Deidara
I stayed in my room all day, playing around making birds out of clay with my hands. I smiled as I watched the tongues of my hands play around and mold the clay, I loved seeing that. I loved the feeling of clay between my fingers, I liked their texture and it was the only good thing in this organization they couldn't take away from me.
The door opened all of a sudden and I found it something normal since they had broken the lock, so I knew I had no privacy even in my own room. It was Kisame- for a change! I had no idea what he would want, looking for me in my room.
"You could've at least called." I told him, grabbing another piece of clay from the bag on the floor and beginning to mold it.
"Look how brave you become when you have that little bag of yours near." He teased.
"And look how cowardly you guys become when I have my little bag of clay near me." I retorted. "What do you want?" I asked annoyingly so he would leave me alone.
Kisame smiled in that habit of his, the smile that gave me chills. I hated his smile, or more of, I hated all of him.
"I came to see how you were today." He commented and I busted out laughing, I couldn't help it.
"Come on now, come up with a better lie," I told him. "because nobody here believes that. If you came here because you want to fuck, I'm in no mood." I told him, taking out a few molded birds from my hands and showing him.
"To be honest with you, it's not me who wants to fuck you," He smiled. "but I'm sure that you'll know soon enough who'll be entering the game."
"Oh yes, tell me who still has to violate me." I asked amusingly. "Konan?" I guessed. "Pein?"
"The Uchiha." He said and I laughed even more. "What are you laughing about?"
"That was actually funny." I replied. "The Uchiha doesn't even seem human. He hasn't had any relationships ever since he killed his girlfriend, he's heterosexual, and I'm absolutely nothing to him. In his marvelous life, I don't exist."
"Well, you'll find out soon enough." He told me. "I've warned you and take into account that he's my partner; I know him well. When it does happen, though, do tell me how he did you. I'm curious to know what he'll do. I'm thinking he'll use his genjutsu to put you in his little word where he tortures his victims for days tied to that cross. Besides, it'll only be a few seconds in the real world, so no one would help you until he felt like it." Kisame laughed.
"He won't do it!" I shouted.
"Torture you? I don't think so, but abuse you for days tied to that cross? It excites even me, the luck you have." He said once again, laughing.
"Leave!" I shouted, throwing him the first thing I could grab while he left my room, closing the door quickly as to not get hit by what I threw.
Damn it! I had to calm down. He wouldn't do it, he won't- he was an Uchiha and I had to get that through my head. Still, the idea Kisame tried to get in my head terrorized me. I didn't want to go anywhere near Itachi, I didn't want him to tie me to that cross and abuse me.
I was ninety-nine percent sure that he wouldn't want to abuse me. This is Itachi Uchiha we're talking about: the genius of his clan, the one who didn't stoop so low as to have sex with guys and much less insignificant ones that came from the street. I didn't have a famous and well-known last name like he had, so there was absolutely nothing I could possibly offer.
Still, that one percent of my doubts was left and I trusted this organization very little. He had brought me food to eat and now that I remember, the last time someone here treated me nice was Sasori before he violated me like he did. Of course, he didn't do it again ever since, but he had done it. What if that's what was going on with the Uchiha? Now I was so confused and I'm pretty sure that's what Kisame tried to do- confuse me- but I couldn't let him do that. The Uchiha wouldn't try nothing with me, I had to convince myself of that.
To be honest, I was a bit scared with the whole thing but I tried to reason. It was Itachi and he wasn't going to do anything bad to me. He hasn't done it all this time and I wasn't going to imagine things I didn't know of because that...fish had said it.
I left my room to walk around, mostly because I hated being locked in all day even if it was the healthiest thing for me. My body still hurt, but even still, I needed to stretch my legs a bit. I grabbed my bag of clay and tied it to my waist before going out to the hallway.
I wasn't sure where I was headed, so I walked around until I decided where to go. I walked myself towards the exit of the base, turning to the last hallway and realizing Itachi walked from the front. My eyes fixed themselves on him and I tensed; I didn't want to be all tense but I remembered Kisame's words and I couldn't help it. My body shook and I didn't understand why- I had never feared Itachi, not him.
Perhaps I had imagined myself tied to that cross, I don't know, but I had to continue walking however I could. I wanted to pass by as fast as I could, not even bumping into him if at all possible. I just wanted to get out of there. I felt as if a concrete wall had fallen on me, it was the tension. I could drown only by seeing him but that's how Itachi was; he imposed respect and a little fear.
I couldn't take my eyes off him as he got nearer and just when I almost had him by my side, he looked me in the eyes. He never looked me in the eyes! Every time he passed by me, he would ignore me! I didn't exist to him and that small gesture... made me think more of Kisame's words. What if he was looking into me? What if Kisame was right and he wanted to add himself along with the others? I looked away from his eyes and looked down, speeding up to the exit.
I hurried out through the door without looking back; I didn't want to prove if Kisame had been right or not, I only wanted to get out of there. I went towards the pond and luckily, there was no one around because with how pissed off Pein was yesterday, he had sent Kakuzu and Zetsu out to who knows where. Kisame was nothing to worry about because he had Itachi to control him and well, Sasori had already come to see me this morning, so he was probably busy with his puppets or inventing new weapons or poisons.
