Chapter 5
He suddenly grabbed my hand and sipped my wounded finger. On wide eyes, naging blanko yata ang takbo ng isip ko. Sehun's actions are spontaneous in often times. He can always put down the barricades in acting demure I built for so long in his simple actions. My pointing finger was still on his mouth as he sipped the digit. I didn't react physically, I swear. But mentally, my brain is going out of sane. Why are you doing this?
"Ahh--" I accidentally whimpered because for someone's sake, the latter is already twirling his playful tongue on my finger. I saw him smirked with my sudden action as he bit my finger seductively. I know he felt triumphant about it. My face turned crimson red. Kahiya talaga. Binawi ko ang kamay ko.
"Ano.. S-Sorr--" I didn't finish my sentence because Sehun kissed me hungrily, without any consent. I whined in pain as he got that opportunity to put his tongue on my mouth. I tried to resist but eventually failed. Nandito na naman ako, nalulunod sa mga halik ni Sehun. I returned the kisses without hesitations anymore. We stood up, I put my legs on Sehun's waist as he carried me in the dining table. Iniwasan nito ang mga bubog na naiwan sa sahig. Lilinisin nalang namin yun mamaya.
Everything happened so fast. The creaking sound of the table due to Sehun's fast paced, that's very disturbing in my part. As I felt Sehun's manhood twitched. He burst his juices on my inside. On heavy breathing, tatayo na sana ako but he pulled my waist as he let me faced the well-furnished wooden table. He let me do on all fours position.
"Ready for round 2.."
"Let's take a rest, Sehun." I pleaded. Pagod na pagod na ako pero ang Sehun na 'to ㅡ wala yatang kaubosan ang stamina. As I screamed a lewd moan when Sehun licked my butthole. Squeezing my butt cheeks. Ang sarap. Sehun saw my face full of pleasured. He f*cked me using those sinful tongue of him.
"Don't stop.. please.." Something about Sehun makes me wanna do all the things I shouldn't have done in the first place. He's inside of me again, thrusting with full of lust and passion. Abusing my prostate. I'm a giver to the point that I'm trying to give everything to him. Ito ba nagagawa ng pag-ibig? It's really easy to take off the clothes I'm wearing and have sex with him. Isang halik niya lang at mapupunta kami sa ganito. Well, Everyone can do sex all the time. But I opened my soul for Sehun, I'm not just doing sex him. I'm letting him to go inside my spirit, fears, thoughts, future, hopes, and dream.. that's being naked and I'm naked for him.
"Rest will never be part of my vocabulary when it comes to you. Now Luhan, listen.. I want you to.." I hummed in response. He tried to take away the strand of hair on my forehead as he went closer to my ear and licked it. I'm a mess and I'm covered with our sweat. I moaned louder as his penetration on my abused hole gets more wild. He held my cheeks and kissed it.
"Say my name, Luhan" Sehun commanded, on heavy breathing. He didn't stop thrusting inside me. The walls on my buttocks building up. And I returned by slapping my buttcheeks on him. I did everything he told me to do so,
"My name.." Sabi ko, say my name daw eh. Malay ko ba.
"Seriously, Luhan?" Sehun hissed. Nagulat nga yata dahil napatigil siya ng ilang segundo. Ano ba mali sa sinabi ko? Sinunod ko lang naman siya.
"I'm just kidding. Duh." I rolled my eyeballs. Sarap inisin to. He owned me on that night though. Sehun owned everything about me.
"Bakit hindi ba kasi pwede? Ako nalang.. Sana ako nalang yung mahal mo. Diba sabi mo, ako mahal mo?" Hagulgol ko habang nakakapit ng mahigpit sa mga braso ni Sehun.
"Mahal kita.. pero mas minahal ko siya. Let's end this.." Sagot naman ng binata sa akin. Makikita ang lungkot sa kanyang mata. Pero ba't ganito? Sabihin niyong di 'to totoo. Na panaginip lang lahat ng ito.
"Nasabi mo lang yan kasi siya ang asawa mo.. Wa'g! Di yan totoo." Tinakpan ko ang tenga ko gamit ang aking mga nanginig na kamay. Tinatago ang sarili sa katotohanan. Bigla namang hinawakan ni Sehun ang mga braso kong nanginig pa rin, mahigpit at masakit. Iyak lang ako ng iyak, "Yun nga diba? Nakikinig ka ba ha, Luhan? Pinakasalan ko siya dahil siya ang mahal ko.." Iling lang ako ng iling. Gusto kong magwala.
"Di yan totoo! Bawiin mo yan, Sehun. Mahal mo ako!" Naglalawa ang aking mga mata. Ang sakit ng puso ko at parang dinudurog durog ito sa bawat salitang binibitawan nito, "..and you.. you're just my sex slave so fuck off. I don't love you.. wake up, Luhan!"
