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Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you
Leo just came back with Calypso and he's been distancing himself more than he usually does.
You immediately assumed the worst and decided to go and visit bunker nine to see your boyfriend.
Your head was clouded with the thoughts of Leo cheating on you, but you couldn't believe it.
Leo would never do that to you because he said himself that he loves you and that you're his whole world.
You walked through the forest and got to Bunker Nine. You typed the password in, which was your anniversary, but it said that it was incorrect.
You tried your birthday and it still wasn't correct. Your thoughts told you to type Calypso's name.
You did and the Bunker opened right up. Your heart was slowly crumbling to pieces. You thought he loved you.
You walked in and went to Leo's desk. He wasn't there, but you heard noises coming from his room.
You walked over by the door and leaned your ear to it. Your eyes watered and you crumbled to the ground.
You weakly stood up and opened the door to see Calypso half naked with Leo on top of her.
"I thought you loved me... I hate you." You whispered, but Leo heard you.
"I-it's not what it looks like (Y/N)..." Leo gulped.
"I know what I saw. We're done Leo." You whispered as tears ran down your cheeks.
"(Y/N-)" Leo began.
"I'm leaving. Continue doing whatever you were doing with Calypso."
You walked out and ran to the Hades Cabin to see your best friend Nico. He was hanging out with Will.
You felt used. It was like Leo was just using you until he got his stupid island girlfriend back.
Throughout the weeks, you haven't eaten a lot and you stayed in your cabin. Chiron excused you from Camp Activities.
You were depressed, and the worst part is that you missed him. You were rocking back and forth in the corner of your bed.
With a package of muffins that you haven't eaten. (Cinnamon... I had to.)
You didn't think this heartbreak would ever end. You would never move on from Leo.
You wanted to feel his warm and soft lips on yours. You wanted to cuddle with him and fall asleep.
All of this time is passing by, and people are asking you why you haven't moved on yet.
Annabeth made you take a walk outside with her and Percy to the beach. You didn't want to, but she refused to say no.
Your hair was a mess, you had tear stained cheeks, and you had huge, dark bags under your eyes.
You were extremely thin and your skin was paler than its usual tan glow. Who knew a guy could have this effect on you?
As you were walking, Percy and Annabeth stopped all of the sudden. This caused you to stop and look at them.
They were staring at something. You diverted your attention to what they were staring at and regretted it.
They were looking at Leo and Calypso in the strawberry fields laughing. You watched them sadly because you and Leo used to do that.
"Do you want to go back?" Annabeth asked softly.
You looked at her and let the tears fall. She hugged you and rubbed your back in efforts to comfort you.
She guided you back to your cabin. It physically and emotionally hurt your heart to see them.
That's when you realized how much you actually needed Leo. You still loved him and it hurt.
I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
You hated Leo, but you loved him. You hated Leo because he lied to you and cheated on you.
You loved him because he's charming and extremely protective. He made you feel safe and secure about yourself.
He made you happy.
You hated Leo because you loved him. You hated yourself because you loved him so much, even though he's ripping you apart.
Piper tried to hook you up with a few guys, but you always refused to go on the dates she made.
Piper was complaining about how you're really stubborn. Then she starts saying how she's concerned for you.
You couldn't put anyone else above Leo, because Leo was the center of your whole world.
Even though you weren't the center of his anymore.
You should've known that Leo would go for a goddess like Calypso. Heck, she was everything you weren't.
She was a goddess. You weren't.
She had clear skin. You had a little acne.
She had perfect hair. You had frizzy and dry hair.
She had the perfect color of eyes. You had (E/C) ones.
She smelled better than you, even though that's impossible.
She looked better than you. She was happier than you.
She was everything you weren't. She was perfect to Leo and the center of his world now.
Leo wanted her. He needed her for the gods' sakes. Leo didn't need you. He didn't want you, or at least it appeared that way.
I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
In reality, Leo was under a love potion Calypso stole from the Hecate Cabin that had the help of the Aphrodite Cabin.
He didn't actually know what was going on until he was broken out of the spell. He broke up with Calypso and realized that he would never get you back.
Leo missed you when he couldn't sleep because you would sing a beautiful song that would make him weary.
Leo missed you after he had coffee. He would always go crazy, but you were there to calm him down.
He missed you when he couldn't eat because you would watch a movie and cuddle with him.
Leo missed you on the back of Festus holding onto his waist and resting your head on his shoulder.
He still had sand in his jacket from when he took you to the beach and walked on the boardwalk.
Leo wondered if you missed him like he missed you.
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you
Once Leo was dating you, he got attached immediately. You were his drug and addiction.
The rest of the Seven disowned Leo as their friend because he broke your heart and made you depressed.
Leo didn't know that friends could break hearts to, but here he was being heartbroken from loss of friendship and for losing you.
Leo still loved you and he didn't knew if you loved back.
Leo was always tired of working and campers in general, but he could never be tired of you.
You did everything that you could to cheer him up when he was down and upset.
You would hold him when he had nightmares of his mom. You would whisper soothing things in his ear to comfort him.
Your smile would brighten up his day, but now you don't even smile. He loved your addiction of Twenty Øne Piløts.
He loved your laugh and how sassy you were. He loved absolutely everything about you.
Calypso didn't do any of those things for Leo.
