As much as I cry, no one sees my tears...
As much as I am scared of pain, no one sees my fears.
As much as I want to leave, no one is holding me here...
I stay because loneliness is a thing that I fear.
I stay because "no one else will want me" is the thing that I hear...
And I believe it...
I am washed up and unwanted.
As much as I struggle, no one knows of my troubles...
Not a soul knows about my struggle.
As much as I yearn for your acceptance...
I am more than grateful for each lesson.
I thank the stars above for my every blessing...
That you gave to me
It is those same very stars that I put my faith in.
As much as I want to breakdown...
I know I should not throw my towel to the ground.
I keep on, quietly, without a sound...
As much as I scream and cry in the inside,
I seriously want to release this agony out loud.
But my mind won't let me...
I don't want to be looked at differently.
I don't want to be judged...
As much as I held back saying this
all I need is your love.
I am just desperate for your attention...
I am in need of your time and affection.
I am tired of the heartache
scars from depression.
Non-stop praying for a new beginning.
How much longer do I have to keep praying?
As much as I want this to work...
I have grown to realize my worth.
You are no longer worth my time.
© Nikey Pasco-Dunston 2016
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