"Do you want to watch a movie?" I ask changing the subject and smiling kindly to keep the mood just where it was.
"Yeah sure, just let me get changed. You can chose the movie babe" His arms unwrapped from me as he kissed my cheek and walked out the door confidently back to himself.
I grabbed the copy of The Notebook off of the desk where I was suppose to watch it with Christa but we had to clean instead and put that into the DVD player connected to the plasma on the wall across from the bed. It started to play its previews and I just left it there to continue on as I needed to remove the makeup off of my face.
I scrubbed my face with the refreshing feeling of a clean face and brushed my teeth getting rid of the taste of vodka and Coca cola. Maybe that moment with Harry sobered me up a bit I guess but I still felt dizzy, but I know I am able to stay awake during this movie.
When I cut off the bathroom light and walked back into the room Harry walked in too with a white v neck and navy blue light bottoms, his hair was still up and his face looked damp from being washed as he wanted to remove the evidence of his tears.
"What movie are we watching?" He sat down on the front of the bed with his legs criss crossed and his hands supporting his face looking at me innocently. God he is such a child.
"The Notebook" He shrugs and grabs a bellow from behind and brings it to his chest.
"Want some popcorn?"
"Sure, come on I'll help you" He threw the blanket off his lap and came beside me smiling adorably like a kindergartner.
When we entered the kitchen I already got the idea that everyone is going to be partying till probably 3am.....animals.
"Popcorn is in the pantry" I tell him and he nods walking over into the closet to come back with the box. I grab a bowl and then get water for myself since I want to flush the toxic alcohol out of my system.
"Do you want a beer?" I ask Harry as he presses the start button on the microwave.
"Uh yeah....Can I ask you something?"
"What?"
"Do footballers turn you on?" His smirk was so full and his cheekiness was evident, my cheeks burned with embarrassment.
"I admit I would enjoy something with a 'Beckham'" my wink sends him into surprise and he chuckles and comes closer to me. His face just centimeters away from mines and his arms snaked around my back, my heart was beating so fast that I wanted to scream but I bit my lip down to hold it back.
"Good. Because while you were gone I have been getting better at my skills" His voice was so erotic and rough it's like pure sex.
A stutter exhale came from my body and I looked down away from his dark green eyes and back up into them.
"I'll be the judge of that" I purred with a seductive smile and pushed him away gently with one hand on his chest. He groaned and whined like a child. I am trying to keep this night as simple and slow as I want it to be.
The machine beeps and Harry pours the bag into a bowl and follows behind me as I feel his eyes staring at my behind the whole way.
"Your eyes are staring a hole in my arse" I say with a sassy tone and I could hear him chuckle deeply.
"If you didn't want me to stare than why are you wearing those?" I turned my head around and rolled my eyes, his smirk grew wider as I could tell he was amused by my reaction. His throat rumbled a husky chuckle that made my skin scream with excitement. He just knew the way to make me feel embarrassed doesn't he?
"If you have a problem with them I guess I will put on those thick baggy ugly pajamas my grandmother got me-" He acted fast as he held the bowl to his side with his arm and used his free hand to wrap around my waist, closely connecting us together. His smirk soon grown more intensely seductive as his eyes raided my body's figure, he bit on his bottom lip when his eyes met mines that had a hint of irritation and scolding in them.
"No. I like these very very much better" The words erotically rolled off his tongue and including how he put more into the 3 words being bold about his absolute liking.
His fingers pulled at the elastic black material and it snapped against my skin making me hiss and jump from the stinging circulation around the area on my thigh. My eyes incised into his soul with a warning of anger behind it and he stopped laughing and coughed awkwardly to sly away his behavior.
"Sorry" Harry nervously said as we approached my door and let out a deep chuckle.
"Apologizing for your cheekiness? Oh my, what have ever happened to being proud for it?" I teased and covered my mouth letting out an obviously fake gasp making him chuckle even more at my humor until I dropped it and replaced it with a eye roll and gave him the finger and bit my tongue holding back the laughter.
