pagdilat ng mata ko may araw na, hinanap ng mata ko ang lalaking katabi ko but he is not there.
marcus and me we made love after being apart for so long its was sweet and bitter feeling, while my body was in heaven my mind is on hell what now after this anong mukha ang ihaharap ko sa kanya we are two ex couple fucking.
what did I do?
What should I do next?
ugang umaga sumakit ang ulo ko..
lumabas ako ng kwarto nabutan ko ang kambal na nanunuod ng tv sa mini sala ng villa.
" are you hungry you what something to eat? " tanong ko sa kanila
" no mom we are finished. dad made something for us while you are sleeping"
seryosong sagot ni Ralph
"mom where did you sleep? did you sleep with dad? we woke up your not on our bed" tanong ni mikaella
"mikay dnt ask that its for adults only"
saway ni Ralph ky mikaella.
" oppss sorry" sagot ni.mikaella
sa eksenang yun hindi ko alam kung sasagot ba ako o hindi aamin ba ako o tatangi.
"mom your phone is ringing" sabay turo.ng kambal sa kwarto nila pumasok ako at dun sinagot ang phone ko.
"hello."
"ella you need to come back here asap"
"why what happened? "
"something went wrong to our publication we need you here"
"but"
"no buts ella. if this problem cannot be solved all the years that you and me work hard for will be burst like bubble, I know your there for your family but we need you here now. so pack your things and the twins. I missed them so much come back come back."
"okay I will"
then I Press end, lumabas ako ng kwarto my heart just beats fast it was a perfect father and twins scene. marcus was sitting on the middle of twins, raplh head was on her dad big legs lying there like his pillow while mikaella was on her father's lap and lying her her on her father chest and all of then are watching cartoon network show.
I run to room and get my camera they didn't notice me taking them a picture they are so busy watching tv.
when I felt satisfied on what I captured I return my camera in the room.
I let marcus bond to his twins I left them I went to twins room and open my laptop I need to know what happened to the publication house and when I open my email sumakit lalo ang ulo ko sa daming email report ng mga tao ko, fuck I forgot to check my email.
halos ilang araw din ako busy at hindi nakalabas ng kwarto I just let marcus have solo time to the twins he heard them laughing giggling running and shouting.
marcus play with them hindi din ako nakasabay kumain dinalahan nlang ako ng pagkain sa kwarto.
I told the twins I can't go them on the beach they want to play there because I busy and I need to finish they understand me.
" we need to talk" salubong na sa akin ni marcus sa paglabas ko ng pintuan ng kwarto ng kambal our serious first talk after what happened to us.
" its that urgent? I need to finish something important " tanong ko sa kanya. honestly wala akong lakas na loob o mukha na iharap sa kanya.
I just passed him by and walk away
" I want my kids Rafaella" his voice is so powerful and cold. kinilabutan ako sa boses nya natakot ako.
" over my dead body marcus" I pretend to be stronger than him hindi pa din ako lumingon sa kanya.
" what I want is what I get you know that and maybe you forgot I was there biological father kahit saan korte mo dahil to I have a rights dnt push me to do drastic way because I can I will fight for my kids im marcus madrigal dnt ever forget than." pagkatapos nya sabihin yun lumakad sya papalayo sa akin at lumabas ng villa.
I stand still parang aatakihin ako sa puso sobrang sakit halos hindi ako makahinga halos di ako makagalaw naglalabo na ang mata ko nahihilo na ako nangingining na ang tuhod ko
I think I having a panic attack now..
"I cnt" sigaw ng isip ko
and everything went black........