We all called Noah several times and we got no answer. I was getting worried. If anything I looked a lot more worried than Everett and some of the other football players. I mean nothing bad happened to Noah, right? I hope not. I just wish he would answer his freaking phone! I mean its lunch time and he still hasn't shown up!
"Hey there lovely." A voice said. I looked up and saw Colton, the one who threw the party that I accidentally got drunk at. He sat down beside me on the bleachers. "You look really worried." He said.
"Well Noah isn't answering the phone." I said sending another text to Noah's phone asking if he was ok.
"I'm sure everything is okay. There's no need for you to get so worked up." He told me and rubbed my back. Everyone had been telling me that. I just feel stressed because I'm so worried. I can't help it. When I care about people I worry about them a lot. I happen to care about Noah a lot.
"But its hard not to worry!" I groaned running my fingers through my hair.
"Why?" He asked.
"Because I like him!" I blurted out. My hand flew to my mouth after I did that. Everett stopped talking to some guy on the team and looked at me with wide eyes. Everyone got quiet and the whole entire football team looked at me. My face got red as a tomato. I cannot believe I just blurted out that I liked Noah in front of the entire football team. Everett walked over to me and grabbed my arm. He pulled me off the bleachers. He pulled me away from everyone and looked at me with wide eyes.
"Y-you like Noah?" He asked. I bit my lip and looked down. "I won't tell him Skylar."
"Yea I do like him.." I mumbled after a few moments of silence.
"Its ok a y that you like him." He told me looking at me confused.
"The whole football team knows now! He's going to find out and get scared away! What am I supposed to do now? Like seriously I don't think I can lose Noah right now! Now I just embarrassed myself in front of the whole team! Everyone in the school will know because everyone wants to spread rumors! Like-" I was cut off by someone pinching my sides. I jumped about five feet in the air and turned to see Noah. He had a smirk on his face.
"What will everyone know?" He asked. And now I'm in panic mode.
"I-I-I-I-I..." I gave up. I looked behind him seeing all the football players laughing in our direction. I looked back at Noah and he raised an eyebrow at me. "I-I have to go." I said quickly took off towards the school.
"Skylar wait!" I heard Noah yell. I made my pace a little faster. I seriously just embarrassed myself in front of everyone back there. I feel so humiliated. Noah's going to know about me liking him now and everything is done. He's not going to wanna be friends with me anymore. I just ruined everything. Someone suddenly grabbed my wrist and turned me around to face them. It was Noah. "What's going on?" Noah asked.
"Nothing." I mumbled and tried to get out of his grip. But he held my wrist tighter and made me face him.
"You can talk to me." He said softly.
"Not about this." I said trying to avoid eye contact.
"Why not?" He asked. The whole football team decided they wanted to walk past us. Some of them were making kissing noises and faces at us as they walked by. I let my head fall.
"Noah let me go." I said trying again to get out of his grip. Noah looked confused.
"What's going on?" He asked concerned.
"Noah please just let go of me." I begged.
"Not until you tell me what's going on." He said sternly.
"Well then we'll be here for a while." I mumbled. He sighed heavily.
"What's going on? I listen to all the messages on my phone on the way here and Everett and Colton left messages saying you were freaking out. But now that I'm here your trying to get away from me. The team just made kissing noises at us..." He suddenly trailed off. His eyebrows furrowed for a moment. "Sky what's going on because I'm seriously confused."
"Nothing. I just remembered I had to do something before lunch was over with." I lied I felt so bad for lying.
"Why are you lying to me?" Noah asked. He even knew I was lying.
"Please Noah. Just let me go." I said. He shook his head standing his ground. He's so stubborn.
"Skylar I don't think you understand. I know something is going on. Its going to worry me all day knowing somethings wrong and you won't tell me." Noah said.
"I don't want you to be embarrassed." I mumbled looking at my feet.
"Why would I be embarrassed?" He asked.
"Because I like you! Noah I really like you!" I yelled. His face went pale and he dropped my wrist. He just stared at me. My heart pounded against my rib cage. I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders but yet I kept feeling a pang in my chest. I wanted to leave and go home. But the only thing that came.to mind was to run away.
So I did just that.
***
"We won the game!" Jessica cheered over the phone. "We're going to the state championships!"
"That's great!" I said trying to sound enthusiastic.
"Are you alright?" She asked. She knew about what happened with Noah. I ended up telling her about it after school.
"I don't know." I mumbled.
"Well I'll call you later, mk? I have to try and find Jason. I lost him somewhere in the crowd." She explained.
"Okay. I'll talk to you later." I said. We both said bye and hung up. Right after that my phone buzzed again. I picked my phone up and saw it was a text from Noah.
Noah: Why didn't you come to the game? It was great we won! Now we're going to the state championships!
Me: I was tired and congratulations!
I hope he doesn't bring up this afternoon. I really don't want to talk about it. I just made a fool of myself.
Noah: Will you still come to the party tomorrow night with me please?
Me: Yea sure.
Noah: Great. I'll pick you up at six, okay? I have to go so I can drive home.
Me: Okay. Drive safely.
Noah: Goodnight sweetheart.
Me: Night.