When I arrived at the pond, I could still see dry blood near the tree where they had tied me by the night before and it gave me chills to remember the scene. I doubted if it was a good idea or nor, but I felt dirty. And I was! Konan may have cleaned me with a wet cloth, but I wanted to bathe and get the rest of the dry blood off of me.
I took off my clothes after assuring myself at least twenty times that there was no one and I ran towards the water- as if I hadn't looked around well enough and there was anybody left who hadn't seen my wounds! Truth is I looked like an idiot, with all the times I had looked around making sure I was alone.
I washed myself entirely and loosened my hair to wash it because it was sticky and disgusting. When it touched the water, it looked as if all the dirtiness started disappearing and the hair went back to it's soft state. It felt good to feel at least this clean! Because after everything they had done to me, I could wash myself a thousand times and still feel outraged and disgusting.
I was calm inside the water when I heard a noise in the bushes. With the fear it gave me, I hid behind a great rock to see Itachi come to bathe. Damned be my luck! I didn't think it took me this long to wash myself...
I knew Itachi saw me hide behind the rock because he only smiled while he took off his clothes. The first thing I could think of was: the Uchiha could smile? Well, he could, I could see he could even through my shock. I never thought I'd see him smile and he had a pretty smile; I don't know why he didn't do it often.
Aside from being nervous at his presence, he made me even more nervous as he got naked. He got into the water with much calmness, giving me a perfect look at his body that there was not much to leave to the imagination. Well, actually, there was nothing to leave to the imagination! I saw him perfectly and I couldn't avoid blushing; no wonder everyone was crazy for the Uchiha! He was perfect in everything! I could drool only by looking at him.
"You're that embarrassed to be seen naked?" He asked me, smiling.
"Well... to be honest, yes." I told him. "Do you mind turning around while I get out to grab my clothes?" I asked.
"For all I care, you could get out whenever you want." He said, getting closer towards the rock while I circled around it trying to avoid looking into his eyes.
"Can I know what you're doing?" I asked him because he wouldn't stop trying to get near me and we looked like kids going around the rock.
"I'm trying to get that bug off of you." He said and suddenly I stopped, letting him catch up to me while he took something out of my hair- a bug! "There you go." He said, this time getting away from me as he swam towards the small waterfall.
I was an idiot! How was I supposed to think that the Uchiha could do something weird like that? I watched him swim while I stood there, immobile.
"Weren't you leaving?" He asked me, once again getting near me and I couldn't stop asking myself how he could be so calm talking to me while he was completely nude meanwhile, I was over here trying to cover myself however I could so he wouldn't see me.
"Yes." I said. "When you leave."
"You're that embarrassed to be seen naked? You have nothing that interests me." He told me, smiling. "I'm serious, you have the same thing I have, I've seen it thousands of times."
"The same, you say," I said, looking down at his member and comparing it to mine, "I'd say not the same." I commented.
The Uchiha laughed and I think he understood what I meant exactly because let's face it, I didn't have the same member as he did- I'd like to! But I didn't, well, me and the rest of the organization. Did he have to be perfect in everything?
"I don't care." He told me. "You can get out whenever you want, I won't look, I promise."
"You better not." I said, trusting him and took a step over towards the edge when I remembered something important. "Uchiha." I called out to him, making him turn around to face me. "Thanks, for yesterday. They've told me you stayed up taking care of me."
I watched him swim towards me. I walked a few steps back until I was backed up against the rock, a pained expression taking over my face as the wounds in my back hurt. The Uchiha didn't take long to arrive and he told me to turn around. I had no choice, I would've liked to have an excuse for him not to see them, but nothing came to mind. I had no other remedy but to show them to him.
"Stay still." He told me. "I'll be back in two seconds."
He got out of the water to search through his clothes and came back inside to where I was standing. I couldn't see him since I was facing away but I felt him part my hair out of my back and over my shoulders, complaining when I felt his fingers over my wounds with something cold.
"Sorry." He excused himself for the pain caused by touching my wounds. "I'm a bit clumsy at this."
"The Uchiha is clumsy at something?" I asked him in surprise with a smile.
"You'd be surprised of the things I could be clumsy in." He told me. "I'm not as perfect as people think." He commented oddly serious. "There. Done." He told me, finishing with the cream. "Deidara...what happened?" He asked and my eyes widened. "I don't believe that training story one bit plus, there's blood on the edge and these wounds on your back are not from any normal attack done in training- they're lashes. Can you tell me what's happening?"
"It's a game." I told him, and it was true.
"A game?" He asked me. "They almost kill you and it's a game? I don't understand."
"Leave it, you won't understand."
"Who's leaving you with these wounds?"
"I already told you, Uchiha. It's a game, it's everyone." I told him and he was surprised. "Thanks for the cream, I'll be going to my room."
Our conversation ended there though I didn't believe my answer satisfied Itachi's curiosity, but that's all there was. What did he want me to tell him? That they violated me? For what? So I could feel even more humiliated? I couldn't tell him that, it embarrassed me to talk about it. It embarrassed me for him to know. Just thinking about him knowing disgusted me over myself. How was I going to tell the Uchiha?