him go
"Swae I'm sorry, I'm sorry" I yelled while crying banging on the door
"I know it's all my fault I get it but please believe me I'm sorry!" I yelled
A few minutes later Swae comes out the room and looks at me in disgust
"Where are you going" I said softly
"You really wanna know, I'm gonna go to the club and fuck a bitch" he said yelling walking out the house. I sit there sadly thinking how great our relationship was in the beginning
Flashback
"Wow Selena you look gorgeous!" Swae yelled picking me up and kissing me, I laughed and hugged him
"Okay guys lets get this photoshoot started" the photographer said
"Wait where's my pineapple?!" Swae yelled making me laugh hysterically, he looked at me and winked
"Why do you need a pineapple?" I asked
"Maybe because people keep saying I look like one" he said laughing, I laughed with him as he pointed the pineapple towards me, I just kept laughing (in the photo above)
Flashback over
I smile softly at that memory, it was one of the best days of my life. At the end we ate the pineapple which was the funny part, I laughed remembering the face Swae made when I asked him if we can eat the pineapple.
I get up from the floor and head back into the bedroom. I see Swae left his phone, should I check it, no I shouldn't that would just cause more problems, but I have to know what he's doing. I grab his phone and type in his password, I smile when I see his home screen a picture of me.
I go to his messages and see a girl named Natasha, I click on her and read there conversation
Natasha: Swae come overrr
Swae: can't with my girl
Natasha: dump that ugly bitch you know you wanna be with me
Swae: don't worry I'm gonna break up with her soon
As soon as I read that I felt the tears coming again, gosh I cry to much. He wants to break up with me, of course he does you're ugly and fat that's why he's breaking up with you Selena
"What are you doing Sel-" Swae says but immediately stop as he sees me crying and on his phone
"You want to break up with me?" I choke out
"Why are you reading my text messages?" He snatches the phone away from me
"Answer me Swae" I cried
"No I don't have to answer" he said
"You do really hate me" I said sobbing in my hands
"All I do is love you Swae and you don't even give me love back, the only thing you do is abuse me mentally and physically" I said looking at him sadly, he doesn't look phased at all
"You don't care Swae, what happened" I said wiping my tears
"We grew apart that's what happened" he stated, I looked him sadly
"No you grew apart from me, I still love you Swae with all my heart" I said putting my hands to my heart, he sucks his teeth
"Listen Selena I love you too, but we need space away from each other" he says sitting down next to me, that's it I'm done being miss nice Selena
I pushed him off the bed and started to punch his chest
"Why Swae why, I was always there for you no matter what, I loved you and supported every decision you made, now you're breaking up with me" I said crying my eyes out
"Is it because I'm ugly and fat, if it's that I promise I'll go to the gym just please don't break up with me" I said hugging his legs
"I'm sorry Swae for everything I've done" I sobbed
"Selena you're beautiful and you're not fat, but we need space trust me" he said removing me from his leg
I looked at him through my teary lashes and got up walking out of the room
"If you're breaking up with me you have to leave this house not me" I said sternly, I went to go sit on the couch
All these years taken away and the pain I have gone through for him to jut break up with me. It's not fair, no ones gonna love him like I loved him, he'll see. He's gonna come back crawling to me
"I'll never forget you Selena" Swae said standing by the door
"Oh yea, go tell you're other bitches that" I yelled throwing him a picture frame. I put my head on my knees and let everything out. Why Swae why