I'm alone in this world
this crazy fucked up world
and why is that
when I have friends around me
all I feel is empty space
no one's there to help me.
I feel isolated,
boxed up in a field of my emotions
can't escape because of my conscience,
it's like a fucking fence
and I'm the only fucking sheep here.
I'm in my own little world
and everyone that is around me
is so mother fucking happy
but hell no, not me
there's no one here that can help me
no one here to comfort me
so I can't even believe in me.
I've lost all my motivations
all the fucking sensations
love, hate, good, bad
it's like I'm a fucking tornado,
complete and utter chaos
and no one could ever stop me
because I'm a fucking loose animal
and I'm about to snap,
destroying the world around me
with no care for my safety
or anyone else's for that matter.
Then I'll be dead and I could care less
cuz after all that I'll be satisfied
with the destruction I brought
but also the reality
that I am actually alone now
and no one can convince me otherwise
because there's no one here.
So now I'm feeling happy
realizing I never needed anybody else
just me, myself, and I
but also maybe a nice dime.
I'm not even thinking anymore
about anything or anyone
because I know that if I do
someone will come back to haunt me
to make me feel alone or not
all over again and I can't take that shit
so now I'm walking in the darkness
can't see my feet on the ground
or my hands in front of myself
my heart is starting to pound
thoughts of my friends coming to my side
are flooding my fucking mind
and before I even know it I'm sitting at the table
that we always sit at every lunch break we have
damn that shit isn't reality
how unfortunate for that
now lets go back to this conversation
that we're having about who knows what.
But instead I get up and walk away
from the voices calling me back
without any care in the world
and I went to do...whatever the fuck I wanted