I put my phone back on my night stand then barried my head in my pillow. I can't believe what happened today. I embarrassed myself in front of Noah and the entire football team. But I guess Noah isn't going to bring it up which is bitter sweet. I would like him to confess his feelings for me but I doubt he does. That's probably why he isn't bringing it up.
I found out the reason why he was late was because he over slept. He must be stressed about something. Maybe his parents. But the reason why he wasn't answering his phone was because it died. I mean he worried me to death. He worried me so much I blurted out one of my biggest secrets. I don't know how to feel right now.
He knows and I just hope things don't get awkward. I really would hate it if it got awkward. I just want him in my life. He's honestly the reason why I smile now. I trust him a lot and I feel like I can tell him anything. I can tell him anything. He can tell me anything. I have never got so close to someone in such a short time. Nor have I ever developed strong feelings for someone so fast.
When Ryan died and I lost everything along with him like my spot on the cheerleading team, all of my friends except Jessica, and I became quiet and shy. Its about to be a year that Ryan has been gone and I really never thought how I would handle it but now that I have Noah I think I'm going to be okay.
I almost lost Noah today. Me confessing like that could have turned out extremely bad. Like that show Friend Zone on MTV. Some of those people who have been friends for years aren't even friends anymore because one of them developed feelings for the other person. I don't want that to happen with Noah and I.
I wouldn't say I was in love with Noah because I think its way to early for me to be thinking about love. But I definitely like him. A lot. I think that I should stop thinking about my feelings so much towards him. He obviously doesn't like me back. I mean he would have told me already if he did. Noah does mean a lot to me and I really don't want to lose him. I don't think I can lose another person.
I think that's why I forgave Jason and Jessica so easily. I can't lose them. They mean to much to me. I'm happy with the way I am now and I don't want anything to change.
Unless Noah likes me back and asks me out then I definitely would want our relationship to change.
But that won't happen. But then again anything is possible.
***
I straightend out my shirt and looked in the mirror. I tilted my head to the side. I was wearing dark jeans, with an off the shoulder top that was black and said love in white and I had black flats on with small bows on them. My hair was in curls that fell in my shoulders.
I was nervous for this party. I mean Logan is a freshman in college so that means I am going to a college party. I thought going to a high school party was nerve racking but after realizing it was a college party my stomach was doing back flips and was in knots. I looked down at my hands and they were a little sweaty.
I really didn't want to go to this party but Noah wanted me to go with him and I would do anything for him. I'm whipped. I rolled my eyes at my thoughts and sat down on the edge of my bed. My phone buzzed at the same time. I grabbed it and saw it was from Noah.
Noah: I'll be there in ten.
Me: Ok!
I put my phone down beside me and just played with my fingers. I hope nothing goes wrong. I really hope everything goes okay. I don't want anything to go wrong or I possibly embarrass myself more than I already have.
A small knock on my door made me look up. I thought it might be Jason but it wasn't. It was my mom. She's never just came to my room just to come in my room. She welcomed herself in my room. She sat down beside me and put her hand on my knee.
"What do you look so pretty for?" She asked looking over my outfit.
"Logan invited Noah and I to a party." I said quitely.
"When did you see Logan?" She asked.
"The fall festival." I mumbled.
"Oh. Well its good your still talking to him." She said. "I wanted to talk to you about your birthday."
"What about it?" I asked.
"Your father and I just was wondering what did you want to do for it." She said. I was a little shocked that she brought my birthday. Like I said my parents have started distancing themselves from me.
"Nothing." I said.
"Its your sixteenth birthday honey! You have to want to do something!" She exclaimed.
"Well I don't." I mumbled.
"Look I know its going to be hard because of what happened last year on your birthday but we have to try and think positive and try and be happy." She explained. I nodded. There was another knock at my door. I looked up and saw Noah standing there.
"Jason let me in." He said.
"You look mighty handsome." My mom smiled. He did look good. His hair was tousled just how I like it.Dark washed jeans and a black button up shirt. We matched. How ironic.
"Thank you Mrs. Greene." He smiled.
"Call me Melissa." She told him then looked at me. "Well you better get going to that party."
"Bye mom." I did a small smile.
"Bye sweetie and have fun." She said and we both stood up from my bed. She looked over at Noah. "Look after my daughter."
"Always." He smiled making my heart flutter. We said our goodbyes to my mom, dad, and Jason. Then we were out the door. We went out to the car and we were on the way to the party. "You okat?" He asked.
"Fine. Why wouldn't I be?" I asked looking at him.
"You just seem quiet." He said shrugging his shoulders.
"Oh." I said then looked out the window.
"Be excited. We're going to a college party! " He said with a huge smile.
"Yea." I said using a fake laugh. I was more nervous than anything.
"Sky listen I'll be by your side through the whole night. There's no need to worry at all. If you want to leave early then we can. But just try to go. You might have fun." He told me. He out his hand on my knee and it felt like my knee was on fire at his touch.
"Okay." I said barely audible. I could only think about his hand touching my knee. He squeezed it and I lost it. My heart started pounding and I had to bit my lip to stop the gasp from happening.
"We'll have fun." He said.
I sure hope so.