"Oh and how mature of you" He scoffed, finding a comfortable position on the very front of my bed crossing his legs like a preschooler preparing for 'circle time'. He set the bowl in the space between his legs and watched me walk to the coffee table above the 52" inch thin TV. The menu kept replaying over and over again till I finally pressed 'play' and the movie productions were introducing their trademarks.
I sat myself next to Harry, who kept smiling like an idiot at me as the curves of his mouth squiggled up in a trance and his eyes stayed focus on my face while I turned my attention to the opening.
"Staring is not nice you know" My tone playfully grumbled and a smile was evidently involved and Harry snapped out of 'La La land'.
"It's only acceptable if I am admiring the most beautiful girl that is in my life" Harry purred alluringly and his fingers laced themselves into a raven wavy lock that he kept subtly brushing with his ruff but soft fingers. You know that amazing blissful feeling when someone caresses your locks in admiration and decides to let their fingers travel into your scalp? Even though he wasn't doing that, the roots of each piece thin or thick strand of hair was tingling from his certain silk delicate touch as the growing sensation of dazzling chills spread all around my body having me feel the missing feeling of true pleasure.
My eye lids closed as the chills over ridden me and I wanted to in take them peacefully and without any interruption at the moment as it was too good to ruin such a glowing quality of a vibe.
A loud noise from the movie made my eyes open quickly and catch my breath back to a normal pace, the fading buzz was dying away but slowly as Harry also stopped his motions and removed his heavenly trance touch releasing me from his bewitchingly seducing spell.
I chuckled silently and shook my head as Harry glared at the TV muttering colorful words to it to blame his falling attempt to seduce me.
As Harry continued to pout to himself that he was clearly angered at himself for the moment being ruined. God he has really became such a hot head since the last time....
I turned myself over behind me, pressing my sinking hands into the cloudy feathery soft cushioned fabric as I crawled closer to the top to retrieve some pillows to use as comfort support. When my arms were full of pillows I turned around to see Harry's lust intense stare on my bum, I felt already fed up with his piggish behavior and I cleared my throat loudly and his eyes immediately looked up to see my evident display of irritation and anger in my face expression as my eyes narrowed down more as he gulped and tried to smile innocently.
"Stop it or I will kick you out" My tone was truly self evident that this was the final warning and he pierced his bottom and top pink lush lips together.
"Sorry, I just can't help myself" His tone was surprisingly dripping in a honest serious manor and a weak smile instead relaxed his once tense lips, his vital green eyes now gazed only on my diamond shaped face.
I didn't say anything back I just picked up the 4 pillows and wobbled on my knees to my previous spot. I lounged out my legs and used only 2 pillows to support my leaning elbow and head. Tossing the two extra pillows to Harry who was caught off guard but just silently accepted the offering.
10 minutes of silence and the only thing speaking was the TV itself we were on the part where Noah and Allie break up after he drives away leaving her crying heartbroken on her parents drive way.
My eyes started to water but I sniffle the tears back before they would fall and make me look ridiculous. Harry's weight shifted as I felt and I turned to see that he was smiling down above me with the bowl up in a silent offering motion. I heard the rustling of the undone popcorn seeds around in the white plastic bowl and I could smell the toxic smell of movie theater butter and sea salt aroma tickles my nose. My stomach churned into knots as it was desperately crying for the small snack, but then I remembered that I have already been eating so much already that maybe this really late snack will affect my weight somehow so I reach my hand back to my chest.
"No, I'm fine. But thanks" I shook my head and raised the water to show I was already situated with what I have supplied myself with and Harry's kind soft face tensed as his expression grew annoyed and filled with fiery.
"Why do you refuse to eat it even though you know there is nothing wrong with it?" He growled with clear irritation, my attention snapped alerted by his attitude and a cloud of rage over shadowed before peaceful calm mood.