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I nevermind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Leo was walking with his head downwards until he bumped into someone.
That someone was you.
He put out a hand to help you up after you fell, but you glared at him and got up on your own.
Leo pulled at your arm, but you ripped it away as soon as you felt the tug.
"I need to talk to yo-"
"Leave me alone." You mumbled.
You walked away with a saddened Leo behind you.
Leo decided to go to your cabin to see if one of your siblings could persuade you to talk to him.
He knocked and Matthew opened the door.
"What do you want?" He glared.
"I need to talk to (Y/N)."
"Can't you see she doesn't want to talk to you?"
"This is important. Please get her to talk to me." Leo begged.
"Fine." Matthew sighed and after a few minutes you came to the door.
You refused to look Leo in the eyes because you would fall even more in love with him.
"I was set on a love potion when you caught me and Calypso. I would never hurt you because I love you!" Leo said.
As much as you wanted to believe Leo, you just didn't believe that. Why didn't he tell you sooner?
"Go away. I don't believe you."
Leo grabbed at your hands and you missed the feeling of him holding them. You had cold hands and be warmed them up.
"Please..." Leo whispered with tears falling down his face.
You turned your head because you began crying to. You pulled your hands away.
"Don't ever touch me again." You whispered before slamming the door in his face.
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
Leo knew you were still in love with him. He could sense it and could see that none of your friends knew.
You refused to tell Leo that you were still in love with him. You didn't know if he returned the feelings.
Leo just wanted you to tell him that you were in love with him. He missed hearing your beautiful and angel like voice.
Leo put himself in your perspective. He would get back together with himself if he were you.
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You were standing my the campfire alone until you felt someone hug you from behind.
You didn't care who it was because you were sad, so you turned around and hugged the anonymous person back.
You knew a person who hugged you like this. It was the best hug you have had in a long time.
Then, you felt your back burning and you knew it was Leo. You jumped out of his arms and slapped him.
"I didn't mean to hurt you, I just wanted you back in my arms. I love you..." Leo whispered.
You just stared at him and didn't say a word.
"Please don't move on." Leo begged.
"I won't." You simple stated before walking away.
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Leo wondered if you wondered what you two could've been together. Whether you imagined a wedding and having kids or living in Camp Half Blood.
Leo was walking outside one day when he saw you with an Aphrodite camper named Mason. (Only a few will understand)
He was tall, tan, and had blonde hair with amazing gray/blue eyes. He was really handsome in your eyes.
Although, a piece of you didn't feel right with Leo. He didn't make you feel how Leo made you feel.
"She told me she wouldn't move on..." Leo whispered to himself.
He was more heartbroken than ever and went to the Hermes Cabin to talk with the Stolls'.
In Leo's eyes, you lied to him. He thought you would never lie to him, but yet you did.
Leo got bottles of alcohol from the Stolls' and began drinking his emotions and depression down.
He drank to the moment he was drunk and doing things he would regret, like going to you and start kissing you.
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
Leo didn't want to miss you, but he couldn't help it. He needed you because he loved you.
He needed to do something to keep some distance between you both so you wouldn't cry.
Leo knew he could control his thoughts, but couldn't help but remember all the memories you and him shared.
He smiled at the thought of him finding out that you play the piano. He couldn't help but think of when you fangirled over how hot Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun were.
He can't help but remembering though.
But, Hephaestus paid a visit to Leo in his dreams and told him that it was good he had these thoughts because it's okay to have feelings and act upon them.
Like cry.
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song
Love (I typed it in and it autocorrected to Leo...) and trust disappeared in yours and Leo's relationship.
There was no more trust after you found him doing something disturbing with Calypso.
There was still love, but none of you showed it toward each other anymore. Although, you missed love in a relationship.
Leo tried to get the Seven to be friends with him again after explaining what really happened, but they didn't believe him just like you.
I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
Leo hated you for stealing his heart and taking the breath out of him, but he loved you so much to the point where it physically hurt his heart to see any couple.
Leo hated you because he wanted and needed you. You were his everything, the center of his world.
Leo tried to move on though since you were with Mason, but he just couldn't because it was Calypso's fault he was depressed.
You didn't know what Leo and Calypso broke up. You've heard rumors, but you just keep thinking is being his usual flirty self.
All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She's the only thing you've ever seen
How is it you'll never notice
That you are slowly killing me
Mason broke up with you because he could see that you still had feelings for Leo.
Leo did end up finding a different girl, and you were heartbroken all over again.
Leo found an Aphrodite camper named Jada. She was part of Calypso's clique, but he didn't know.
When Jada fights with Piper in the sword arena, you watch Leo watch Jada's every movement.
You notice that he doesn't look at her the way he looked at you: full of love and happiness.
In this moment though, Leo was looking at her like she was the only girl he's ever seen. It was sickening to you.
You figured Leo never cared. If he did, then he would've never cheated on you with Calypso.
You thought that Leo didn't give a dam about you. He never acknowledged you anymore.
You were surprised that Leo never noticed that he was slowly killing you by killing your heart.
This was a tragic love story.
I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
You and Leo hated each other because you both loved each other, but refused to get back together.
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This was my longest one shot at 2814 words.
Sorry not sorry about this being really sad.
I love this and loved writing it.
Love you guys💕