Nagising ako na sobrang hingal na hingal. Beads of sweats all over my face. I roamed my head around the room as the insight of my dream gushed upon my brain. Lately, ang sama ng mga panaginip ko. Masamang panaginip at nandun palagi si Sehun.
"Damn it." It's a very bad nightmare, indeed. Mapapamura ka nalang sa sobrang sama. I got nervous of the thought about that dream. It might just be a dream, but it gave me chills on my nerves. Though, wala akong naalala masyado sa panaginip ko. Ang alam ko lang, di daw ako mahal ni Sehun at yun ang kinakatakutan ko. Kinikilabutan ako, as I felt anxiety all over my body.
The bedroom's door swung open as I saw a masculine figure. With his eye smile, nawala ang kaba ko. Sehun's wearing his white shirt and a checkered boxer, "Good morning." As he sat on the bed and kissed my lips. My puffy cheeks turned out to be as red as a fresh tomato due to Sehun's sudden action. As I felt his calloused hands wiped the sweat all over my forehead.
"Why are you so sweaty? H-How's your sleep?"
"Okay lang. But lately, I'm experiencing nightmares.", Sehun looked at my face as he hugged me. I didn't resist anymore, though. Worry was painted all over his face, "Mind to share what happened on your dreams?" Tinaas ko ang aking ulo at tinignan ulit sa mata si Sehun, "Ano.. di mo daw kasi ako ma-- ahh.. wala.. Just forget about it.." As I dismissed the thought on sharing it with him. Iniling ko nalang ang ulo ko. Sehun raised his left eyebrow. Di dapat malaman ni Sehun na siya ang dahilan ng masasamang panaginip ko. He's my sweetest dream, but at the same time, my worst nightmare. Ironic. Pinilit niya pa akong sabihin sa kanya ang panaginip ko pero iling lang ako ng iling. Napagod rin yata siya kalaunan.
"Fine.", he tapped my puffy cheeks, "If I can't force you. I want to tell you that it's just a dream, so stop overthinking, okay. Remember, Luhan, that strange dreams aren't real. There is no relationship between bad or even good things that happen in your dreams and things that are going to happen in your real life, so don't stress or worry that your dream is predicting your future. This is reality, and reality is I'll always be here beside you." I nodded my head in response. Sana nga, di yun magiging totoo. Sana di mo kakainin ang lahat ng sinasabi mo. Strange dreams aren't real, but it can be a big dangerous warning. Alam kong stress lang 'to. Calm down, Luhan.
Sehun put his soft lips unto my forehead then travelled to my nose then stop unto my lips. I closed my eyes as I felt his smack on my face, "I hope my kisses will make you feel better?" Hinawakan ni Sehun ang kamay ko at pinatayo. Hubad pa ako dahil may nangyari sa amin kagabi, pero di na ako nahiya. I was shocked when the latter put me in a tight embrace. Yes, he hugged me without any sexual intentions. I hate you, Sehun. I hate you for giving me reasons to love you more. Huba't hubad, but I felt all these butterflies on my stomach. All I can see is him. He might be wild on bed, and sometimes spontaneous and trouble-maker and wild again. But he's the sweetest guy, I know. And that's what makes Sehun, him.
He hugged me tighter but I still felt comfortable in those developed arms, "I hate the fact that you're way more taller than me, Hun." I said randomly as I pouted. I saw him chuckled with my cuteness. He squandered the hair strands on my head, "Trust me, Luhan. There is an advantage on it." Hinigpitan ko ang hawak sa kanya. Sana wala natong katapusan, "What is it?" I answered back with a question, na parang batang sobrang interesado na malaman ang sagot. I smelled his manly scent sticked his shirt.
"When I hug you, you can listen to my heart which only beats for you." Napatingin ulit ako sa mga titig niya. Totoo ba yung sinabi niya? Parang nabingi yata ako. Luhan, wa'g kang mag ilusyon.
"Ha?" Parang natameme yata ako dun. He fixed my bangs with his right hand and his left on my waist. He said those strucking words, "Forget about it.. Umhh. You're just so beautiful, Luhan. And I'm thinking that a guy like me is so lucky to have you.. I just can't get enough of you." Di ko alam ang gagawin ko. Mabubuang na yata ako at sasabog na ang utak ko sa pinagsasabi ng lalaking ito. Bakit ka ganito? Di dapat pwede ang ganito. Isusumbong kita kay Duterte. Nothing is sinking in my chaotic brain.
My eyes widened when he suddenly squeezed my butt. And those creepy smile, "I'm very lucky enough that I can touch this bouncy ass of yours that other dudes are craving for."
"Bastos! Oh Pervert."
He smiled like he won the lottery. "Now, pile up your clothes. May pupuntahan tayo."
"Hah? Saan?"
"Kung saan tayo lang dalawa."