"Because I don't want to gain any weight and be targeted ok? Why is it so important for you to force me to eat everything I lay my eyes on." Tears started to flood my eyes and my vision began to blur. My words hissed at him as I stood up in a tense posture letting the words lash at him harshly as he was taken aback by my response and his jaw line softened as he looked behind the harsh tone and realize the words I have spoken from deep within me and my glossy watery eyes.
"No one will dare target you in anyway, I never want you to have to feel this way..." His soothing deep voice hushed my broken self as I opened my mouth to let out a small sob and I quickly covered it with both my hands as more tears continued to stream down my wet flaming red cheeks.
My head bowed down from the heavy pain of emotional pain suffocate me as memories of my sad child hood raced through my mind.
"You can't do anything about what happened to me when I was a kind and a pre-teen, it's the past and it still will stay with me and of course it will continue to haunt me "My voice sounded so broken and trembled, I didn't look up to meet Harry's eyes as his silence was terrifying me every moment wanting to know if his response will be negative or positive..
I felt Harry's arms lock around me and tighten as he hushed soothingly, his body felt warm and his touch sent me into a state of tingled feels coursing through every inch of my body. His lips were so close to my cold ear that I could feel the hot breath steam on the ice cold flesh causing my spine to send a current of chills.
"I may not be able to change what happened to you in your past but I know I can make you forget about those horrible memories and to replace them with the heavenly moments we will continue to have together." Harry's celestial silk words caressed my very soul with the light of hope. My lips parted apart from each other to inhale a significant amount of oxygen I have ever emitted into my lungs before as they always felt short and painful, I held the alleviating amount of air to restore the damaged feeling of the brokenness inside me. My lips formed a soft curled 'o' letting out the velvet smooth exhale that emancipated me of the heavy weight of agony tenured onto me.
The droplets of salt water still continued to fall freely dropping out of my eyes, my cheeks sting with the irritation of the mixture and they felt inflamed because of the salt making it feel like I was pouring tears of acid instead. My eyes went swollen from the constant flow and my mouth let out agonizing sobs that made my chest collapse the inner city of my past pain and constant reminders of the agonizing years of depression eating me alive every moment.
Harry pulled away from out powerful embrace tilting my head up to look into his red shot tearing eyes that caught me by surprise, his nose and the rest of his face flamed with redness. Both of his large soft hands shook until they cupped my face so delicately and still I looked into his eyes to see the same sparkle in his green electric eyes that caused my stomach to flip so many times that it made me dizzy myself.
My eyes shut from the wave of exhaustion trying to overcome me with its darkness but I still tightly closed my eyes as more tears fell from them, Harry's soft tender lips kiss the slowly traveling droplets and wiped the rest of my skin with his rough thumbs but I didn't care, because his touch still made me feel the way I would feel before being away from him so long, it made me feel safe and calm.
"Open your eyes baby" His sweet soft voice was the most alluring sound I enjoy hearing especially when he called me by adoring names. My eye lids slowly open up and I met his beautiful face once again and he smiles chuckling lowly.
"Let's get you to bed, you're falling asleep on me" His words cooed softly to me making the corners of my lips smile weakly, he seemed to lift me up with no trouble at all and laid me down on the top where the duvet opens. I didn't move because I watched Harry's every move and felt his every touch on my skin, his slipped in my body carefully into the soft warm duvet and then he himself slipped in right next to me. I don't mind him sleeping with me, I know this wasn't part of the plan before but....things change...
Harry clicked the power off button to the TV and the room remained pitch black and the only light that was available was the beautiful moon shinning through the color glass large windows.
I felt Harry's body try to turn around the other direction opposite from me so it made me panic since I didn't want to sleep alone tonight, I wrap my arms tightly around his torso and he stops moving. I open my eyes to look up to see him smiling down at me adoring the attention he was given at the moment. I stared also at him with a blank but vulnerable expression and he wrapped his arms around me and started to sit his back slightly against the multiple numbers of feathered pillows and started to hum a song.
"What song are you humming?" My curiosity got the best of me and when I asked my voice sounded so small but soft he stopped and smiled mischievously with his dimples cheekily peaking to show and I raised an eyebrow and nestled my head further into his chest.
I'm glad he kept his shirt on because I loved smelling the intoxicating addictive scent that he possessed, whenever he left for days to tour or to work I wouldn't miss him that much but I did but every time I had to sleep in that house alone I always slipped on one of his shirts and snuggle myself into his pillow, I was always comforted by his scent because it made me feel safe and to know I was loved so much.
"It's a song, I wrote it a long time ago" I stopped nestling myself deeper into him and looked up at him with adoring eyes waiting for him to continue on making sure he knew I was giving him my full attention.
"When will I get to hear it?" His smile showed his flawless white teeth and his gorgeous dimples, he was either glowing from the happiness of my interest in his hard work or it is the white piece of glass reflecting the light on us, I say both.
"Maybe very soon" He answered leaning down to kiss the smooth hairless skin next to my lips causing the same butterfly effect and glowing tingling sensation spread through me, when his lips pull away from me I literally wasn't in control when I unwrapped my hand and grabbed a fistful of his curls in my hands and pressing his head towards mine and our lips connected instantly.
Surprisingly Harry was taking this 'slow', his kiss wasn't aggressive nor was it sloppy it was passionate and sweet. I loved the way my lips felt moving against his as he enjoyed the way my lips felt against his, wanting to go a little faster I glide the tip of my tongue lightly across his bottom lip and he accepts my acceptance to explore inside his mouth. Our tongue didn't fight for dominance as they just mutually moved together perfectly making my heart beat faster and faster every second. My fingers softly roamed around in Harry's curls and my fingers skin touched his scalp a deep moan produced from the back of his throat. His hand now was tightly grabbing onto my thigh causing his fingers to dig into my skin trying to control himself before he touched something else.
I wanted to kiss him endlessly but I am human I need oxygen to live so does he.
We both pulled away together which surprised me that we were both panting for air, my lungs felt like they were on fire just putting myself through that just to try to have a never lasting connection between our lips.
I studied Harry's face as he still tried to catch his breath, his eyes were a jade color and the clear look in his eye showed the sign of pure lust. Harry smirked as he noticed me checking his reaction.
"It took all of my strength not to get on top of you and-" He was clearly proud of what he was about to declare but I wanted to stop him before I could hear it out loud for myself, covering my hand over his mouth he raised an eyebrow and tightly gripped my wrist licking all over my palm. His tongue felt warm, tender, and moist I didn't protest as I noticed what exactly he was doing on the palm of my hand. He watched me with such a dark seductive look while making his way up to the my fingers by zig zaging his tongue in a motion till in a straight line his sucked in my pointing finger and swirled wet circles around it.
I immediately knew what he was up to and to be honest it was working because I felt the familiar feeling of a warm pit at the bottom of my stomach.
He laughed as I wiped my hand on his shirt and continued to shake my head muttering rubbish.
"You are such a freak" I scolded and he looked at me for a second with wide eyes and his expression totally shocked till he busted into a fit of laughter, laughing extremely loud. I had to admit it was funny so I laughed with him, Harry is a freak but he's an undercover freak...sometimes.
"Ok, my undercover freak it's time to go to bed. I'm tired" His face was blistering red as he took a liking into his nickname and brings me closer into his chest, I laid my cheek on his shoulder nestling my nose into his shirt like before and he closed his eyes and started to hum the same tune again.
He must really want me to kill him over a song to know what it was.
Harry can be such a tease.
I look up at him again and he fast asleep already as small snores departed from his lips and his eyebrows scrunched together for a second as I kept leaning closer and closer to him to place a sweet lingering peck on his thin pink lips. When I pulled away he snorted and grumbled something making me giggle but not too loud to wake him, I laid my head right where it was before and closed my eyes slowly as if the curtain was closing for this part of the play and it will continue soon right after intermission.
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